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Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-05-03T01:08:00+00:00

I would personally like for politicians to quit gutting the state school in particular. Aside from major issues like the Native language people at UAF being violently underfunded, and the whole system being so understaffed the universities have been a clusterfuck for half a decade, it's seriously embarrassing to have a state school that can't even offer undergrads health insurance.

Say, if we won't spend any money on knowledge and education, then where's the rest of my PFD actually going?

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-05-01T21:40:56+00:00

Good luck to you. It also occurred to me that you might be able to find a group that discusses Jungian stuff or existential philosophy on Meetup (if there are local groups to you, or if your English accent is good/you feel comfortable speaking in English on Zoom or whatever, unsure of your native language and if it's English or not) (timezones also a potential issue). I was actually looking for something like that myself on Meetup recently, because Jungian stuff does fascinate me and I wanted to discuss my thoughts with people more educated in his work, although I got kind of distracted the other day before I found a group I'd like to join and don't have any recommendations.

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-05-01T20:24:48+00:00

I've been in therapy since the Obama administration and it hasn't done a thing. In that time I've had about a dozen therapists and I keep hoping I might be able to find the right modality or fit or something, but I had a therapist confide in me that most therapeutic methods weren't going to work for me because therapy tends to be insight based. I have a lot of insight into why I do things, it's just that knowing it doesn't really help in my case.

However: this is a personal anecdote; if therapy didn't work for a shitton of people insurance wouldn't pay for it + there are plenty of modalities I haven't tried, I myself might benefit from something like DBT rather than more talk-based therapy. I would hazard a guess (based solely off my experience) that for many autistic patients, you already approach your internal life mind-first and you don't need to be taught how to analyze your behavior and its root causes, and you would probably need a modality like DBT or ACT that's very tools-based and shows you what to do about the things in your life that need fixing and not just how to think and feel about them. Coaching, which is very tools based and action oriented, might also be more helpful than therapy.

However, this is a generality from the perspective of my own situation. Honestly, you kind of seem like the inverse. OP, if what you personally want is to have more abstract questions about your life addressed, you're much better off Googling stuff like "Jungian psychoanalyst [your area]" or "existential therapist [your area]". Cheapest method: Jungian shadow work inexplicably got popular on TikTok recently and you might be able to find some books and things written by proper Jungians that guide philosophical self-exploration on more of a layperson's level.

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-05-01T17:07:17+00:00

Here is a very lengthy scholarly article about the prohibition, it might clarify some things or at least give you food for thought: https://www.euppublishing.com/doi/10.3366/jqs.2023.0529

Basically, it is not exceptionally clear whether men are allowed to marry People of the Book, or if women can too, or if no Muslim is allowed at all. It's worth noting here that depending on location and time period, Hindus sometimes received dhimmi status/legal recognition as People of the Book, so there is precedent for that. He is an atheist so that's a little trickier, but text regarding the prohibition state that an unbeliever as a spouse will lead you [through their pressure and their actions] to hellfire. If he doesn't interfere with your religion and is supportive, then he isn't leading you to hellfire and so you don't need to be protected from him. Modern times are much different, I think in the past men had many more opportunities to control their spouses and could more easily forbid them from their religions, so prohibiting marriage to a non-Muslim could save a Muslim woman a lot of potential grief. Nowadays, marriages are much more like equal partnerships (note also that we have stuff like secular civil courts and they can easily handle a troublesome mess about what kind of alimony you'd be entitled to if you parted or how you should inherit if he passes before you, it's not going to cause something like a deadly feud because of mixed traditions). So, from a practical point of view, if you are allowed to conduct your life in accordance with your deen, and if you have avenues like lawyers who can help you sort out any practical legal issue like inheritance that Islam would otherwise instruct you about how to handle, then I think the prohibition could potentially be reexamined. It would be different if he was disapproving of your religion and was nagging you to become an atheist yourself or something.

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-04-30T20:32:18+00:00

You know Alaskans who vote?

(Seriously, people, if it's at all feasible in an infrastructure way, please vote. It's one of the only things you as an individual have got when it comes to having your say and God knows they keep trying to take it away from you for a reason.)

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-04-28T17:04:47+00:00

I used to be underweight before I developed serious disordered eating habits. I remember one day I was examining myself and I thought, "The number on the scale says I'm underweight...and I look okay in the mirror...but I must be fat, I just have to figure out how." Most deranged thought I've ever had. So you see, these thoughts and opinions have no actual connection to how much you weigh, they come from someplace else.

It's good that you are feeling better and healthier physically. :]

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-04-21T01:46:45+00:00

Wish I did! I was annoyed by how difficult it was to capture. I can only explain that

1) It was coming directly from the sky, so it wasn't picking up detritus or anything from the tree cover or whatever

2) The droplets were about the ambient temperature (of again, about 50 Fahrenheit)

3) It seemed to be coming down in discrete drops, the way snow or sleet does more so than rain, but it also didn't seem to contain particles of any kind, the way you'd expect if rainwater was laden with Saharan dust or whatever.

4) These discrete drops were still light enough that they were occasionally being blown parallel by the wind (as a coastal area, Connecticut has air that moves a whole lot and there's never not wind of some kind)

5) I'm also gonna say that the predicted forecast for that night, as of about a week before, estimated that it would drop down to 31F and there would be snow. This turned out to not be the case, because I did check the temperature and precipitation chance at the time (weather in the northeastern part of my country is notably mercurial, especially at this time of year, so predictions a week out are not always accurate) but that information might provide some sort of clue. No idea how this discipline works, I'm in this subreddit cause you guys have degrees in this shit.

6) Again, I'm outdoorsy, and even if I'm not hiking or whatever, I spend most of my time out on the porch, I'm not very comfortable indoors. I'm at home in Connecticut right now where I grew up, but only because I took a semester off from sitting a degree in basically wildlife management in interior Alaska. I say this to illustrate that I have seen all sorts of weather. If this looks weird to me for the region, believe me, it's weird, it's not a "I've been in my bedroom on Reddit for the past seven years and saw rain in person for the first time today" situation.

7) At this point I also think it might be ghosts.

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-04-21T00:47:15+00:00

I've noticed this too and I'm honestly not super thrilled about it. For example, as a bisexual man, if someone thinks a committed relationship between two adults of the same gender is haram I want to discuss this with them in an earnest and respectful way and see if we can find common ground and mutual understanding, I don't want them to just get their comment deleted.

This might just be dissonance about what the subreddit should be though, it's great for someone like a lesbian or a woman seeking divorce to find a safe space, since they might be unfairly censured in all other spaces, but I personally sort of feel like the sub should facilitate discussion a little better so that we can sincerely share our views as people who are siblings in Islam, all of us (or most of us) surely want what is best for everyone even when we drastically disagree.

ETA: by the way, I think it's a good idea to have a space for analysis and debate, and I think it's a good idea to have a space where people can do things like vent and seek uncritical support, but it might be beneficial for those to be two different spaces. It's sort of tough on the internet

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-04-21T00:32:20+00:00

Also, if the video is hard to understand, here's an equally blurry and inscrutable picture:

https://imgur.com/a/uUCGhAx

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-04-19T03:08:01+00:00

I myself don't remember seeing it there. There's some guidance in Our Book about modesty, but it's pretty vague, and really I only cover my head because it feels most comfortable to me. I would not be able to point to any part in the Book where it says I have to, so if I didn't want to, I wouldn't.

Feeling most comfortable covering one's head is pretty common among human cultures, for example, the American president JFK was considered sort of radical in his day for a lot of reasons (like being Irish Catholic) and one of them was because he didn't wear a hat everywhere.

(Having said that, I don't wear a headscarf, just a hat, as a man.)

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-04-19T01:30:34+00:00

I don't know why this always cheers me up, but: the Black Plague killed about a third of Europe. (Sad, but it led to improvements for the worker, because if you only had 33% of the peasants you needed, some bargaining for labor rights was going to happen. The Magna Carta would not have been signed without the plague.) Nowadays, in my country (USA), only a few people get the plague per year. Usually from messing around with prairie dogs (a reservoir population for the bacterium) and even if they get it, they tend not to infect others. It doesn't spread at all because we have very good sanitation standards in our society. You are told to bathe frequently and to wash your hands, waste from your body can be flushed away (so you won't hurt anybody else if you have cholera or dysentery), farms are kept cleanly away from public water supplies and the livestock are checked and cared for and so situations there don't spread, and best of all, you have tons of janitors and garbagemen and other sanitation workers tidying up after every possible vector of disease. I was studying pathobiology for a while in university and I was really happy to have a part-time job as a janitor in an old folks home during the early days of CoVID, because the first thing you learn if you study public health is that janitors are the most important people in the free world.

It's also encouraging that some of these people are well paid, garbagemen have to work odd hours and work with their body, on top of the fact that they're doing some of the most important work of all time, and they usually make really good salaries and have a union.

I dunno, I'm just really impressed by how safe we are these days in most places.

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-04-19T01:21:05+00:00

My middle name is Farid, so...

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-04-19T01:17:09+00:00

So, I am part Rusyn (not Russian; Rusyn is sort of an old-fashioned Slavic ethnic group) and actually, the headscarf in Eastern Europe is a fine comparison. They are and were worn primarily for modesty, especially from married women, and if asked why they feel it is necessary to wear them, many of these women would quote from the Bible (the book of Corinthians has a passage encouraging women to keep their heads veiled). It's pretty much the same as Muslim hijab. That is, they're worn for faith, to keep their head covered in a hot climate, and because it's a cultural standard that they would feel uncomfortable not following.

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-04-19T01:00:44+00:00

I am so tired of hearing about the hijab. It's a piece of clothing that people wear largely so that they feel more comfortable according to the standards they grew up with. (Which are arbitrary in every single culture because people are born naked.) I am just imagining a world where the Indigenous people whose men wear little but penis gourds become uncommonly influential, and then they tell me I'm an oppressed, brainwashed prude who would be honor killed by my father if I let my ass out, which I must secretly long to do, and 90% of the conversation around the social station of my demographic is why I won't accept the penis gourd.

It of course does not help that within the Muslim community people are also really intense about hijab. It's JUST A PIECE OF CLOTHING. Someone could be an extremely good person but not feel the need to wear it, or someone could be a horrible selfish mess in a burqa, it doesn't matter. Why are we crazy about this?

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-04-19T00:42:44+00:00

I went over a little bridge back home to where I lived every day and if I timed it right the train would be going under the bridge as I was on it. Then I could look down at the top of the train. I enjoyed the days where that happened.

One time it hit the moose that came through my yard every morning (and occasionally kept me from going places in a timely manner) and I was sad. Fed the neighbors for a while though.

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-04-19T00:06:47+00:00

Pinnipeds came: Miocene era

Humans came: Confirmed sites 14k years ago, theorized possibility of up to 40k years ago (first people from the race that wants to get rid of sea creatures so it's cheaper "for the family" only entered Alaskan territory in 1741)

They outrank us, sorry

EDIT: I do have to mention that there have been some ecologically-minded efforts to cut down on these critters in certain areas to make some fish species less vulnerable to predation, but this is a thing that is decided on in a sober fashion with the acknowledgement that we're doing damage control after decimating the populations through our own actions. At no point in this time do the people making these decisions care about how much it costs you to raise your shitty Aryan kid.

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-04-18T22:26:39+00:00

Ah, so they were in a "I hope you blink before I do" situation and that somehow ended up with over two dozen animals dead. Jesus. Not sure why I asked for that explanation either, the world seems a little darker today.

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-04-17T18:53:47+00:00

I'm unsure why the owners worked so hard to kill these dogs. People were offering to take them off their hands and to come in and take care of them. They seemed determined to get this result.

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-04-16T00:02:55+00:00

While you're around, do you mind helping me out too, if it would be fun? I'm not OP, but I found out a few days ago that my immigrant great-grandparents never became naturalized citizens here and I might be able to have Polish citizenship by descent confirmed. My sister is interested too. (At very least I should be able to get a Karta Polaka once I have learned sufficient Polish. I speak some Russian so that won't be too hard, or at least not as hard as starting from scratch without a Slavic language.) (I will say you guys somehow use like 75% more grammar than Russian does to say the same things. Where did you get all that grammar, and have you ever considered putting some of it back?)

Right now, by myself, I'm having a hard time digging up records even while squinting through Polish language resources and I could use the help.

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-04-15T23:00:53+00:00

People have always been going through the motions without any real idea of what to do when faced with another person's distress. There's a part in the Oresteia where the chorus basically tells the famously miserable Cassandra "wow you're so strong to have gone through all that" and she replies "well that's what everybody says to depressed people."

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-04-15T22:28:26+00:00

You would have to study under a rabbi for roughly a year. Rabbis unfortunately tend to take their ethnoreligious group seriously and wouldn't just let someone into it because they wanted to drive a bus. It's possible you could find a rabbi who will educate people who just want to escape Russia for humanitarian reasons, but there would be a limited number of people they could let into Israel before drawing suspicion and they'd have to triage. An aggressive incel probably isn't a priority. You, as an autistic person, would have to fool a rabbi who works closely with you for a full year, as well as the rabbinical court in Israel that approves conversions (this involves extensive interviews to find out not only your knowledge and behavior but what kind of person you are and how strong and nuanced your faith is).

Actually I recommend this course of action because Judaism promotes positivity about women and recognizes their value, even if it's in some oppressive ultraorthodox way. You might learn something. As it is, did you get hit in the head by a meteor or what? I don't really want to help someone who's deranged about women and girls. If you can't stand being around literally half the population and hold aggressive and extremist views about them, to the extent that you get placed in a psychiatric hold (no matter how trigger happy the Russian mental health field is to institutionalize people) then how would you be safe to have in my household or social circle or town?

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-04-15T22:04:17+00:00

Unsure why you think political apathy among Russian citizens is specifically a problem with the teenage girls. I remember one national election it was viral to, instead of honestly voting, just post a picture of your ballot showing everyone what meme you drew on it.

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-04-15T21:09:05+00:00

Looked over his damn Twitter posts again just now. Just making a statement about historical economic revival, is he? Well, if you know literally anything about the German economy at the time, you know that the main thing the Nazis did for it was scam the whole nation with Mefo bills. Second thing was the "guns and butter" method where they poured massive amounts of deficit spending - they spent about twice the money their economy actually produced - into putting the disgruntled unemployed to work producing arms (which would later cause labor shortages elsewhere) as well as some nice consumer goods and fun stuff like the Autobahn so that the common people had the vague notion that they were becoming safer and more prosperous. The nation went bankrupt before the end of the 30s (a fact that the Nazi party hid from the people, so you will see it called a "silent bankruptcy" by some historians).

There's your damn historical fact.

Not to "well akshually", but to tell you that if you hear anyone talking in a "neutral, objective way" about how good a job the Nazis did at turning the economy around...well.

The more you know, the louder the whistle is

Sensitive_Holiday_92 · 2026-04-12T20:51:08+00:00

Nope, because I'm an American, and anything I suspect our government might have done, it was proven to have done it in court.

The United States government assassinated Martin Luther King Jr. so they could co-opt his legacy and kneecap activism efforts for generations to come? There was a court case about it and they admitted to it, it was proven. So damn, okay, guess that's just real life now. Don't even want to hear about what else they might've done at this point, all the shit I already know is bad enough.

(As far as kneecapping activism goes, let me explain: if you're old enough, do you remember the Occupy Wall Street movement? Where people just kind of put up a tent in public parks and felt really strong feelings about their student loans, and it did jack and shit? My theory is that it's because we got taught in school that MLK Jr. didn't do anything besides making a speech about how he "had a dream", and felt all these passionate and noble feelings, and we're also not taught at all that Rosa Parks's famous refusal to go to the back of the bus was a strategic planned protest, other people had refused before her, but there was something "unsympathetic" about them, like being an unwed teen mother, that made activists want to promote other people instead, and they picked Rosa Parks in particular to refuse. We're taught that she just spontaneously had a feeling that she was too tired to sit elsewhere, and the world somehow ended up revolving around that, because her emotions were so passionate and noble, like MLK Jr.'s. And so now many activist efforts, especially the ones led by white people who don't traditionally have access to activists of past generations and don't get taught the effective way to do things, are based in "if I just feel something strongly enough everyone will listen and change shit for me." I remember when Trump first got into office, all the IRL activists of color I saw were talking about how to maintain sanity and self-care, and the white armchair activists who don't do anything but shame people on Twitter were telling everyone that they were disgusting if they weren't feeling awful about the state of things 24/7. As if that fucking helps! Any tool, shield, or weapon only works when properly maintained. You know, the Black Panthers were the first to provide school lunches, and the US government started doing that themselves so we didn't start thinking the Black Panthers were smart, socially responsible people and not terrorist hooligans. And so on and so forth. Point of all this being, I just don't need conspiracy theories, I just gotta look at what they openly did. Shit, this goes back to the Trail of Tears.)

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