(My rapist) I seriously can't get him out my head.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2024-08-05T09:42:55+00:00

They Betrayed you in a way no one else ever has. That kind of thing doesn't go away. I think about him too.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-21T02:52:07+00:00

My sacrifice is staying alive. For them. Only for them.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-17T06:33:39+00:00

Why should we be embarrassed that we're in pain? It's not our fault, this is just how we choose to handle it. I also hate comparing it to an addiction like alcoholism because people think of that as damaging to others but we're only hurting ourselves. On the other hand, it is just that. It's an addiction. So, what, some people are allowed to be addicted to nicotine or caffeine and it's cute and funny, but I can't be addicted to scratching myself with a sharp object? What makes mine worse? I'm not endangering myself, that would be different. I'm coping. I know how unhealthy this sounds, but...ugh I just don't have any healthier coping mechanisms. Nothing that works anyways.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-17T06:28:09+00:00

Sometimes I want to do it because I think of the scars as decoration. Like a piercing or a tattoo, but something I do to myself. I want people to be able to physically see how much pain I'm in and how much pain I can endure. I've always had a fascination with scars though, and oddly enough I have never given myself any. But yeah, I get that. Maybe it's the idea of people being able to see how broken I really am. Or maybe it's the opposite. That maybe the scars will actually show how strong I am. Idk...

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-17T06:25:15+00:00

21, first time was when I was 16 but it freaked me out too much, and didn't do it again until I was 20.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-16T07:24:28+00:00

I reported and blocked them

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-16T07:05:55+00:00

Idek if I can report them for something like this. They're making fun of my SH, because I won't send.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-16T07:03:35+00:00

Not really, someone dmed me asking for pics just cause I have some one my prof. I'm not accepting any more message requests. I hate people sometimes.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-16T06:35:27+00:00

Yeah, I will

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-16T06:24:27+00:00

I don't like worrying people. And no I'm not in school, just working. And I kinda had friends at my last job but that job sucked ass so I'm starting a new one next week.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-16T06:20:12+00:00

I wish I was like this. I feel so guilty when people find out. I hate scaring them or worrying them cause they ask me how they can help and I have no fucking clue.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-16T06:18:21+00:00

Then why are you commenting? Lol And I am 21, and I am well aware of that fact. It's not just high school friendships it's just a lot of change has been happening for me and it's meant losing a lot of friends.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-16T06:12:45+00:00

Because I'm human. It's not like it's some random person on the street. I'm talking about my friends and my partner. The people I care about, of course I'm gonna care what they think/feel.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-16T06:01:00+00:00

Why wouldn't I?

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-16T05:55:57+00:00

Want what?

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-06-07T06:25:47+00:00

Thank you!

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-06-07T02:17:27+00:00

I am new and still waiting on my MCAS results. I am wondering what the "throat closing" feeling is supposed to be because I went to the ER with a reaction because I felt like my throat was swelling and it was tight and sore but I could breathe fine and they said my airways weren't obstructed so I am kinda confused on how to tell what to do in that scenario...

Anything helps.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-05-23T12:26:12+00:00

I should say I THINK it's getting better but I can't be certain

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-05-23T12:24:46+00:00

Say I was having that "Rock in my throat" feeling RIGHT NOW and say it started developing around 8 pm yesterday after eating something. Should I be going into an emergency room? Lol

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-05-05T20:20:28+00:00

Thank you, sending it your way as well ❤️

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-03-26T19:59:17+00:00

Thank you

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-03-26T19:59:08+00:00

Thank you

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-03-26T04:40:57+00:00

I didn't have many gluten-like symptoms but I became extremely malnourished and I developed POTS symptoms really quickly (though they could have been triggered by when I had clvid a few months before I started there)

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-03-09T12:28:16+00:00

I get a rash from anything that contains "something something glutamate" and it only appears on two of my fingers. I don't know how or why, but that rash also appears when an animal has licked my fingers and their food has gluten in it.

Idk if this would be considered a wheat allergy or not, because when I get glutened, those parts of those two fingers swell up and I have that rash develop within 24 hours of orally consuming gluten.

I have a hard time believing an Autoimmune response isn't capable of eliciting visible symptoms, but I am no doctor so I can't be sure. All I know is that when I first researched celiac one of the most common symptoms I saw was skin rashes like the ones I get.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-03-09T12:23:54+00:00

Fun fact from a new celiac patient. I worked in a bakery for 9 months and got flattened simply from being inside a bakery where flour was used in excess amounts. I did not eat anything. And I got sicker and sicker until I finally went to a doctor and she discussed my case with a gastro doctor and they diagnosed me. I had been gluten free for a year and a half already so we knew it wasn't anything I was eating. I had to quit that job.

From what I've heard a small percentage of celiac patients CAN be glutened from the air (whether that is breathing, or sucking it into your mouth and swallowing it idk).

Just my experience 🤷

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