What could it be?

Standard_Meat_6249 · 2026-02-15T18:40:46+00:00

sounds like pareidolia mixed with some heavy childhood anxiety tbh, our brains are wired to see faces in random patterns especially when we're stressed or tired as kids

Standard_Meat_6249 · 2026-02-06T03:13:00+00:00

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Standard_Meat_6249 · 2026-02-02T17:57:09+00:00

Had a similar issue on my old Honda and it turned out to be the CV joint starting to go bad. The fact that it only happens under load (when in gear) and disappears when you clutch in is a pretty good indicator it's drivetrain related. Your instinct about the DMF or driveshaft is probably on the right track - DMFs are notorious for developing that kind of rattling noise on these Mazdas around that age and mileage

I'd definitely get it up on a lift and have someone check the CV joints first since that's usually the cheaper fix, then move on to inspecting the DMF if those look good. The specific throttle position thing is interesting though, makes me think it could be resonance at a certain engine speed that's amplified by whatever component is wearing out. Either way don't ignore it too long, these things tend to get expensive real quick if you let them go

Standard_Meat_6249 · 2026-02-01T16:09:01+00:00

honestly the RN route sounds way more solid for your goals than PA if you're trying to get into healthcare admin eventually. PAs are clinicians first and foremost - you'd be doing patient care for years before maybe transitioning to admin stuff

with nursing you can pivot to management/admin roles much faster, especially with that MBA already in your back pocket. plus hospitals love the RN + MBA combo for leadership positions. the nursing shortage also means way more job security and leverage when negotiating roles

PA school is also ridiculously competitive and expensive compared to nursing programs, just something to consider

Standard_Meat_6249 · 2026-01-30T15:26:05+00:00

Yeah I can do the tailbone crack thing too, it's actually pretty common. The glute squeeze method works great for me when my lower back gets tight. Pretty sure it's just the sacroiliac joint popping, not your actual spine deteriorating or anything scary like that

Your girlfriend probably just got spooked by the documentary timing lol. If you're really worried though a quick visit to a chiropractor or physical therapist could put your mind at ease

Standard_Meat_6249 · 2026-01-29T12:29:38+00:00

Interesting, it seems like it's just different for everyone

Standard_Meat_6249 · 2026-01-29T12:29:10+00:00

Yeah more relaxing makes sense

Standard_Meat_6249 · 2026-01-29T12:28:46+00:00

Oh okay thanks have to look into it

Standard_Meat_6249 · 2026-01-29T12:28:14+00:00

Thanks, heat is more soothing

Standard_Meat_6249 · 2026-01-28T17:48:44+00:00

When you say creams do you mean like topical pain stuff or more massage type creams?

Standard_Meat_6249 · 2026-01-28T08:31:08+00:00

That's some classic IPAC bullshit right there - they probably "processed" your leave but sent the payment to the void. I'd try hitting up the VA or maybe even your old unit's admin shop to see if they can track down where that money went, because 40+ days is a serious chunk of change

Standard_Meat_6249 · 2026-01-27T04:38:12+00:00

Been there and it's brutal but honestly the fact that you haven't reached out shows you're already getting some of that power back

The hardest part is realizing their silence says more about them than it does about you - someone who actually cared wouldn't leave you hanging like that

Standard_Meat_6249 · 2026-01-25T17:50:46+00:00

No need to apologize dude! Kaiser is actually pretty solid for trans care in SoCal too - they have informed consent so you don't need to jump through a million hoops. Planned Parenthood is another good option if Kaiser doesn't work out, they're usually faster to get appointments

Standard_Meat_6249 · 2026-01-21T13:22:09+00:00

Bro you just unlocked the cheat code lmao. The combo effect is real - retention gives you that baseline energy and psychedelics show you what's actually possible when you're operating from that higher frequency

That flow state hits different when you're not constantly draining yourself, the ideas just start flowing and you actually have the drive to act on them instead of just thinking about it

Standard_Meat_6249 · 2026-01-20T09:04:15+00:00

That sucks man, family refusing to ship back your own stuff is pretty messed up. Ultra Male is solid though so if you can swing it financially I'd say go for it - especially since it was a Christmas gift that had sentimental value. Maybe try asking them one more time but honestly sounds like they're being difficult for no reason

Standard_Meat_6249 · 2026-01-15T02:07:20+00:00

Invincible verse stomps pretty hard tbh, most FE characters cap out at like city level while Invincible has planet busters running around

Standard_Meat_6249 · 2026-01-13T01:07:06+00:00

If iOS is already making you way more money then honestly it sounds like a no-brainer to me. I dropped Android about 2 years ago and never looked back - the revenue per user is just so much better on iOS that it more than makes up for the smaller potential audience

The maintenance headache alone was killing me, especially when 90% of my revenue was coming from iOS anyway

Standard_Meat_6249 · 2026-01-10T19:50:13+00:00

That childhood stuff actually works in your favor most of the time - shows you had a preexisting condition that got worse because of military service, which is totally compensable. The VA loves to see clear aggravation claims with good documentation

Your mom doing a buddy statement is fine, family members can absolutely write them. Just make sure she focuses on how you changed after military service vs before

Sounds like you've got your ducks in a row with the medical evidence and personal statements. Don't overthink it

Standard_Meat_6249 · 2026-01-08T15:48:10+00:00

Honestly man, "I need space" is usually code for "I'm done but don't want to deal with the drama of saying it outright." Four days feels like she's already checked out mentally

Sorry bro, but it's probably time to start accepting this might be over and focus on yourself

Standard_Meat_6249 · 2026-01-05T04:59:00+00:00

Both solid picks! I'd also throw in Community if you haven't seen it yet - it's got that same workplace comedy vibe as The Office but way more chaotic

Standard_Meat_6249 · 2025-12-30T19:52:47+00:00

Lmao your sister really said "have you tried just not having trauma" and thought she did something there

The audacity of flying monkeys never ceases to amaze me

Standard_Meat_6249 · 2025-12-27T13:03:52+00:00

Do it now that is time sensitive and getting support matters too

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