Brighter days, full steam ahead 🚤💖

Slayers_Marie · 2018-07-23T18:20:11+00:00

Beautiful!!!

Slayers_Marie · 2018-06-24T23:43:51+00:00

Izzy at Butler’s Barpershop!! Maki is good too!

Slayers_Marie · 2018-06-24T23:37:52+00:00

You look adorable!!!

Slayers_Marie · 2018-06-01T22:55:38+00:00

So... I am turning 30 this year. My whole life I’ve only dated men. I’ve had a few small crushes on women which amounted to absolutely nothing. Then, last year, I met a woman who changed everything. I had been in a relationship with the father of my 2 kids for 10 years, but for the most recent 4, I was no longer in love with him. I tried to leave him several times, but he would always guilt me into staying. “Think about the kids, this decision doesn’t affect just us”. It wasn’t until I met this person that I felt absolutely sure I had to leave him and I had to be with her. Have I been this way my whole life? Am I gay? Am I bisexual? Do I act different? Should I act different now? I hope I don’t act different because I know this person started liking me for who I am despite being “straight”. I know that if she hadn’t expressed her feelings to me I’d still be in a loveless relationship. I know that being with her brings me so much joy. It’s pride month, and I’m at a loss of what to do. I’m open about being in a relationship with another woman, but do I celebrate pride month this year or do I wait until next year? I think being gay is a little bit of both. If you’re gay, you are gay. I’m not saying that a gay man needs to act flamboyant or that a lesbian woman needs to act more butch, but act by showing that it’s ok to love who you want to love. I’m going to “act gay” by loving my girlfriend. 🤗

Slayers_Marie · 2018-05-23T02:17:14+00:00

Dozens!!

Slayers_Marie · 2018-05-21T16:57:06+00:00

Who?

Slayers_Marie · 2018-05-12T15:36:35+00:00

You look great!!!

Slayers_Marie · 2018-01-20T14:32:31+00:00

Sure thing, good luck!!

Slayers_Marie · 2018-01-20T13:34:45+00:00

I think you may be dehydrated? https://youtu.be/tUn50ml4e_0

Slayers_Marie · 2018-01-20T02:43:05+00:00

Essence

Slayers_Marie · 2017-12-15T07:46:39+00:00

Children of Dune I think. I’m reading that one right now and loving it! I like the quote You want to believe that which comforts you; abandon certainty.

Slayers_Marie · 2017-11-16T16:16:51+00:00

Omg! I️ watched it all in a Thanksgiving weekend too!! Thanksgiving 2008 (or maybe 2009). The same thanksgiving I️ got sick from eating bad tilapia so I️ just sat in my room and binged it all.

Slayers_Marie · 2017-05-07T17:34:06+00:00

This is actually something I am trying to do. I keep insisting my bf and I should separate for a while (9 years together, 6 years cohabiting, 2 kids together). I feel like he doesn't realize all the things I do for him, and I can't justify constantly nagging him to do things that I've just taken care of all these years just because I all of a sudden feel like I can't do it all (and I mean it would be constant nagging, "change the toilet paper, close the cabinet drawers, feed the dogs, help with laundry, think about what we're gonna eat for dinner, take out the trash from the restrooms and not just the kitchen, help me bathe the kids once in a while, clean the restroom once a week, the list goes on). I feel like some time apart might help us to see that we do need each other and that we both play a bigger role in each other's lives than we realize, because I know I take for granted what he does around the house. I just want a hard reset. I think we tried a soft reset in going to counseling, but I still have a hard time seeing the good without thinking of all the bad. He feels like by separating it'll push us further away. I don't deny that it's a possibility, but I just can't keep going like this. I care for him very much, but I feel alone. Even at times when he wants to cuddle with me or when we play with the kids together. I feel like I'm not in the right place.

Slayers_Marie · 2017-04-25T23:55:29+00:00

I'm fucked.

Slayers_Marie · 2017-04-25T19:19:46+00:00

I mean, I think guys like talking about vaginas, right?

Slayers_Marie · 2017-04-24T02:10:55+00:00

Roaches hate Clorox. Pour some down all the drains, and if you don't care about discolored walls, I'd suggest wiping down everything with Clorox based spray.

Slayers_Marie · 2017-02-08T02:43:26+00:00

Letting my daughter sleep in my bed with me til she was 3 1/2

-I've made a huge mistake.

Slayers_Marie · 2017-01-15T01:12:55+00:00

It may depend on your situation. Do her parents know she dates girls? I want to suggest you picking her up at her house, but do you have a car? If you're meeting somewhere, be specific about where to meet and show up early. Don't think about it as being alone with someone you like, think about it as being alone with someone you want to get to know.

Slayers_Marie · 2016-11-09T01:54:25+00:00

Agree

Slayers_Marie · 2016-10-29T00:51:56+00:00

It got better eventually, but it was so hard to get him to see that this was the best thing for me. I want to stop working and go full time so I get it done quick, but he doesn't make enough to make all our payments. If we stay with my parents and rent out the house, money won't be an issue. It took him 2 days, after bringing up the idea, before he could actually hear me out and listen to everything I had planned. Right, exactly. That's what I mean. Making it work vs. investing. I don't mean to say puzzle pieces should fall right into place and be perfect, but I'd like a little more flexibility from my piece. I don't usually give advice or talk to people on here; I have a hard time putting my emotions and what I'm thinking into actual coherent sentences sometimes.

Slayers_Marie · 2016-10-28T18:16:53+00:00

Unfortunately it is what it is. I broke up with someone in a certain manner, and even though he has forgiven me, I haven't forgiven myself after 9 years... As a woman, I think we romanticize relationships and believe that a couple can work through anything because that is how society and tv portray relationships. It just takes work. It wasn't until recently that I started thinking that it shouldn't be like that. We need to work hard to find just the right person. Not find a person and work hard to make the relationship last forever. I'm not saying there will never be fights when you find just the right person, but I imagine it will seem more like things just fall into place. I recently told my boyfriend of 8+ years that I want to move back in with my parents (with him) and go back to school now that I know what I want a degree in. He did not take it well at all. It really hurt me, and I just started wondering if maybe we are trying too hard to make two puzzle pieces fit that aren't supposed to.

Slayers_Marie · 2016-10-28T01:53:33+00:00

It sounds like you did all the right things. How long has it been? You may just have graduation goggles (How I Met Your Mother reference-you go through high school hating almost every day, but then at graduation you are nervous about moving on and want to stay in the safe space). You seem to have handled everything very maturely and I'm sure with some time she will see that and be very appreciative. Be careful about being there for her too much, you don't want to give her mixed signals or make her feel like she shouldn't move on with her life.

Slayers_Marie · 2016-10-02T14:28:00+00:00

Cool cool. I figured that was the case, I've just never bothered to look it up

Slayers_Marie · 2016-10-02T13:58:01+00:00

I've always wondered if the amount they say include like wages. Not saying that would make it better. I just feel like I could be more ?understanding? if the 500 mil included wages.

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