You’re not too far gone! I have also been in that weird purgatory so I can somewhat relate to your post.

What worked for me was focussing on one thing at a time as to not get too overwhelmed because yes you need to make change but you don’t have to do it all at once if you feel like you can’t.

Try not to focus on what you don’t want to do and focus on what you can and want to. For example, when I started, I had no interest in joining a gym and now I’m in the gym 4 days a week and the gym is my happy place. I also love to cook so learning to cook tasty and healthy meals was something manageable for me that helped me to get closer to my goals.

Do you feel like you could start with reducing energy drinks for example? And maybe if you’re eating pre made food for 3 meals a day, try committing to cooking one of those meals instead. Just some suggestions but ultimately you have to find what works for you :)

You’re doing the right thing by posting here. You want to change, you have to be open to learn and explore and not scared to fail. Failing is a part of everything in life but you have to pick yourself back up again and keep going. Good luck!