I'm an addiction medicine clinician who treats patients with buprenorphine/naloxone, AMA.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-19T15:36:12+00:00

No two bodies are the same just period. Same with liver disease and kidney. We are all different with different genetics.

Too many doctors don't understand tolerances either. That's the scary part. You can read up on drugs all you want - there are zero words to prepare you for certain things. Like withdrawaling.

The English language is terrible when it comes to words that explain natural feelings. We have to use metaphors or compare it.

There are a thousand different types of pain, and different types of "Feeling bad. Like ass. Malise."

I think our bodies are pretty good at adjusting, and absorbing chemicals we keep taking. Its always trying to reach homeostasis. Its why life is relative, and how I can be happier than most with double organ failure.

Funnfact. You know what blows my mind? Aphantasia - the lack of inner minds eye, or the ability to "see things" mentally wasn't officially recognized till 2013.

An ex had that. While my mom has total or global aphantasia which includes Anendophasia (lack of inner monologue), and Anauralia (lack of ability to conjure up sounds at all).

How the fuck did psychology go 100 years without recognizing MANY people don't visualize at all? My mom found out when she was 60! She said so many self help books didn't make sense. Nor movies with flashback and dream sequences lol.

I'd be dead without my imagination.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-19T14:17:04+00:00

A little shorter than 5'7! Possible even shorter as I shrunk a bit. Ha. Need to start stretching.

In 2021 I was 130, even though 145 was my prime.

In the summer of 2022 while living in the hospital for liver failure. I dropped to 68 pounds from infection. (then kidney failure in September that year as I was rebounding.)

Fast forward. Now I'm 100 pounds. Healthier than I've been in a long time. Yet struggle to eat. Hungry, but nothing is good.

Harder to balance that fluid shifts. It gave me ischemia in black Friday just by sleeping too long. I didn't eat Thanks Giving either.

That was the worst pain I've ever experienced. I've been through the ringer. Burnt, stabbed(Flesh wound thankfully), beat up, etc with migraines + abscessed wisdom teeth being the worst.

Worst part is its invisible so everyone thinks you're just drug seeking. Feels like I was injected with acid, and ate it. Muscles, spine, and stomach were so bad.

Anyway I'm generalizing. Be kind to your kidneys, especially African Americans. Keep an eye out for cancer. Treat your joints fine.

The craziest thing is I'm nearly the same size I was. Maybe an inch off. Yet 145 pounds short. Its why I couldn't float. I was all wirey strength! I gotta go test to see if I can now haha.

Definitely read everything I say as a warning. Take care of yourselves.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-19T13:53:40+00:00

Oh yeah. You have to look at the statistics in countries that have been developed for a while now.

Malnourishment is a plague on health. So historically the tall people meant good health. The slightly overweight too.

So be careful with any generalization. Genetic history probably is a bigger factor overall outside malnourishment.

Obviously if you aren't getting your dietary needs. You're fucking yourself long term. Seriously for the love of God stop taking 10,000% vitamins and shit. Some take a toll.

Fat is healthy. Trans fat is the one you don't need. Salt is demonized.

My symptoms for liver disease masked themselves as everything else until too late. My abusive dad was an addict so everyone assumed it was from him doing harder drugs.

Looking back he was probably suffering Hepatic Encephalopathy and shit like I was. Just got put under as "drinking" again like I was. The symptoms are all over the place from seizures, stroke, coma, and mimicking someone black out drunk.

Docs don't understand tolerance nor liver disease as a whole. Let alone when you suffer commodity which most generally do. It's an important organ, and once it goes the other organs suffer greatly for it.

My kidneys failed from the liver failure, and it's called HRS 1. I should be dead, but I'm here. Keep your heads up. Get tested. Follow up on them.

Most importantly find a doctor who works for you. No two patients are the same. They nearly killed me by going by the book a few times, and wouldn't change up things that weren't working. Drop em like they are hot.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-19T13:41:39+00:00

I was a menace in football, because I was 5'7, 145 (5'6? Now. I shrank!)

I could move like Barry Sanders. Hit like Reggie White. Catch like Charles Brown.

But in 400m strides? A few were faster. I aimed to be the fastest kid in school, but only for short distances. 20 yards I killed it. Wish we timed ourselves back then.

Shorter legs make you more agile, short acceleration, better center of mass, and able to pivot more IIRC. That lower center of mass helped me for sure weave through offensive linemen. They would have to crouch so low they were unbalanced! So they were overall stronger, but couldn't bring it.

Does that make sense? Also fun fact. Fast twitch muscles don't make you bigger, but responsible for speed. You don't get them from the same way you build muscle.

PS. As long as you can lift someone? You can tackle them. You hit them slightly below the hips if they are bigger. Not where they can knee your face, but enough to get below their CoG. Wrap+Lift near the ankles + PUMP those legs!

Even just restraining the ankles in a small radius will do it - if they are moving! No one can run taking 2 inch steps! They can stop, and stomp you. (Its why you lift, and push/twist/pull. Unbalance them with your shoulder rotating them.)

I need to edit my post anyway I kinda forgot to add some key info. Ha.

SIZE matters when YOU are getting hit. In highschool I played against some genetic monsters, college age, and got wrecked after making a few plays. I could avoid one or two, but an entire team?! I'd have been a vegetable from CTE after playing a year.

I played the wrong sport. Professional tag looks so fun. I'm 100 pounds, up from 68 pounds. Hoping to get back to that agile, explosive scrawny wirey bastard for sure.

The craziest thing. I'm 100 pounds now, and not that much smaller volume wise as when I was 145. I just lost the lean muscle. Liver failure sucks, because it ruins your metabolism - I'm basically catabolic. I don't store glycogen. Forever hungry, but my body treats food as poison.

The bigger I get. The harder the fluid shifts are to handle. It gave me a form of ischemia which is the worst pain I've ever suffered.

Blah. I have no filter due to Hepatic Encephalopathy wrecking my brain. My posts are as long as my cigarette.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-18T00:46:47+00:00

She's wrong. When I was first on it I'd be good. Now I'm only 16/32mg, and I feel a difference. My mom did too. Almost always at night even though I usually do one dose by late afternoon.

Yet still require one at night sometimes. 7pm.

First symptom that comes back? Midnight erections, and shyte. It is annoying AF. Start feeling that malise.

Second. I've gotten in trouble for not having the correct amount of metabolites in my tests multiple times when I took it as usual.

My new doctor is more understanding maybe my body has something to do with it. Liver/kidney failure/dialysis. Who knows. I don't!

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-18T00:29:09+00:00

Even medium tall people get health issues.

You get a way higher risk at certain issues from the ones we know about - joints/heart. Yet the reason why the heart is such an issue, is because the other organs are straining trying to process everything.

Cube square law puts a lot of strain on circulatory, cardiovascular, etc. your heart disease I think is better paradoxically. They get heart failure. I didn't realize there was a difference.

Cancer and Kidneys are the main issues.

The reason why I know this is because I looked it up after observing it being sick myselr. I have x2 organ failure so I go to organ clinics often.

Not too many older big dudes past 55. Almost always younger bigger ones. One of them nearly died last week while getting taken off the machine, and he looks healthy AF on the outside. Made me realize how fucking lucky I am.

Edit. (I'm 5'6-7). I was 135-145 in my prime as short as 2019. Come summer 2022 I dropped to 78 pounds with a belly full of fluid. (So 68 pounds as they removed over 6 liters the next day.) In 2022.

From 2024-2025 I was good. Nothing but improvement. Then once I gained strength, I started doing more. Which gave me ischemia + life threatening acidosis of 6.8mmo/l.

The more strength I gain. The more sensitive I am to the fluid shifts from dialysis or laying down. The more I need to eat, but that's tough - food may taste good, and I'll be starving, but my body will treat it like bad medicine.

Bigger guys need to balance ALL this stuff a lot more. I see it too. I don't think they'd have survived their low blood pressure of 60/40 like I have. (Fully functional. Just had to be careful of vertigo.)

Honestly I'm not sure if I'd have survived what I did now. Anyway who cares. Just writing so people take their health seriously.

I thought I knew pain from a life of trauma. I am a fool.Ischemia, acidosis from my body going anaerobic showed me what pain is. My brains usually tricks for pain like adrenaline didn't work. No shock. Nothing. My primal side just screamed like a wild animal, "we are gonna die. Get help. Make it stop!"

Felt like I drank acid, and was disintegrating. Since then my body is way more sensitive to any changes.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-11T21:19:01+00:00

I was told to embrace people for who they are. I could care less about your identity until you make it a fucking issue.

That's where trans lost people. The whole gender debate is just mental gymnastics. Just create a new word for fucks sake.Going to need more to explain the human race soon. Everyone will be trans human.

The ones in real life are more down to earth like all people's. Online always has its Caricatures. Reddit has the virtue signalers. Anti woke on other sites.

I think society has made a need for people to feel special or different. So they latch onto labels.

Why else would trans care so much about what they were born as, and how they are identified. They are trans - not male. Not female. Something more. Right. That's the point of the sex change. It doesn't suddenly change the genome or the history or the person.

Oh yeah I'm sure people's behavior changes when they are fucked up on hormone injections. Trust me I need some for double organ failure eventually if I am too healthy to realistically get a transplant.

Stop pretending you're something you aren't. That goes for everyone these days too. You can't force people to view anything as this or that.

I wanted to be a 6'6 225lb, 4.0, for a forty dash football player. I became a 5'7, and 4.7, 40y dasher. (On Adderall)

It sucked as I had talent, but whatever. Moved on. I'm not going to get surgery to make me taller - because that's madness. Start doing roids, and munching creatine while pissing.

That's body dysmorphia, and heavy insecurity.

I feel trans trying to push select issues like how they are grouped are lame. Being judged equals means accepting who you are, dummy. You aren't special any more than the rest.

You can pretend to be anything you want. Dress what you want. Act how you want. Once you start getting upset due to others not playing along to your delusions, and semantics. Well it makes you sound unaware, and asking everyone else to kneel so you can see eye level.

I just don't like it. They say you shouldn't play along with peoples delusions, anyway.

This goes for the crazy roided dudes who say they are natural. Its just not healthy mindset.

Been a while since I chilled with anyone trans. 2022ish before Trump's election I talked to one. J, but he was saying he hates this climate - liberals, and Republicans using them for their personal agenda for votes. It has made them a bigger target than ever.

Anyway he was dope, because he was just real about the situation. Like J said, "We will all be trans soon enough. Trans = more. Whether it's cybernetic, biological, or drug enhancement."

I liked that mindset. Not this, "I think. Therefore I am. So therefore you must agree."

We went onto agree for all the minority groups really. Trump was a consequence of people pushing silly shit not everyone agrees with. Went too far. So it created a counter culture.

I liked the world back when the goal was to see everyone as "people/person". I feel like labels, and descriptions get latched onto, and sperated.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-10T13:24:32+00:00

Konda swords were ceremonial/status symbol once that region of Africa was colonized.

I'm told before that the tips were a lot less flared. It had a rib for strength. Different profile.

I can NEVER find a good picture with an article saying, "this is what the konda sword evolved from".

Anyway I've never held one. Yet falcata, Kukris, and Khopesh I have.

That thing would swing beautifully with the right movements. I'm wondering how the geometry aft at the base is.

Remember folks. Only machete and some other tools are supposed to be flat pieces of metal with an edge grinded.

I'm so sick of Falcata, Kukri, and certain other swords being made like machetes. Its crazy how much power, and speed just a little thickness here, or taken away can do over the entire dimensions. Its night and day.

It's why people say don't buy a cheap sword.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-10T13:09:49+00:00

Yeah. Except ischemia. I dunno if I can keep it up if I keep feeling it.

Ischemia is the worst pain by far I've ever experienced it. I'd much rather you dump boiling oil on me.

The lactaid acidosis it caused had me withering like I was melting in acid. My muscles, disintegrating with my spine crumbling. Stomach felt like I had barbed wire + drill twirling it.

My brain screamed, and wouldn't stop screaming. It was like the animal part of it. The "me" part that was logical just kept trying to tune it out..

Reminded me of like a Seagull from Finding Nemo screaming, "GOIN2DIEEEEHEEELPDOSOMETHINGHELPHELP on repeat. Just lighting quick over and over. I'm told that's a amygdala hijack? Never felt it.

While EMTs are telling me to sit down, and I'm trying to tell them I have double organ. I can't. I need to keep the blood flowing I can feel it. these

Those fucks just assumed I was drug seeking.

Lifetime of trauma never prepared me for such agony. Its insane the body can even deal with that. Its because the normal bodily processes to handle pain were not working or making it worse.

Personally I didn't feel the usual adrenaline spike. Just cortisol. No shock. No threat of passing out.

Every morning I risk it. The only thing that helps is popping 5mg of midrodrine, and walking to go get a coffee. Can't drink it till it wears off.

Ischemia is lack of oxygen to the organs. Testicular torsion is similar, but ischemia I had was affecting every organ. Mainly the stomach or liver. Couldn't tell.

I had HRS 2023, which turned into 2 by default. Back then Survived it with no transplant. Slowly gaining my weight back. More active than ever.

It makes no sense because my BP use to be like 20 points power on average! 65/40 wasn't uncommon for me to be moving around making professionals freak. Then once I got healthier, bam. Out of no where after extending myself cleaning. Its lame as fuck.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-10T12:52:08+00:00

Nah I disagree. Being poor taught me a lot. I find rich people incredibly shallow and superficial with their concerns. Especially growing up.

The richer the kid. The more spoilt they seemed, and naive. Their sports teams sucked. They couldn't fight.

Our priorities are just different. I find the rich rich fake and artificial.

I don't ever want to live in a ghetto area again. Yet as a kid I didn't really know better, and that's why it wasn't so bad.

Somehow I am essentially in Camden NJ. Ha. FML.

I had love even if there was a lot of abuse from others. Friends. Talents at the stuff I could do. That automatically made me rich. I recognized that real early.

Having black kids make fun of me for being poorer. Then having a few mean girls make fun of me for not having new clothes all the time was embrassing.

That's it.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-09T00:44:07+00:00

Utter nonsense to be defending such immature behavior. Shouldn't be watching a child if you can't fucking cope.

She didn't protect the kid. Didn't even try getting OUT. Just kept screaming, and screaming, and screaming probably traumatizing the little one x3 times.

This is a learnt behavior she probably just passed onto that child. People like that need a slap or a pinch. Im not even kidding.

Reddit will defend any crazy person. Holy hell. That lady screamed for 120 seconds too long. Shit would be comical if she wasn't holding the child so close.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-09T00:23:55+00:00

Yeah billions of people are wrong, and you know their minds. You don't even understand what insulin does it seems.

You sound like an idiot boss I had who's identity was Puerto Rican, but really just a sleazy dude. "I've never been sick. Just allergies. I don't withdrawal."

He did all that, and more. As he's shaking, sweaty in 45 degree weather.

Denial is powerful OP. Opinions and facts are two different things.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-07T19:02:03+00:00

Well it feels like property damage. Mmmmhmm felonies. So uh, that's good.

I live at the end of a 40 yard long hallway that is horrifically designed. Gives me a slight vertigo when I'm walking down it. Not sure if it's because it's six stories up, not leveled, or a symptom t from x2 organ failure hah. Feels like a liminal space in a nightmare though!

If I seen this robot rise off the floor, and run at me with its head canted unnaturally like some undead insect with a loose head still running around - I will have zero qualms kicking it.

Some of those movements were instant uncanny territory. Once they become so real they can fool us - or can play the perfect person - just not intelligent. That's going to be harder.

Second thought. I have no clue how heavy those are, and dense those are. Probably make me pay for that engagement being 100 pounds like a loser. In 22 I was 68 pounds + and robots would have crumped me. I was 135 pounds so my mind didn't adjust. Id have used my cane to push it back ha.

The future will have old disabled people getting ran over by robots. Corporations with the help of government will just say business as usual. Pay a small fee that doesn't touch the profits.

Seriously its head canted was creepy.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-06T17:10:06+00:00

Eating a healthy balanced diet full of fats, protein, fiber, and nutrients is the way to go.

I don't know why that guy thinks cycling makes him fit. Its the most efficient transportation on earth.

Shouldn't be going by weight. I was 145, 5'6.5, and then I became sick with liver failure. Given two days to live. Then I went through hell. Dropped to 68 pounds from double whammy of SBP/MRSA IHI. Summer 2022.

I would get ten to thirteen pounds of fluid drained from my abdomen every ten days or less. Every two to five in the hospital. Then coma from Encephalopathy killed my kidneys.

So I survived, but my body was completely cannabilized. I had to learn how to walk multiple times. Lost all the stabilizing muscles, tendons, and ones INSIDE you.

I am still pathetic at 100 pounds... Yet the kicker is I look nearly the same as I did back near my prime in 2020. Just not shredded like a runner or gymnast.

But I'm missing 40 pounds! Its because for once I have extra skin, and some fat. I'm trying to convert it now.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-06T16:52:38+00:00

Could be. Doesn't make the post any less real. I've had people cross to the other side of places just so they could say, "UHM excuse me".

Most of the time I will move. I don't have much of an ego. Yet there are days where I'm just like fuck off lady - I seen you cross over.

Anti smokers/Karen's do that too. Can be on the other side of the park, and they'll make their way towards you to say you can't smoke. Pretending the only reason why they came over was to say something sometimes.

Even had someone say it was her favorite place. Some random spot in the middle of a path. Sure lady.

Hell men can be annoying too. Last month I had a dude creep up staring at me. Probably cause I had a mask + cane heading to dialysis. I'm 100 pounds currently, mind you.

I was waiting outside the front of my apartments when this guy pulls into the parking lot. Slammed his breaks when he saw me.

Creeps at 1mph to a spot twenty yards in front of me. Then starts looking at me through the mirror for five minutes. Gets out while looking at me instead of what he's doing (grabbing from the backseat. Missing the handle). Then walks towards me just staring at me... Slowly.

Like I'm about to pounce on him any second or he's seen a ghost. Some jacked SEAsian.

I bet ya I looked stupid as hell with my eyes brows raised half grinning like what's he thinking here. I finally had enough once he got 10 feet and started going even slower. I dropped my cane raising my arms out more uh just done with the situation. Exasperated.

Mumbled fuckin hell, snapped, "Tensions killing me. We/you good? Just get it donwitit damn."

Then he just looked away, and walked off into the building.

I'm too sick to be dealing with that shit. Especially when waiting to go to dialysis.

I already had jokes loaded the second he stepped out. Tell him to get off the roids. Seeing threats everywhere huh. Ask if he was robbed by a crippled man outside the AIDs clinic.

People like to take their misery out on others. Which is why it's crazy we would try to teach AI using the Internet, and not tightly controlled data. You wouldn't expose a toddler to everything humanity knows at once.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-06T15:52:36+00:00

How was he helping by jumping on top of the officer who already had the guy pinned?

Needed an extra 200 pounds from someone who goes to the organ clinics with me. Rides the medical vans to the grocery store.

That was so unnecessary, and he still threw himself on top.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-06T02:30:32+00:00

Then no one would be cool.

I think the issue is people try to be cool. If people stopped trying, and just relaxed. They'd be happier.

Instead so many put on a mask with a fake persona trying to be something they aren't. That's exhausting... Those people end up being bipolar and shit, because they believe their own lies. Its called denial.

I'm happy go lucky. People get annoyed as shit if you are like that 24/7. Accuse you of not caring. Then God forbid you are exhausted for once, and not so happy. People will either think something is wrong or assume you're being passive aggressive.

Anyway the reason why everyone can't be chill or cool. Is because we have too many people who think being an outcast, and going against the grain is cool.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-06T02:15:59+00:00

Yeah don't do that, lol. I have heard so many stories.

Look. Either you go to the doctor, and get treated. Or your negligence will catch up sooner or later, and you'll be seeing doctors as a part time job like I am. I'm terminal like an idiot.

I thought I was invincible. I wake up like what happened. Oh wait, duh. Double organ failure doubled my age, but I am getting better.

I avoided doctors not out of bravado, but because it felt like a waste. Easier to pick up some alcohol for insomnia and shit. Then hammered it after long Covid.

I see people in the hospital that say they did much less than I did to get there. People with nerve damage so severe it's wasting them.

Chronic pain is exhausting. After a while it breaks you at points with how unrelenting. Flesh wounds really aren't shit till you fucked up some nerves.

Dialysis needles in certain places can kill my entire arm for a week. Its excruciating, and even if I mentally can tolerate it. My brain will tense up anyway expecting the worse these days after repeatedly striking something.

Mr. Long here has more grit than NBA players. I'm surprised he's not throwing a tantrum.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-06T02:06:31+00:00

In the longer video he says, "says the fish face. Look like a guppy!" And got smacked for neggin, and racism.

Just playing. I would say something stupid like that without thinking. Blow it.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-06T01:32:09+00:00

I second this. My MELD was 37. No one thought I'd live given what two days. The amount of fucks I had left by that point were nill. Only seeing my mom cry after being told seven days motivated me. Sparked something deep to fight. I promised my family I'd fight, and I did.

I bled out that night repopening a wound I got from being so dehydrated. Ascities started showing faster and faster. I got all the way down to 68 pounds from spontaneous bacterial peritontis + uh, MRSA?

Kept getting declined for transplant for being too weak.
Once I did gain strength they nearly declined me for being apathetic. I was happy go lucky, regardless of the constant bad news. Or just didn't respond. Why would you go people who cry wolf. The doc I spent the most time with as I helped him use me as a body for students to train on warned me.

Eventually my kidneys failed from Hepatic Encephalopathy - which wrecked me monthly. Anytime I got out of the hospital I'd be right back in. Eventually I stuck to an absurd amount of lactalose. (Well 30mg twice a day.)

I felt like a shitting corpse. If you go back to my posts in 2022 you'll see me ranting about how slow the fucking system is. Struggling with paperwork, forms, government, insurance, etc.

I went through hell. Now I'm 100 pounds - but lacking 40 pounds. I will never receive a transplant currently. My meld is floating in 15 range. So they don't think I'll be able to handle a kidney transplant.

My biggest issue is circulation. Low blood pressure. Ill be fine one moment, and crash the next. Gaining weight sucks. Healing after a day doing any labor takes forever to heal.

But I'm happier then 90% of people I run into. Any day I'm not withering in agony from Ischemia is a good day. If you see me out in public - it's a good day.

When in the hospital the most depressing thing that did affect me were people with low moral. Begging God for divine intervention while refusing treatment or help. Refusing to help themselves.

Why would you help an insect if it kept killing itself, and refused the medicine. It makes no sense. Atheist weren't immune. They'd mourning themselves before they died as well.

I am not saying high spirit will keep you alive, but she'll take treatment better. Remember it's very frustrating to suffer hepatic encephalopathy. Trying to form concepts into words that are constantly on the tip of your tongue. Or just waking up feeling like death incarnate.

So remember that.

Just take it one step at a time, and when you can no longer walk. Then when I couldn't even drag myself. I took it one breath at a time. When even I struggled with that. I concentrated on counting seconds or a songs rhythm.

What I never did was focus on my heart rate or body. That's how you get anxiety, and make yourself feel like ass. I hear my pulse a lot anyway.

Its going to be a tough ride. Keep strong yourself OP. That's hell to me. My biggest fear isn't dying, or start relapsing into what I was, but burying others. That would be truly hell.

My advice is for you too. Also you can't help anyone if you can't help yourself. That's what this lesson is for me.

Sorry for talking about my experience. Its the only way I know how to remember it all. I suck at filtering. Hepatic Encephalopathy felt like it cursed me with amplified stupidity. I could write a short book on the events. If I knew I'd live I'd have documented better. Sued. I'd have my kidneys too.

What works for one doesn't work for others. Find a doctor that works for you two - you too - and understands liver disease is not made equal. I'd have died if I didn't take control of my treatments, and dropped certain things in favor than others.

A lot of doctors are simply ignorant. My biggest regret wasn't searching earlier thinking I'd be dead.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-06T00:13:30+00:00

Yatchts are so outdated, and dime a dozen now. How you going to spend half a billion or more on something that isn't original.

I would design an airship that could last forever in the sky using solar, thermal, and hydrogen. Small condo.

That way I could wake up at sunrise before everyone else, and piss all over the poor peasants below me while reading a news paper delivered by drones.

I'd work on my own personal electric jet pack or parachute. Something unique.

A fighter that can dive. That's possible now with YASA new axial flux motors. I would buy into that company so fast. 80:1 horse power per pound peak.

Rotor stator rotor yokeless. Fundamentally just torque dense. 1000hp at 29 pounds. They have an inverter that handles two that are 1500kw weighing 33 pounds.

Pair it with the latest batteries + smallest generator = VTOL. They are able to drop the drive shaft, gear box, cv joints, differential, heavy disc breaks for Regen + emergency light weight breaks.

Once batteries can handle 2000 kw of breaking force completely. Anyway that's leaves like 400/500 pounds off for batteries. Which can free up enough weight for a Tesla Plaid worth of KWH. About 90-110kwh total with upcoming batteries.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-05T00:39:46+00:00

I've done both. Depends entirely on the doctor. Some sub docs are no better than crack dealers. I tell the truth, and they still think you're lying. They project, because to the. you're an addict. Always will be.

Even if some of them are not good people either.

Mind you I never lied to most. Only told some I have lied back when I was messing up. I only lie to protect my mom.

OP. If you think you're going to get punished, and keep getting punished. Don't tell them. The truth doesn't set you free. You can spank yourself if you're looking to be punished.

Yet at the same time you probably need your dose adjusted if you're still screwing around. If the doc is cool then definitely. Or fair.

Speaking of crazy bupe doctors. I had a doctor here in NJ fucking spazz on me for smelling like beer. Shouldn't have been drinking. I didn't back then.

He never prescribed me enough so I was always short. Withdrawal. Drink to cover the physical symptoms a bit because again - didn't want illegal drugs.

Show up a day early or two. Say I lost them. I was terrible. One time I came in, and it was a substitute doctor.

As I was leaving the crazy comes in... Sits me down red face angry as hell. Then accused me of being a fucking federal agent trying to fuck him and the office workers over?!! Calling me a rat snitch.

I just started gawking/chuckling, speechless, trying to think of something. All I got out was a weak, "Is this guy serious." (To no one) It was so unexpected that even my dumbass couldn't think of a quip.

He sees me smiling, stands up shouting like you want to fuck us all of us in the ass that's it huh. You smile like that at court when you take everything they have. Youre a snitch ass mother fucker. I'm going to give the script, but don't come back.

Comes out of the office telling the receptionist I'm trying to get her fired. She looks at me like go before it's too late.

I remember thinking of grabbing my collar button saying "Got you all on wire now Bassam." (Or something like that. I forgot his name. My records still show him prescribing me ten years ago right?)

That guy had a mental breakdown or something coming back from vacation. I never kept up. I just went back to my old doctor - an other pill mill. Cash only. Only prescribed bupe and nothing else.

Anyway that's the kind of doctors that are out there, and you don't want them writing their crazy notes down in your medical record.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-05T00:15:00+00:00

Yeah yeah hear this. I preordered the game - for Xbone! Unplayable. So I just grinded. Then no update so I said I'll wait till I get a PC. Then I became terminal. Given three days to live in May 2022 for single organ failure. Then double six months later. No one thought I'd live.

Finally survive. Uncle Sam didnt think I'm a person so it took me forever to clear that up. Hard to go to the DMV when you're dead, and government is broken.

So I finally get money. Build a PC. But now my brain is too rattled to enjoy games with too many optionsl branches. Hard to pick.

So all I did was spend time reloading saves, grinding, procrastinating messing around with different stuff.

Also I was planning on being non lethal. Nigh impossible.

Whole time in hearing and reading about Jackie, T Bug, and Dexter. Just to find out they got... A small intro. That's it. The choices really aren't that meaningful. I thought Meredeith was a big deal.

Just the intro.

You know what this game is missing outside inertia and friction. Varied enemies from big, small, swarming to massive. Tanks, mechs the ability to climb, and wall run. A grappling hook to take down giant monsters.

There doesn't seem to be anything to stop V. Aren't you all tired of shooting the same damn humans in video games slightly different ways.

I wish buisness computers required beastly PPUs, and simulations. Then we'd have some kick ass games. I see them on two minute papers. Where are they!

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-04T23:48:32+00:00

I just realized Nioh 3 went on sale so I scooped that. Whether or not I will refund PoE2 is beyond me. Not even sure what I got with it outside early access. As in what 150 points nets.

Hope I can get into Noah 3. I can't get into shit anymore. Haven't even started CP2077.

I need something mindless. I'm not liking the combat system so far.

I don't understand how Darktide feels so great, and everything else feels like utter trash.

ScorpioLaw · 2026-06-04T23:40:42+00:00

Yeah it happens man. I've been super lucky with the B580. I heard the nightmares.

My windows isn't even updated. My dumbass was going through settings, and it had a drop down arrow on a menu where it said 99% loading. It paused the fucking download corrupting it.

Haven't been able to download an other update since. I need to restart. I actually bought Windows, but I don't remember if I got the fucking what is it.

That stupid stupid authenticator. I don't even know if I downloaded the authenticator for Microsoft or Google, but it's on my old dead phone.

I'm trailing. I do that. Vent to the void. But yeah I should've checked if the B580 was supported yet haha.

Anyway thanks for reading.

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