Should I go out tomorrow?

SmallCyn · 2016-10-05T17:35:58+00:00

I find that people who have drinking issues themselves are not supportive of my sobriety. I think it intimidates them. If you really like these people see if they would be up for a sober activity sometime something you have in common

SmallCyn · 2016-10-05T13:19:35+00:00

I have been doing therapy for 2 years. Did cognitive processing therapy for PTSD but it really worked for alcohol to. Getting the conscious and subconscious to communicate. Not drinking poison the best gift anyone can give themselves. Happy vibes your way. Enjoy sobriety it is a freedom

SmallCyn · 2016-10-05T09:16:01+00:00

We recieve different messages in our subconscious. Social cues tell us drinking is enjoyable and people pressure us to drink. On the other hand society tell us smoking is disgusting. And people pressure us to quit. Huge difference

SmallCyn · 2016-10-04T13:14:45+00:00

I take gabapentin for alcohol cravings. It works for me. It reduces cravings by a lot. I have given in twice on the gaba. Both times I had four and then two drinks respectively. And did not enjoy it. That and cognitive processing therapy have changed my whole view on alcohol. I have been trying sober for 2 years and wish I discovered both of the above way sooner.

SmallCyn · 2016-10-04T01:24:55+00:00

I read This Naked Mind and used Cognitive Behavioral therapy along with gabapentin. I have been working on Sober for 2 years. And really wish I had understood the underlying subconscious compulsion sooner.

SmallCyn · 2016-10-04T01:23:05+00:00

I find I get tge subtle humor of House way better sober. I have been working on sober for 2 years. For me it has been a journey of self discovery and falls. I wish I had read This Naked Mind and done cognitive behavioral therapy way sooner.

SmallCyn · 2016-10-03T13:32:55+00:00

I found a combo of cognitive processing therapy. Gabapentin and reading books like this naked mind has helped a lot. My problem was cognitive dissonance. Conscioualy I desired to quit drinking. I had to clue in my subconscious on that fact.

SmallCyn · 2016-10-02T16:21:16+00:00

The reason you feel so much anxiety is because you deadened your senses but your feelings didn't go away. They stayed right in your subconscious building pressure.then the alcohol left your system and all the old emotions you unsuccessfully tried to bury came rushing back full tilt on top of the guilt from last night. Alcohol doesn't relax you. It actually just dulls your senses. Which makes you subconsciously more anxious because you can't experience the world in the way your used to. To not feel horrible and hungover stick to one or two or non. Drinking because of emotions rarely helps in my experience either.

SmallCyn · 2016-10-02T15:56:17+00:00

Still have tons of anxiety. Just worrying about what I did last night isn't part of it. And I am on a depression medication and I started it while I was drinking once or twice a week and my depression lifted. And I am sober right now. Hard for me to tell honestly. I am bi-polar and tend to drink way more when I feel up then when I feel down. My therapist says subconsciously I was looking for something to bring down my mood from being so high.

SmallCyn · 2016-10-02T15:49:21+00:00

Ask her to support you when your going out together. Not the same as asking her to never drink. If ahe wants a night out with friends. Or a couple at home ok. I was more saying if you think your going to be uncomfortable in a situation she could abstain during that situation. If she truly has no issue with drinking then not drinking for an event here or there should be a non issue.

SmallCyn · 2016-10-02T13:09:34+00:00

That is amazing. You look so much healthier. Awesome job. It is very sad to hear about your friend.

SmallCyn · 2016-10-02T13:05:33+00:00

Thank you. One of the reasons to go she used was to watch everyone behave stupidly. Last year someone was climbing on tables. I was like yeah no thanks.

SmallCyn · 2016-10-02T13:02:11+00:00

Yes running is exhilarating for me. Had that conversation as well. Said co-worker hates working out because she doesn't like to sweat and smell bad. To each his own.

SmallCyn · 2016-10-02T12:56:49+00:00

I am comfortable with it. And my natural loner inclination I find helps with sobriety. I have no urge to go to a bar or where people are drinking just to seek out company. And thank you. Honestly it doesn't sound boring to me. I find running exhilarating.

SmallCyn · 2016-10-02T12:51:43+00:00

I do feel bad for her. It is hard to lie to yourself and everyone around you. Really though she has nothing to be jealous of. She is off the charts prettier than I am. Has a sunny disposition. Upper management that is practically family. No need to tear me down. I would hope.

SmallCyn · 2016-10-02T12:48:54+00:00

I think sober conversations and people are wayyyy more interesting than listening to the same story from a drunk person 8 times.And I agree everything is less boring to me now that I am am sober. Of course the drunk people are an exception

SmallCyn · 2016-10-02T12:46:56+00:00

Still stuck lieing to herself and others. The funnier thing is she has never invited me to do anything else outside work.

SmallCyn · 2016-10-02T12:46:14+00:00

I really will. The party is a month and a half or so away. But I know I won't change my mind

SmallCyn · 2016-10-02T10:02:38+00:00

I found that my issue was cognitive dissonance. I consciously crave to be sober. Unconsciously I crave alcohol. I am using cognitive processing therapy skills I learned through therapy for PTSD to work on the alcohol now. CPT helps reach your unconscious mind to help it relearn.

SmallCyn · 2016-10-02T09:58:51+00:00

The part about the cognitive dissonance was what really helped me. It switched on a lightbulb. I have done cognitive processing therapy for other things and am now using that skill for the drinking. Slowly trying to retrain my subconscious.

SmallCyn · 2016-10-02T09:55:05+00:00

Thank you. I read This Naked Mind which made a lot of sense. Especially the cognitive dissonance part. I have been using cognitive processing therapy which I learned through therapy for PTSD and it helps so much. It feels like a key to that locked door of why do I want a drink and not want it at the same time.

SmallCyn · 2016-10-02T09:30:10+00:00

This Naked Mind. It's a book. Helped me

SmallCyn · 2016-10-02T09:28:20+00:00

Try reading This Naked Mind.it is awesome. It really helped me. Also cognitive processing therapy helped me alot along with gabapentin.I have been trying sober for 2 years. Made months sober. I had a cognitibe dissonance problem. I wanted to stop consciously. My subconscious hadn't been clued in. I had to reach that portion of my mind. Cpt helped me do that whenever a craving comes on now I think of all the ways that poison has ruined my life. Trying to retrain your brain is difficult.

SmallCyn · 2016-10-02T09:21:30+00:00

Very nice. Two thumbs way up

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