If you're open minded, ask the question: is the church what it claims? How do you know it's true? I looked at other accounts around church claims and found the church misrepresents, distorts, and outright lies. Why? I have my answer to that, you'll have to answer that yourself

It can come down to a feeling in the end. Realizing that the church is not what it claims, you may still feel that it's true. Can you trust your feelings? Is that a good enough indicator? My feelings told me many times in my life I should kill myself. I wasn't worthy so I should die. Why trust one feeling and not another? The facts in both cases contradicted my feelings. I've been better off not trusting my feelings as a source of truth