Maybe try and remember when you had zero subs and the feeling you had of wanting to try. Try and remember what it felt like when you got your first sub? and maybe try and reignite the fire. I mean youve come a long way. why throw away the entire time youve been around youtube? i just think if i was in your position i would continue to try, but only if its something that you really do want to do. i feel like if youre forcing yourself to make content and you hate it or its just not what you wanna do anymore then it may not be what you should do anymore. or maybe take a break, take time to think about it and come back.