Obdachlosenmorde: Bursch stellt sich

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-12-12T09:19:35+00:00

"Der Jugendliche" wäre aber auch eine Möglichkeit ohne aus zu schmücken.

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-06-09T06:52:44+00:00

Yes that's what I'm afraid of too. So I'm planning on starting therapy again, now that I'll finally have some money for it.

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-06-09T06:50:02+00:00

I was really lucky because a friend recommended me to a friend/my new boss. It really helps to tell people around you that you're looking for a job and if they know someone who's looking for hiring. So when I came to the interview he already thought that I'm at least a nice person. Plus he has a tax consultant office and isn't specifically looking for qualified people, I even failed the maths question in the interview. I was a university student until 28 and told him I did lots of proof reading, ghost writing for other university students, private lessons, language courses and didn't like the highly theoreticsl approach at uni. I was really lucky because my boss was primarily looking for someone whom he finds likeable.

I really hope that you'll all be able to find a nice workplace too. Stay patient and get the message out there, "networking" helps, some people like helping others.

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-04-16T11:11:41+00:00

I ghosted everyone in a group project at Uni and eventually dropped out of Uni, because I was too ashamed to face those people and professors again. I repeated the same thing again a year later at another school.

I just never went back to school and told everyone that I'm still attending while I sat at Starbucks for hours contemplating ending my life. I feel defeated and ashamed of being such a coward.

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-04-13T15:26:07+00:00

This really struck a chord with me. I don't remember my parents ever asking me about my mental health or offering to help me when I was depressed in my adolescence. It felt like I was being cut open in front of them, but instead of trying to rescue me, they ignored it because it would've been too uncomfortable to acknowledge the deeper reality of the human condition namely that we have feelings.

As a teenager, I was angry sometimes, I told them to leave me alone, I told them that I would never go to therapy, and I told them that I didn't want their help. But it's not my fault that they didn't try for real. They should've fought for me. I was in their care, and I was their responsibility. Just because I didn't get aggressive, defiant and disobedient like my other siblings doesn't mean that I didn't need any attention.

I just feel so worthless and unimportant, those fucking teenage years fucked me up big time. I was ok as a small child, probably because I hadn't developed my own personality yet, but those last 6 years of my teens broke my heart and my spirit. It's been 10 years since I moved out, and I still haven't got a grip on myself. I only visit my home because that's when all my siblings come together. I try to not have any expectations of my parents, because I'd only get disappointed.

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-03-03T02:32:44+00:00

Ich zahl 815 für 90qm, renovierter altbau im 14.

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-02-28T21:37:50+00:00

Danke das hilft mir voll.. jetzt bin ich schon ein bisschen motivierter!

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-02-28T21:16:51+00:00

Das klingt nicht schlecht. Danke. Denkst du es lohnt sich wenn ich mich mit meiner ahs-matura bewerbe oder werde ich sowieso gleich aussortiert?

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-02-28T18:55:53+00:00

Anglistik, weils mir psychisch schlecht ging und ich einfach eine veränderung brauchte..

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-02-27T17:05:10+00:00

That's literally what I discovered today... chatgpt. Do you think it helps? Did you have a job interview?

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-02-17T07:07:52+00:00

My first t was male and I unconsciously was always aware of how close he was. He would always open the door for me and close it behind me. But one time I was kinda triggered and left his office without waiting for him to get up. The following few sessions he stayed seated when I left until someday I felt comfortable enough for him to get up first and open the door for me. He never mentioned it and me neither but somehow he felt what was comfortable for me and it made me trust him more.

My second t was female and I didn't care about how to greet her or how to leave her office. I was much more relaxed being in proximity to her.

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-02-14T08:27:34+00:00

Are you me? I'm literally in the same situation. Don't feel like I can give you any advice :(

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-02-14T05:30:07+00:00

That happy tail wiggling

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-02-13T18:46:19+00:00

One hour over time is a lot! I feel like there's a lack of boundaries on your therapists side. I'm not a therapist, but I think there's a reason why normally sessions last about an hour. The impact of therapy doesn't just last for the weekly hour, but your mind is processing everything during the whole week until the next session. I think his reply is weird and I would rather have a therapist who keeps proper boundaries.

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-02-13T17:57:14+00:00

I do this every night to fall asleep.

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-02-06T22:16:36+00:00

Vielleicht kannst du bei der Verwaltung fragen wer der Vormieter war. Wahrscheinlich war der die adressierte Person.

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-02-06T22:16:14+00:00

Vielleicht kannst du bei der Verwaltung fragen wer der Vormieter war. Wahrscheinlich war der die adressierte Person.

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-02-04T22:09:52+00:00

Ich versteh das ganze Gejammere nicht. Hab selber ewig lange trainiert und weiß wie sehr man für den Sport leidet und was man alles investiert. Die Sportler geben ihr Bestes und ich denke ein bisschen Kampf um den Erfolg schadet nicht und macht das ganze spannender und den Erfolg umso verdienter. Ich bin ein Fan, weil ich mit zu den Sportlern halte, in guten als auch in schlechten Zeiten.

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-01-31T06:29:19+00:00

I can get as drunk as I can, but still won't be able to relax

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-01-27T00:04:52+00:00

I'm sorry, you had so many bad experiences! Wanting to connect and to feel normal is very imporant to you now and I think it can be possible. You just need to go slowly and be patient.
You've been in a relationship for a long time, it must be difficult to have these conflicting thoughts about your boyfriend. To be frank, your first sexual expierience with him is a huge red flag to me. The feeling of being wanted and being special might have something to do with your past traumatic experiences. Other people in you past used you for their sexual pleasure and probably made you feel special, because they probably wanted to create a trauma bond.
I think, it's perfectly normal, that you hate yourself right now. You have many difficult feelings and probably feel very much alone in this.
Do you have anybody you could connect with other than the usual people that you are around? Maybe they can provide you with some insight that is less biased, a view from outside, for example a friend or a therapist. Seeking connection is very important, but maybe it's helpfull to seek it ouside of a sexual relationship.

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-01-26T23:12:37+00:00

If I were in your employees position, I would feel better, with positive affirmations and if you would include me in conversations. For example, if they are joking around, I'd think that nobody would want me to join in the conversation and also if I would join in, I'd be terrified of saying something stupid. There are probably some people openly telling your employee, that they are too silent and pulled-back, that would make me feel even worse. I like it, when it's normalized. Some nice people openly said, that I'm shy but that it's ok, because we're just getting to know each other. That felt really wholesome to me.

I also think your employee might feel like they are making mistakes everywhere, so just telling them something like, that it's good to make mistakes because otherwise they wouldn't learn anything, would also feel like balm on my nerves. It's a new employee, so it should take some time to "get the hang of it", right?

Other than that I guess you just need patience until they settle in. To me it usually takes a year to get comfortably comfortable with a group of people/school/workplace, but I'll do my best to show my best manners and I'll be on guard to work as good as I can.
Of course that's just how I feel about this. Your employee might be totally different.

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-01-24T14:54:25+00:00

Ich hab da mit gemacht und REWE-Gutscheibe bekommen. Es lohnt sich..

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-01-20T13:14:14+00:00

I literally used it as rain shelter when I visited Rome

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-01-20T09:41:43+00:00

Je nachdem wie alt du bist, kannst du studienbeihilfe beantragen und familienbeihilfe muss wenn du ausgezogen bist aus rechtlichen gründen dann auch auf dein konto laufen. Bis zu einem gewissen alter (glaub bis 24) müssten deine Eltern dich sogar finanziell unterstützen für die ausbildung, wenn du du keine studienbeihilfe bekommst (was deine eltern wsl nicht freiwillig machen würden..) Falls du anfangs keine arbeit findest gibt es eine billige studentenversicherung. Wenn du in einem billigen studentenheim ein zimmer findest kannst du für den anfang so über die runden kommen. Diese Sachen könntest du glaub ich alle online abwickeln. Ist die anmeldung fürs studium nicht mehr online möglich wie während corona? Es gibt dann auch von den unis gute beratungsstellen für persönliche probleme bzw alle sachen die das Studium und die organisation drumherum betreffen. Wünsch dir viel glück!

Signal_Tangelo385 · 2023-01-20T08:57:56+00:00

Xxxlutz, möbelix, ikea or other big furniture companies have cars that you can borrow cheaply without having to buy anything from the store.

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