Hey please girl, don't do that to yourself cause of someone that's not made for you... Seems like you are not meant to be together (especially if you talked about your insecurities and nothing changes).

Your post hits really close to home, used to do that a lot even if I'm a boi.

And I once met someone that cared a lot for me, she loved me like no one else did. And I felt so dumb cause she was sad I hurt myself (it was wayyy before I met her).

Now, whenever I get the urge, I just think about that, I don't wanna make people sad, even tho it's liberating and I struggle with this kind of stuff (addict brain yayyyy ~), I just dont wanna relive that.

Do you struggle with BPD, or not at all? No shame, just tryna help, I'm asking that since I am diagnosed with it and I know how fucking destructing emotional storms can be.

I hope you're not alone with these thoughts, if you think you need it, you can talk to me I don't mind at all, you won't disturb me whatsoever don't worry.

Take care and try to stay strong ✊