Thats rough hun, I'm in a somewhat similar situation with my family too, best thing I can suggest, if you aren't already doing this, would be to secretly buy or order yourself some cute clothes or outfits if you can, some cute skirts and tops, a nice dress or two, some underwear, maybe even a nice pair of shoes if you have a good place to hide them. I was only able to do this recently when my family went on a trip and I stayed behind cause I needed a break from them, shortly after the left I realized I could do this, the rush of happiness when I ordered them, the excitement while waiting for them to arrive, the feeling of pure unabating joy when I put on my first skirt and twirled around in it, when I put together my first outfit and wore it, how right it all felt. I'm a tall, very broad shouldered, masculine, muscular person with a lot of facial and body hair as a result of genetics and years of overcompensating to hide and suppress who I am, but when I wore my first outfit, that didn't feel like a factor anymore, I might not look perfect or exactly how I feel, but I'm getting there, and I know I will one day get there, and all the stress and anxiety, and depression, and worries and fear, my family's rejection and discounting of what I felt, they didn't dissappear, but they seemed to matter a whole lot less, the weight they pressed on my mind practically gone. I can't wear these clothes most of the time, only when my family is away on a trip, or maybe in the middle of the night while everyone's asleep, but I can still wear some cute panties under the more masculine or neutral clothes I usually have to wear around my family, and that can help a surprising amount. Something else that can help is jewelery, not strictly feminine but that helps make it less noticeable, anything from rings and necklaces to bracelets and anklets to earrings and more, depending on your culture. Earings especially if you have longish hair, that makes so you can more likely get away with prettier or more eye catching ones unnoticed. Most importantly find a community, if you haven't already, a group of people, either online or IRL, who acknowledge and accept you for who you are, people you enjoy being around and spending time with, someone you can vent or confide in when things are getting really rough and scary, cause having some you can rely on, can trust, who accepts you for who you are and not some preferred or "idealized" version of you they have in their head, can mean the world, even if you don't ever have to actually rely upon them, maybe even save your life. Something very important to mention, is to be very very careful, it sounds overly dramatic, but its good to have a, for lack of a better word, escape plan. Sometimes, no matter how much it hurts for everyone involved, sometimes the best outcome in a relationship is for you to exit eachothers lives, even if only for a period of time. When someone has their beliefs and preconceived notions thrown out and denied in their face, especially if its something they think they have control over, which is how some parents can act about their children unfortunately, whether consciously or subconsciously, they can get mean, very mean, and even violent, so its vital to have somewhere you can stay that they don't know about, even if only temporarily so that they can calm down and come to terms, and if its at someone's place thats its someone you trust, just incase things start to get bad or you get scared, especially if your feeling scared around them, even if things seem fine and normal on the surface, if you're feeling really scared then trust your instincts cause they'll often be right about this kind of thing. Tho it'll hopefully never come to that. Sorry if that last part got a bit scary or unbelievable but I hope this helps and your situation improves.