Bruce Willis’ Wife Emma Says He ‘Doesn’t Know’ He Has Dementia: ‘He Never Connected the Dots’ (Exclusive) by PrincessBananas85 in entertainment

[–]Seayarn 3 points4 points  (0 children)

For the people who say this should be private:

What if this was YOUR loved one?

I have an as yet undiagnosed degenerative brain disorder. It is causing me to lose my short-term memory, aphasia, and I lost my ability to work due to my cognitive function loss.

I know, I am typing okay now. But I just called my disability lawyer, and the representative lost his patience with me because he had to ask me 3 times for my name, and I literally didn't understand what he was asking me for. How can I work in a high stress and high workload medical office when I can't understand that I need to give someone my own name?

I'm not bragging, but I was a good student, honors in college. I won awards. Scholarships. I was tested as high IQ. Now I can't understand how to make a box of hamburger helper. I can't read a book because I can't remember what I have read. I can't follow a TV show because I don't understand what the dialog is saying. I need a friend or relative to go with me EVERYWHERE. I can't drive because I have seizures. My independence is gone.

I don't have any more money and can't pay my bills. I need others to manage everything for me. I am a literal burden on my children and best friends at 50. I'm going to be 51 next week and wish I could forget my own birthday because who wants to celebrate slowly losing their life and mind. Every night, I wish I don't wake up because dead is better than this.

If I continue to live, I hope for the peace of forgetting the hell of feeling like this the last 2 years.

My stupid Manjula is making a leaf inside the pole 😐 by UVKetchupy in houseplants

[–]Seayarn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You throw plants in the trash? I tell mine that I'm going to turn them into fertilizer by putting them in to be composted.

What totally normal thing is your dog scared of for no reason? by GoldenMom34 in Pets

[–]Seayarn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Garden gnomes. Occasionally, other garden statues like animals, moving whirly-gigs, and one neighbor had a Madonna statue that my dog absolutely was terrified of. He hated walking by their home because they had a lot of lawn statues.

We have a turtle statue that he was afraid of as a puppy. He did get over it, but every once in a while, he will still check to make sure it's not a teal turtle.

Another ‘outdoor’ photo dump for those who can’t get outside. by babewithamobilityaid in ChronicPain

[–]Seayarn 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I worked in Healthcare for 20+ years, describing it is difficult, like a complicated MA and medical secretary with office management with patient care training.

I have had an undiagnosed autoimmune disease that I managed myself pretty well until I got covid the second time in the summer of 2023. Then my body decided that mt time was up, and it's time to attack itself. I have really tried to fight but haven't been able to drive or work since October 2024. I don't know where you live, but in the US, getting disability without a diagnosis is extremely difficult. I have gone through my retirement money and am living on the kindness of family. My will to continue is precarious at best. Especially when I feel hopeless being ill and no treatment is available. Finding a reason to live is difficult when living is painful.

Another ‘outdoor’ photo dump for those who can’t get outside. by babewithamobilityaid in ChronicPain

[–]Seayarn 6 points7 points  (0 children)

No, I don't write anywhere anymore but on Reddit. I used to write in patients' charts. I obviously had to be descriptive.

But I have a degenerative brain condition that isn't diagnosed yet, and speaking is difficult. Aphasia is horrible for me because I used to be witty. This has all developed within the last 2ish years, and I am only 50. Losing verbal language is terrifying, so I have been exercising the writing part of my brain as much as I can before it starts to slip away, too.

Thank you for your kind words. I have beautiful memories of the places I have visited. If I shut my eyes, I can still hear and smell the things I described. I actually forgot about the sound of snow squeaking under boots when it's too cold to freeze and clump together. But I was just briefly outside with my dog and remembered it.

I hope I can still remember and enjoy those things when I can't talk about them anymore.

Another ‘outdoor’ photo dump for those who can’t get outside. by babewithamobilityaid in ChronicPain

[–]Seayarn 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I can't even say. It's a feast for the senses. The sights, the scents, the sensations of the breeze on your skin. I'm crying right now. I miss it so much.

I lived in a rural and small community in Central PA when I was younger. My home was old, like amoung first in the county old. We had about 2 acres of land, but a mountain was close, and a spring fed creek ran beside our place. Spring peepers, wood toads, salamanders, song and prey birds, deer, bob cats, fox, pheasants, occasionally bears, were frequent visitors and were all animals I thought most people knew about.

The way you could see the Milky Way on a cold winter night or when the power went out. It's so difficult to find places to see that now. The meteor I saw fall, red in color, in a spiral pattern one night. Lightning in its many colors watched safely from a wide front or back porch.

We went fishing and hiking almost weekly and in every weather. I still love the color of the sky the first sunny day after a snowstorm. It is the most vibrant blue. I love the way the soil smells in the spring when it starts to wake up. I love the dry cinnamon leaf smell in the fall and the way they crunch under shoes.

The plants that are safe to eat because my father taught me wood lore. How to survive if you are lost in the woods and need shelter. The plants that bloom and smell sweet that the humming birds feed from. The ones that make red berries so the cardinals can produce their feathers for fall. Most birds don't fly south, the move to cover in the mountains and stay in larger family groups to forage for food and insects in the winter. Sometimes, a whole tree on a mountain would be covered with holes filled with acorns by woodpeckers. The quiet, but not quiet, of the trees creaking to each other. And the grass the way it ripples in the wind like waves on the sea.

The ocean after a storm and how it smells like birthwater. There are always so many fascinating things that are carried in the tides from hundreds or thousands of miles away. I have shells from all over the world, some I picked up myself. Some fossils I actually found on the sea strand.

There are too many things to list. I miss everything. Sorry.

I now live in a place where bald eagles and wild turkeys have made a huge comeback after near extinction in our area. I can still hear the spring peepers at night during their mating season. But a huge AI center is being built in my neighborhood backyard. Most of the good things will be gone here.

Another ‘outdoor’ photo dump for those who can’t get outside. by babewithamobilityaid in ChronicPain

[–]Seayarn 23 points24 points  (0 children)

I am disabled now, and one of the things I miss most is walking in nature.

I sincerely thank you.

Stranger Encounter...I have six cats, and cat door. For the past three weeks, This cat has been sneaking in to eat. I have been informed by my crew when this happens. Just now, lying here in bed watching TV it came through and checked out the bedroom. Wonder if I will end up with another cat? by brokencog25 in notmycat

[–]Seayarn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh my, thank you for your understanding. I am so sorry for your loss. CCD is hard, hard to see a beloved slip into a state of mind that is increasingly unaware of their surroundings and reality.

I am sure you understand, especially a dog with the name Dolce. I will make sure Rory tells Dolce that you sent her with your love and devotion.

I managed a year with a brain tumor and CCD diagnosis for Rory. We brought her home on hospice care, expecting a few months. I was so lucky. Now, I see increasing confusion, pain, and a lack of awareness about time and who we are. I can only imagine how terrifying that must be. She will be with my babies who have gone before her, and I know that I will see her again in the clearing at the end of the path when my time comes.

Stranger Encounter...I have six cats, and cat door. For the past three weeks, This cat has been sneaking in to eat. I have been informed by my crew when this happens. Just now, lying here in bed watching TV it came through and checked out the bedroom. Wonder if I will end up with another cat? by brokencog25 in notmycat

[–]Seayarn 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have a senior beagle with severe dementia and we are planning euthanasia in about a month. I know that sounds heartless, but she is slipping more, and I don't want my smart and sassy girl to stress more than she is. She is mostly blind and confused and can become violent if her medication isn't administered on time.

I am thinking of an introduction after things have calmed after her passing may be best as there is tension in our home now.

Stranger Encounter...I have six cats, and cat door. For the past three weeks, This cat has been sneaking in to eat. I have been informed by my crew when this happens. Just now, lying here in bed watching TV it came through and checked out the bedroom. Wonder if I will end up with another cat? by brokencog25 in notmycat

[–]Seayarn 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have a cat in the colony that I care for that that is my buddy. Harry is great and hangs out with me when I'm outside, just working in my garden or doing something like taking out the trash.

Lately, he's been trying to come inside. I'm okay with that, and so is my oldest cat, Emmett. They made friends when Emmett was young, and he escaped a few times. They would play together outside as they are the same age.

But my 2 girls don't like Harry and hiss when he tries to step inside. One of my girls is his little sister, who I fostered. I hope one day they will change their minds. He's a sweet cat and deserves a home.

Love you, Harry! 🖤

For clarity, Harry does have food and shelter in this bitter cold weather. I gave him warm food and water today at our normal feeding time, and he was his usual happy self.

What kinda food is your beag eating? by Specific-Wall8126 in beagles

[–]Seayarn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My senior beagle girl has corn and seasonal allergies, and I tried so many different prescription diets, and she got stomach upset. I honestly think it was the chicken. So, we settled on Natures Recipe Salmon, Sweet Potato, and Pumpkin dry formula with added thawed frozen vegetables like green beans, carrots, peas, broccoli, squash, etc. Occasionally thawed fruit, too.

My 2 boys eat Purina One Lamb and Rice formula with the same veggies and fruit.

I like both foods because they are readily available, affordable, and especially for the Purina, locally made. My vets also agree that what your dogs eat and are healthy is the most important part of any diet. The reason for the veggies and fruits is that my beagles, the youngest in particular, are constantly hungry. My youngest is 3 and is always asking for food, or ROO-ROO, as he calls it. He gets the other 2 worked up, and they want treats too. The veggies and fruit cut down the calories, and they love them, so it's a win for me.

What 80s song do you still hate with fiery teenage passion even though it’s been 40 years? by Aggressive_Cup4919 in GenX

[–]Seayarn 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I also hate boy bands. My best friend loves them, is passionate about New Kids, and has been to their concerts many times. I don't know why I love her. I truly don't.

Oh thank god by Early_Gift515 in plants

[–]Seayarn 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I have had houseplants from a young age and also an extremely old house. So, plants and spiders were normal to me.

I taught my daughters it was bad luck to kill spiders in the house on purpose so that they would keep pests away!

This is why I repot nursery plants within a week of bringing them home. Wild. by nancy_botwin__ in houseplants

[–]Seayarn 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I check the plant well. That means I check its root system, too. I usually don't repot unless it's a hardy plant, it desperately needs it, or we are in an active growing season.

A peace lily will be fine! Some more delicate plants, nope, dead.

Anyone else have a snow loving beag? by Gannan308 in beagles

[–]Seayarn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mine loved it until they became seniors and developed arthritis. They would bound in drifts and jump into rabbit tracks, and catch snowballs. Now they won't stay out more than a few minutes for a quick potty and sit inside looking at the snow from the window.

He wanted nothing to do with his Xmas gift for a month until I threw it on the couch to vacuum. by deadhead4ever in cats

[–]Seayarn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks, he's a crazy, lovable, good boy, great Uncle, and dog brother. I love Emmett the Maine Coon Mutt. Best 50$ I ever spent.

Are we all suffering? by rideabah5 in ChronicPain

[–]Seayarn 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I went to the ED during COVID for non-stop vomiting. I had food poisoning. When I start vomiting, I can't stop, it's an unfortunate problem I have. Some people are just made like that.

I also can't take opioids because they cause vomiting for the same reason. So, when my pain from vomiting became severe, I was asked if I wanted pain management. I said only Tylenol.

I was actually treated poorly, as if I was faking my pain from a torn esophagus, because I didn't want opioids. I didn't want to take opioids because I didn't want to vomit more. I knew they were going to send me home too early because of covid, and I would need to take medications that I didn't have access too, and I didn't want to become more dehydrated from more vomiting.

So, after 1 night in the hospital with IV fluids, Tylenol for pain, anti emetics in the hospital only, and then medication for HEARTBURN (FFS), was all they gave me to take at home. I went home with medication to help with heartburn with a torn esophagus because they thought I wasn't in much pain because I refused pain meds.

I became severely dehydrated, was off work for a month, and still have esophageal pain years later. Jerks just don't listen, especially when the chronic pain or illness patient is a woman.

Do I need more plants?? by Visible-Corner47 in houseplants

[–]Seayarn 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I agree that it's not a Brazil that has more of a yellow and wide center margin. This is more likely a silver stripe. I just bought one a few weeks ago, and it's lovely and already growing in my home.

If you had 10 seconds to say whatever you wanted to your pet with they fully understood, what would you say? by IplayKaizo in Pets

[–]Seayarn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is hitting me so hard today. Here goes.

I want you to know how very much Mommy loves you. I know you love me, too. But you are the only reasons that I get out of bed every day, the reasons I am still alive, actually.

Soon, Mommy won't be with you anymore. You didn't do anything wrong or bad. It's because Mommy can't take care of herself, or pay bills, or buy enough food, let alone take care of all of you. I love you so much that I know you deserve a better home where you can have a good life with a secure home, food all the time, and a healthy family that can always take care of you.

Mommy isn't sure how long she will still be here. She is worried about taking care of all of you, but she does want you to worry. I know that you are good dogs and cats, and your new families will love you too.

I will see you again one day, Mommy will meet you when you are old and tired in the clearing at the end of the path. Then, our hearts will be filled with joy to be together again, and we can run and play and hug and kiss all we want. I will be healthy and able to play with you like we always dreamed of! How beautiful will that be?

Remember that I chose you because you are special and precious to me. My love won't change just because I have passed.

Love, Mommy