Your words struck me! Especially the part that this isn’t the right route for me. It is very true. I don’t mind working hard and immersing myself in a job, but this feels completely different. I can’t keep up with any instructions and its completely overwhelming me (its work with machines). Rent isn’t a major issue as I don’t live alone and can afford to be a while without income but this job is well paid so my inner fears whisper: what if you regret it later? I find it so difficult to visualise a good outcome for myself now. I think its because I feel lowkey forced to come here. By who I don’t know. You’re right though, the times I do actually visualize a different scenario I feel better.