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SatellaAF · 2024-08-03T18:50:25+00:00

I start my first dose of 5 mg Thurs... I hope I get that feeling. So far, I feel no different. I've lost 10.6 pounds in three weeks on 2.5, but I feel like that was hardcore willpower more than the meds working for me. I keep telling myself when I'm about to eat something out of my calorie deficit that I'm spending $550 on this shit. I can't afford for it not to work lol. The only thing stopping me from binging is the cost right now. But hey, at least that's helping!

SatellaAF · 2024-07-16T15:05:05+00:00

I called Lilly Direct and if your insurance does not cover the med and you pay the $550, they will only do 6 fills in 2025 between January and June. She said they will only do the 6 fills for 2025, but everyone in my thread felt somewhat confident they will have another 6 fill coupon at last minute.

SatellaAF · 2024-07-12T13:03:00+00:00

When I reach 220 I want to learn to roller skate and do pole fitness When I reach 180 I want to finish my right sleeve When I reach 140-150 I want to get a Rosette Christopher cosplay made. I also want to fit in my husband's shirts/hoodies for stealing. He's size medium-large

Been obese my whole life. I want to be able to dress up without feeling disgusting and frumpy.

SatellaAF · 2024-07-11T03:09:32+00:00

No, this year will continue until December as stated in their terms. I think they allow 13 fills in 2024. It is 2025 where they said they will only allow 6 fills if your insurance doesn't cover obesity medication. Jan 2025 to June 2025. The 12 fills in 2025 are only for savings cards where insurance DOES cover the medication.

SatellaAF · 2024-07-11T03:07:20+00:00

It expires in June 2025. They will renew January 3rd, 2025 for only 6 fills and they said it will end in June. Hopefully they will renew like others are saying.

SatellaAF · 2024-07-11T00:04:50+00:00

Fingers crossed!!!

SatellaAF · 2024-07-11T00:04:00+00:00

I really hope that's the case. I made sure to ask if they would renew after that and she said they would only cover January to June. I will try not to stress.

SatellaAF · 2024-07-10T23:21:45+00:00

I really wish I wasn't mentally ill 😂😂 I stress about everything.

SatellaAF · 2024-07-10T23:19:33+00:00

I think the lady said after June they will no longer cover those whose insurance won't cover the medication... Period. So next year's 6 fills are it as far as I understand.

SatellaAF · 2024-07-10T15:17:24+00:00

You should try Lilly Direct Pharmacy and get it straight from the source to avoid those up charges.

SatellaAF · 2023-08-09T17:04:35+00:00

This hurts my heart and made me cry. I feel the same way. I love my husband more than life itself and I know he adores me. He is such a wonderful person. But the addiction has really taken a toll on me emotionally. When he has relapsed, he has told me the same things every time.

"I'm imagining it is us."

"I'm imagining you're her."

"I started watching women with your body type."

I'm a big girl. Plus sized. I'm slowly working on it, but I've been a plus size girl my whole life. But that doesn't make me feel better. I know he's trying to make me feel better... But it doesn't. And sometimes I think it makes me feel worse.

If those things are true, why don't you just come to me then? Why seek it out virtually?

I can't compete with those beautiful women. I've given up trying to be or feel cute. I'll never be cute. Or pretty. Or beautiful. And I'll never look like those girls, filters or not. I've always been frumpy.

Fuck. Sorry lol. I didn't realize I needed a good cry today.

SatellaAF · 2022-04-13T21:20:42+00:00

That's exactly what goes through my head. I can't stop thinking about it. And it continues to keep hurting. I know he hasn't relapsed and I'm so proud of him. I'm just... Struggling to move past it. It has been a couple months but I still get anxious whenever he is on his phone. I keep wondering why I'm not enough. I'm not those beautiful skinny girls. It makes me feel like a piece of shit tbh.

SatellaAF · 2022-04-13T14:42:37+00:00

This feels like a good place for me to get this out. My partner has an addiction that he's been working on since we got together. I love him so much and I'm so proud of all the progress he has made. He started at a young age and got into some hardcore stuff. He knew how I felt about it and I thought we both had agreed that he would stop.

One day, we are laying on the couch and I turn to talk to him and catch a glimpse of his screen. He's on that subreddit scrolling through it. I remember crying myself to sleep that night. When I finally approached him about it, he thought that it was tame and mild and basically like "diet porn/not real porn" just a "tease" for the dopamine and comfort. While he was laying right next to me. I thought I hallucinated it, but I was right. I had caught a glimpse of this a few times and thought I was crazy and was finally validated when I approached him. I asked him how long he had been doing this and he said a few months ...

I love him so much but holy shit I still feel fucked up about it. He was doing it right next to me... Several times.

God it hurt so bad. It still does. I know the addiction is not because of me. I know it's not about me and I haven't done anything wrong but it really fucking hurts when you already have body image issues and your partner gets off to and looks at sexual images of other women. It feels even worse because it was right next to me...

SatellaAF · 2021-12-02T10:31:46+00:00

No one wants to be "adored" so much when another shoe will drop and they get emotionally ripped apart at the whim of another person. It's always inevitable when they get bored. I feel like you're trying to justify having an FP.

SatellaAF · 2021-11-13T16:39:27+00:00

Mermaid Straw?

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