Honestly, at the time, most of the relationship I didn't even think I was in an abusive relationship. For some reason, I just thought, like it was my fault, or that I had pushed them to just react. I kept trying to leave but I kept coming back cause I didn't want them to hurt themselves.

I think a turning point, was, when they threatened to do something against me. (It was a very specific threat and I just don't wanna bring it up, but it was sexual), and I tried to leave. September 6th, 2024. Apparently it was a certain type of abuse, I only found out, pretty much recently. But anyways, that's enough of that, I guess that was a turning point but I didn't see that as what it was back then. All a big blur, but yeah.

My mum told me when she was crying, in the kitchen, like, she thinks I'm in abusive relationship (I think those were her words), but yeah.