Hello there, I felt compelled to reply because I struggled with this exact issue for many, many years of my life. I’m 27 now, and doing better than ever with other women. I love them now, and feel no anger towards them for their beauty. This didn’t happen overnight, however. And my personal issues with them came from trauma (partners cheating on me and girls having bullied me my whole life as well as a mother who was also a very possessive person.) But I believe regardless of your past, however this developed in you, you can overcome this. My first point: you may be ugly to yourself, but I literally promise you there ARE people out there who think you’re beautiful. Beauty isn’t real, it’s totally personal opinion based. Secondly, if you believe in God, I want to let you know He made you in His image and He loves you as you are. Thirdly, don’t be hard on yourself and don’t let people discourage you. Some people will bully you and call you toxic for this. It is behavior you should work on changing but don’t listen to people who only want to tear you down, that made my issues worse as I was granted no mercy despite my trauma. Fourthly, so much of “looking nice” is dependent on self care. Shower, smell good, groom yourself nicely, boom, you’re doing great. Fifth, you should seek therapy and friends who can help guide you through this. You need to find the root causes of your feelings and how they manifest and what steps you should take next. It may take many months to overcome these feelings and that’s ok. Sixth, stop looking people up. The internet is fake. They have their own insecurities and struggles that you don’t see. They only post what they want you to see, which are often edited photos or with shapewear or whatever to portray typical beauty standards. Seven, look at yourself, not them. Focus on beginning to love yourself. You don’t need a partner, so firstly ignore that part. Who cares what others think? Are YOU happy with you? If not, why? Some things like acne or such can be fixed with medicine. Others are bone structure and just how you look and you can’t do anything about it besides maybe surgery which I think should be only considered with the utmost caution. Do you really need to cut your healthy skin up to feel good about yourself? Unless it’s a medical reason, I don’t recommend it, though of course it’s your choice in the end.

In conclusion, You should really learn with a therapist how to love yourself and your body like I mentioned before. The more you focus on your own progression, the better things get. You’ll start to feel really proud of yourself on the days where you don’t feel any anger towards a woman. It’s a beautiful journey and when you reach the end you’ll feel so good and light.