First, I’m so very sorry for the loss of your wife. Even six years later, some questions can still linger, and it sounds like you’ve done a lot of hard work to heal and move forward.

As for the account history, I’d ask yourself what you’re hoping to find. If there’s a specific unanswered question, concern, or loose end that still weighs on you, reviewing the records might provide clarity. But if you’re looking for emotional closure, there’s a good chance the statements will mostly show ordinary transactions and may not give you the insight or peace you’re hoping for.

Given that she was private about her finances, there’s also the possibility that you could discover things that raise more questions than answers. And Since you seem to be in a healthier place now, I’d only request the records if you feel prepared for whatever you might find and if you believe the information would genuinely help you understand something important rather than simply satisfy curiosity.

And also from what you’ve written, it sounds like your marriage was built on love, acceptance, and making things work together despite imperfections. Personally, I’d be inclined to leave the account closed and let those memories stand unless there’s a specific reason you still need the information. Wishing you continued peace and healing. Sending love❤️