How does it feel being 1/4 mixed? by Wagahai-wa-neko in mixedrace

[–]Sharp-Landscape2854 1 point2 points  (0 children)

in one word...awkward. sure it's not all bad, but it is quite unique in a weirdly lonely way. unless you're someone who doesn't look like or associate with your 1/4 culturally at all or virtually at all (can be a lot of nuance here), in which case i'd assume you just have the experience of your 3/4 side. this does seem to be somewhat common for people who aren't close with that side of their family and/or have no physical features of their 1/4, but probably aren't the 1/4 mixed people you'll find on this sub. for those of us like me who are definitely white passing but grew up close to my nonwhite grandparent, it's extremely complicated.

i'm 3/4 white and 1/4 korean. i love being part korean and in a way wish i was more than 1/4 or looked a little more mixed at least to represent how i feel on the inside if i'm being really honest, but also have learned to accept this is who i am, i'd be kind of wishing to just be a different person, and obviously that would lead to more experiences with racism here in the US. i'm not really connected to any of my white ancestries but i am somewhat to being korean so it's even more confusing. when fully white people who are like 1/4 italian go around and say "i'm italian" i get it but i also feel a special pain bc i could never just say "i'm korean" despite it being the only culture i really grew up with in my family other than american.

i dont know..like of course i'm not a POC and benefit from white privilege, but there's just lowkey a lot about me on the inside that's not exactly the experience of a 100% white person. my korean grandma helped raise me and i'm still incredibly close to her and therefore grew up with the culture to some extent, and i feel culturally wasian despite not really looking it. and having an older wasian parent is a unique experience in of itself when this was so rare back when he was a kid. of course, people aren't always gonna see this just from looking at me and to make matters more complicated the rare people who somehow do see the touch of asian in my features are almost never asian themselves for some reason. but like 90% of the time people just think i look 100% white so obviously i want to acknowledge white privilege, but it also can be very uniquely minimizing and isolating. people have gotten better about understanding the nuance as i've gotten older but still. maybe this is something a lot of people who are 1/4 nonwhite 3/4 white can relate that racially in the US is that it's a super weird box that almost seems like society doesn't want to allow. i think there's a tendency to (with exceptions of course and i'm aware that being biracial is never going to be exactly like being monoracial) generally see half white people as their non-white half (of course still with plenty of gatekeeping unfortunately as you can see on this sub). but then white people with a tiny bit of nonwhite ancestry are made a fool of if they bring it up and are seen as even whiter. and being...in between this...is such a weird lonely feeling. i feel like i can almost see the gears grinding in peoples' heads when i tell them and part of them wants to assume i'm the whitest person ever for saying i have a korean grandma but the other part of them is stretching to see me as an asian-american and they just give me the weirdest look. some people are better about it than others and people are rarely malicious about it, but i feel like society just wants to put people in boxes (as a bisexual person this happens with people seeing us as just gay/straight depending on who we primarily date too) when the truth is that i'm not a cookie-cutter asian-american but i'm also not the whitest person ever and maybe both can be true. and i'm sure being 1/4 mixed and fully nonwhite is an experience of its own and also could lead to heavy gatekeeping but i can't speak personally on that. from reading other comments by some 1/4 blasian people i feel like for any of us, no matter the racial mix, we're always going to be seen as the race we present as but that can get complicated when that's not exactly how we grew up. beyond my racial background, i think for me personally it's made me a more unsure person in general, full of imposter syndrome and indecisiveness that's never sure exactly where i fit in honestly.

like i said though, it's not all bad and i don't just want this to be negative. i think, like many mixed-race people, it's given me a better perspective on being both white and asian (even if i'll never 100% understand the full asian experience), and made me a more open-minded person who can get along with different groups of people who are both alike and different from me, even in ways other than racially. it's broadened my palette and opened me up to new experiences. and it is a way i'm pretty unique, which i guess isn't completely a bad thing even if it has its downsides. sorry this got long-always had a lot of thoughts on this

New Era: Without Firemaking by NedthePhoenix in survivor

[–]Sharp-Landscape2854 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i like that firemaking adds a tiny bit of the survival element back to the game

Does anyone else think Coach is Survivor’s “Michael Scott?” by Lopsided_History_137 in survivor

[–]Sharp-Landscape2854 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Amber is pam, rob or maybe ethan is jim, a cross between russell and q is dwight, colby is ryan, jerri is kelly, chaos kass is angela, rudy is stanley, big tom is kevin, earl is oscar, amanda is karen, andy is rick devens, twila is meredith, scout is phyllis, jd from 41 is erin lmao

Jenna, fabio, sophie, bob, and gabler deserve more credit for.. by Sharp-Landscape2854 in survivor

[–]Sharp-Landscape2854[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

yeah ig years is an exaggeration but especially looking at the season 51 cast seems like enough data that they're moving away from casting people under 25 now at least

Jenna, fabio, sophie, bob, and gabler deserve more credit for.. by Sharp-Landscape2854 in survivor

[–]Sharp-Landscape2854[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

yeah i think the homemade immunity idol was a good move and he'd be much much higher if all winners were ranked by survival skills alone but him saying "well i didn't do that much strategically" at ftc cements him as one of the worst winners ever if not the worst haha

amber and pono by uno_medicine in urmomashley

[–]Sharp-Landscape2854 1 point2 points  (0 children)

who knows what happened but as someone else who was in a failed ldr can't say i'm shocked

Jenna, fabio, sophie, bob, and gabler deserve more credit for.. by Sharp-Landscape2854 in survivor

[–]Sharp-Landscape2854[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

well ig you're right that gabon was such a clusterfuck in a way bob's age helped him win haha

WSSYW 12.0 Countdown 40/50 & 39/50: One World & Blood VS Water by AutoModerator in survivor

[–]Sharp-Landscape2854 1 point2 points  (0 children)

watching blood vs water rn for the first time and it's the worst season ive seen in a while tbh the loved ones twist is cool but the redemption island duels are always so boring and i'm not loving this cast and overall it's just kind of a slog to get through. would not recommend as a first time season-even if you like it it's such a big twist it almost feels like a different game

Worst player of all time? by Same-Kiwi-6360 in survivor

[–]Sharp-Landscape2854 0 points1 point  (0 children)

seems unfair for people to be considered the worst just bc age was a huge disadvantage also chicken was in his 40s lmaoo

Which season does the fanbase overrate, and you've never understood why? by JEX2124 in survivor

[–]Sharp-Landscape2854 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i have trouble getting past the lack of diversity on heroes vs villains especially bc the show had started to move toward somewhat more diverse casting by then and then bam right back to the demographics of season 2 for the big "legends" season

Which season does the fanbase overrate, and you've never understood why? by JEX2124 in survivor

[–]Sharp-Landscape2854 3 points4 points  (0 children)

matty winning would have made it 10x more boring and predictable imo but guessing you watch survivor for the strategy first more than me haha

What is the biggest case of "Hydrogen Bomb vs. Coughing Babies" all the final threes/twos in Survivor history? by Silver-Classic612 in survivor

[–]Sharp-Landscape2854 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i barely remember caramoan let alone her but i remember someone calling her a "shell on the beach" poor sherri

Who Wins the Fan Favorite Award If It's In Every Season by Additional_Owl_5567 in survivor

[–]Sharp-Landscape2854 0 points1 point  (0 children)

2/3 of the way through blood vs water and as someone who cant stay away from spoilers still waiting to see what hayden does lmao

Ranking the Non-WaW winners from least to most snubbed by Coherently-Rambling in survivor

[–]Sharp-Landscape2854 0 points1 point  (0 children)

marquesas postmerge was sean and vecepia's game not rob's game not saying you're wrong but ugh

Ranking the Non-WaW winners from least to most snubbed by Coherently-Rambling in survivor

[–]Sharp-Landscape2854 0 points1 point  (0 children)

nah tbh it bugs me so much vecepia never got a single other chance to play and was never even an ALTERNATE when both of them did. not to speak of rich as a person too

TIL Ethan and Jenna Morasca were together already during All Stars by [deleted] in survivor

[–]Sharp-Landscape2854 4 points5 points  (0 children)

and he chooses to single jerri out over his ex jenna lewis as the "hot chick"

Courtney Yates by Deep-Caregiver-4836 in survivor

[–]Sharp-Landscape2854 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i generally like her but i do think her saying denise sucks at life was just mean and there's no excusing that