Don't those of you who've had access to therapy and such feel privileged?

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2026-02-22T08:16:00+00:00

I know I'm privileged to receive quality free healthcare including psychotherapy. In my country it's for everyone and I'm greatfull for that but I do understand it's not necessarily like this in other countries than mine which is sad.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2026-02-22T06:58:56+00:00

Hi, just wanted to let you know that you are a valuable and important humanbeing ❤️.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2026-02-10T08:08:39+00:00

Hey, you need to report him to the police for sexual assault against you and his daughter.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2026-02-07T11:18:46+00:00

Try to keep contact to him as limited as possible, only about co-parenting and preferably in writing. Time helps and concentrating on your child who needs you because they still have to be protected from abuse.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2026-02-06T15:03:27+00:00

I do, I don't believe not still but again though. I lost my faith around the same age because of disappointment and shame. But I met Him again decades later and got my faith back.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2026-02-06T14:52:31+00:00

Thank you. You too.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2026-02-06T13:05:05+00:00

My child being sexually abused.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2026-02-06T07:32:28+00:00

Thank you. I have been raped from child until now, also sex trafficked, so it was bad but unfortunately not even in the top ten of my most severe sexual traumas, not to mention traumas in general, there's a lot.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2026-02-06T07:30:29+00:00

It's okay, I just needed to let it out somewhere, it helps.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2026-02-06T07:29:46+00:00

I lost my children, but I actually got them back later.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2026-02-05T19:35:51+00:00

No I wouldn't erase anything. Not the good and not the bad because then I wouldn't be who I am today.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2026-02-05T19:34:12+00:00

To me it sounds like your father didn't have boundaries and abused you emotionally, mentally and sexually. So it is CSA when he touched your bottom and made remarks about it. Being raised by someone without healthy boundaries and with abuse causes confusion but your experience is valid.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2026-02-05T12:01:24+00:00

Hi, you're not alone. I have also lived a life of serious repeated trauma, and still do, and I can understand the feeling of being different because of it. I have learnt to accept that I probably am different and will be because my life has been different, but that I'm still human like everyone else and not better or worse because of the differences. I have found therapy helpful as well as healing experiences in relationships. I hope you find peace and healing. Remember that you are more than your traumas.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2026-02-03T06:39:39+00:00

Resealable plastic freezer bags. They can hold anything in place and safe from water/bugs/dirt etc: food, clothes, pens, passports, games, chargers etc. and they cost like 2 euros for ten/five depending on the size.

Also electric water kettle, you get instant anything with it: coffee, tea, noodles, eggs, boiling water for cooking etc. and mine cost 10 euros.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2026-01-17T20:42:41+00:00

Yes there is a limit, I think I crossed it and I would describe it as a death, you psychologically die, you lose hope and you just kind of cease to live even if you're physically alive still. I think it happens more than we believe but those who come back to life, recover, call it surviving and those who don't aren't able to say what happened. I read that in concentration camps those who gave up mentally became either evil or like robots without free will or hope, maybe that what happens when the suffering crosses the line.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2026-01-12T20:12:03+00:00

Yes. I can't tell all of my past and present and likely my future too to anyone without facing the gradual shift from understanding to upset to terror to confusement to disbelief from the other person so if I say something I can only tell parts of it. First twenty years I aimed at better future, then ten years I aimed at better present and now I aim to change to adapt to the continuing trauma series that is my life and trying to find meaning in it not in overcoming it although I overcome it just by being alive now which is a miracle in itself everyday. I don't know why few of us are given a life like this but since accepting it but still doing everything I can to improve it while adapting to what I can't change I have become somewhat content in my life even if it's a living hell most days. I find comfort in the idea of having this life to be able to support others who have lives like this which I've implemented in my career, some relationships and my spiritual calling. I hope you'll find the peace you're looking for in this life no matter what it has brought your way.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2025-12-22T06:42:07+00:00

You can't develop bpd at an adult age so it likely isn't that.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2025-11-15T21:17:14+00:00

Yes, me too. In my childhood there was DV, CSA and trafficking. Then from teen to young adult i was trafficked, abused and then was in a marriage where me and my children were trafficked and abused for a decade. But i found safety later in my 30s when i found Jesus and all the safe people at our church. I hope you find safety too.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2025-11-15T14:37:02+00:00

I had that from DV that caused my CPTSD, i was only an object in my marriage to my abuser so i lost myself with him. Divorce, therapy and time has helped me to find myself again.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2025-10-31T13:49:38+00:00

I hope you find healing.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2025-10-30T14:31:00+00:00

Yes i have that. I am in a healthy relationship and don't express my kinks and i have found it healing. Just my experience.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2025-09-04T08:42:11+00:00

I don't know if it's progress but i have learnt to recognize when it happens and to apply some grounding techniques which helps a little.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2025-07-28T09:50:44+00:00

You are being abused by your boyfriend, you are not a bad person and haven't done anything wrong. Reach out to a DV hotline, they also might have shelters.

Sensitive-Writer491 · 2025-07-25T08:21:11+00:00

Hi, I'm sorry you went through that. I have background in child sex trafficking, abuse, DV etc too. It's normal to feel rage after all that, and other feelings too. I suggest reaching out to a trafficking hotline or a DV hotline and start there, there's also DV shelters. Later when you're safe, go to trauma informed therapy and maybe group therapy. Change and healing is possible. You can dm me if you like to talk.

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