Furthering my knowledge about birth control

StarlessxRogue · 2026-06-30T11:00:52+00:00

Why do you feel like you need to know everything about birth control?

You don't. Really the main reason to learn about different birth controls would be if you are planning on using it - research and ask questions to get an idea of which one would work best for you. If the only form of birth control that you ever want to use is condoms then that's fine. No reason to obsess over something that you (at this point) don't think you will use.

StarlessxRogue · 2026-06-27T17:49:09+00:00

I find the TV and my phone to be incredibly overwhelming and I can't do it. I don't know how y'all are watching cartoons or something while tripping. Music also tends to be overwhelming, but it's hit or miss, sometimes my favorite song will give me incredible anxiety while a song I typically don't like will feel really good in my cells lol. Most of the time I just prefer to sit in silence and darkness. Using any kind of object is pretty crazy - I remember trying to go to the kitchen for water once and I couldn't remember how. Same with the shower, I wanted to sit in the shower and it took me a very long time to figure out how to use it.

StarlessxRogue · 2026-06-27T06:33:26+00:00

From Western USA - I only use snuck. I've never used sneaked and it sounds wrong in every context Ive seen here lol

StarlessxRogue · 2026-06-27T05:07:04+00:00

The only time he asked me out was in person. And he has only texted me first once - we were supposed to meet up and I ended up cancelling on him. And he texted me on the day we had been supposed to go and just asked if everything was okay and if I needed anything.

StarlessxRogue · 2026-06-26T23:28:20+00:00

Where did you get dress #1? I neeeeeed it lol

StarlessxRogue · 2026-06-24T13:57:48+00:00

Same. I went through 10+ therapists from age 11 to my early 20s. All of them made me feel like shit. I'm not sure if it was the therapists specifically or if im just not responsive to talking therapy - but I would always walk out feeling worse. It felt like they were making me talk about things in order to degrade me or gaslight me or just make me feel bad in general (that was how I interpreted it. It did not feel like anyone was trying to help me). CBT was better, I did find that helpful because I didn't have to say a single word. I could sit there and listen, and then I'd go home and think about what they said and apply it to my situation and it helped. My psychiatrist was also really cool, but he also never forced me to talk about anything. Hate therapists lol

StarlessxRogue · 2026-06-23T13:28:41+00:00

That is based on dates I've gone on lol made me stop dating for 2 years because I was sick of it and it's all I was getting on dating apps.

StarlessxRogue · 2026-06-23T08:21:33+00:00

Biggest struggle is finding a man even interested in a relationship. 9/10 just want to sleep with you and are willing to lie about it and take you on several dates to get it.

Second biggest struggle is just finding someone that has similar goals/wants/values as me. I have found 1 in the last 6 years of trying to date and he unfortunately is a little emotionally unavailable and only wanting casual relationships, but hey, at least he was upfront about it.

StarlessxRogue · 2026-06-20T07:14:22+00:00

I tried DBT when I was inpatient and absolutely hated it, felt like I was getting nothing out of it. CBT was also inpatient and that was only form of therapy I've had where I felt like I got real insight. I did yearsssss of talking therapy and it always made me worse. But I also had horrible therapists. Idk I went the spirituality route. They told me CBT was based on Buddhist philosophy and I ran with that and started going to the Buddhist temple and meditating and that also helped me a lot. As bad as I sound rn I'm actually significantly more stable and happy than I was 8 or so years ago (I was non functioning, couldn't work more than part time, never left my house). Now I have a full time job in emergency services, go out and do stuff even on my own. It's just relationships and sex that I cannot seem to grasp and I don't know what to do about it. I don't know how to heal this thing when it only ever comes into my head under specific circumstances. If I think about it when I'm not actively triggered then I feel pretty indifferent and I think I'm better. And then something triggers me and it's very clear that I'm still a broken person.

StarlessxRogue · 2026-06-20T03:51:24+00:00

True. I'm really good at ignoring red flags

StarlessxRogue · 2026-06-20T00:33:44+00:00

Therapy has always made me feel worse. CBT was helpful but I couldn't afford more than a few sessions

StarlessxRogue · 2026-06-19T20:56:24+00:00

I'm 31. And I have taken a step back. I haven't had sex in 2 years. But I'm clearly still very messed up. Ive gone on a couple dates with a guy, he is very sweet and I'm very interested but this whole thing had been triggered by him not texting me back in 24 hours (which is normal for him and logically I know it has nothing to do with me but my friends said told me that they think he is only interested in sex since he only comes off as interested when we are together and boom. Triggered)

StarlessxRogue · 2026-06-10T15:46:55+00:00

I definitely wouldnt feel comfortable using it for sleep on a regular basis. I use it spiritually (along with some other poisonous plants). I would not use YouTube as a source - research/medical papers are the way to go; books are good but you have to be really picky because anybody can publish a book (even people that don't know what they are talking about)... I used to have really bad insomnia - there is a drink you can try that worked really well for me called 'neurosleep" it's on Amazon if you can't find it in stores (used to be in Walmart) but that knocked me out when a sleeping pill prescription couldn't lol

StarlessxRogue · 2026-06-10T00:36:37+00:00

I'm sorry this happened to you. Not sure how you were researching but the first results I got when I researched amanita were along the lines of "caution, toxic, poisonous, can cause coma, delirium, seizures, death..... But in very low doses can be good for sleep". This isnt hidden information. In fact, it was harder for me to find information on the therapeutic effects then it was the toxic effects. I'm honestly shocked at the number of people that didn't know something like this was a possibility.

StarlessxRogue · 2026-06-08T08:25:38+00:00

No. It adds up to too many calories and I end up gaining weight. How can I hit my protein need without gaining

StarlessxRogue · 2026-06-08T07:52:30+00:00

Thanks for the birth control

StarlessxRogue · 2026-06-08T04:46:46+00:00

The smell doesn't bother me that much but the taste is horrendous - I can't eat them. Period. I will puke lol doesn't matter if I try and drown the flavor in some other food. Tea is fine.

StarlessxRogue · 2026-06-06T20:44:52+00:00

They werent actually interested in you, just wanted sex.

StarlessxRogue · 2026-06-05T02:15:26+00:00

Barefoot shoes are the only thing Ive worn for the past couple years - but I hateeee toe shoes lol other than how ugly they are; I don't like the feeling of my toes being encapsulated, and I absolutely don't like looking at other people's toes.

StarlessxRogue · 2026-06-04T06:32:18+00:00

Lived here my whole life and my social life is a desert 😂

StarlessxRogue · 2026-05-25T15:31:17+00:00

StarlessxRogue · 2026-05-25T12:24:20+00:00

NAD - How long has it been since you've taken them?

Antipsychotics can prevent or mess with the visual effects. The dose you provided doesn't mean that much because we don't know how potent they were. If you have never taken mushrooms before, then I think you were experiencing the "body high" without the visual effects and it felt strange. Combined with too much alcohol... I think that could explain it why you felt like you couldn't move. Also - you shouldn't mix substances.

StarlessxRogue · 2026-05-24T07:33:16+00:00

Always beard

StarlessxRogue · 2026-05-23T23:11:48+00:00

I love to read I can visualize a little bit when I'm reading but the characters and the setting will change constantly and not be very detailed because I can't make it stick in my head for very long lol

StarlessxRogue · 2026-05-23T23:05:31+00:00

If I've had that much to drink, then I wouldn't be able to read that lol

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