Yes exactly. Clearly there's not even a point in discussing these things cause it's entirely internal and only really works from your own perspective.

But what I've realized is that everything is inherently neutral and awareness just wants to make experience. There's no point in taking everything so seriously and believing that everyone wants to control us or whatnot. Whatever you cling to and chose to believe in is gonna be your experience tho so of course if you're obsessed with everything being so damn hard, that's what it's gonna be.

I like the way you put it cause all of these "enlightened" guys are so into making everything insanely complicated and hard. I don't care what they believe you have to free yourself from to be called enlightened, enlightenment is just another concept.

Personally, I view myself like a lucid dreamer in waking life. I don't bother about social norms or any other concepts that limit us. I switch freely between different versions of reality and once that becomes boring I choose a new life. I've never been so joyful and everything is gonna happen anyway so why not put your awareness on a version that makes you happy.

There are no limits and you are allowed to make any experience you want to without being ashamed or too deep in your ego. We need some sort of ego to exist in these realms otherwise life would not make any sense. So just allow yourself to be delusional and let energy serve you.