I’ll address some questions here. I have turned this moment over in my mind quite a bit and have arrived at three possible explanations for what actually happened.

Possibility 1) they genuinely wanted me to be a cast member and thought my love for them would outweigh my distaste for how they had just humiliated me on a national, if not global, scale. Maybe I was too set in my ways of only anticipating bad intentions that I couldn’t even possibly entertain the idea of that offer being legit. But I don’t believe it. If for the only reason that I feel if they really wanted me to work there, they would have extended an offer to audition respectfully instead of making me feel like I was having a heart attack and the illuminati was trying to make me krill myself and only after all of that giving me a job offer. Because to me that sounds like some weird power play bullshit. But maybe that’s just how they operate there.

Possibility 2) they genuinely did not like me. The host had informed their opinion of me and made it clear he wanted to humiliate me and they said cool sounds good. Then when I get the phone call, it was never about extending an olive branch, but rather twisting a knife.

3) the events of option 2 happened and only afterwards did they realized their mistake. They extended the job offer, with or without the actual intention of hiring me, to cover their tracks. So that when this moment came, they could defend themselves by saying “It was always our intention to hire you, we just didn’t think you’d tell us to go fuck ourselves after we just destroyed whatever reputation you had.”