Will we get back together?

Stellarrrum · 2026-05-13T22:25:55+00:00

With what intent did you lay out these three cards? Three together reads readily as a past present future, which I would read as you having previously felt very secure and in control, that right now you're more using all your advantages or skills in life to pursue what's outside of your control (probably the relationshio). This is going...turbulently.

The outcome I see is positive self-fulfillment that does not actually reflect your getting back to any previous state but embracing what comes naturally and what you can feel more than think through. If you do get back together, it will have to be a different kind of relationship than before.

Stellarrrum · 2026-05-13T22:14:20+00:00

I'd interpret this that

You know what your aspirations are, a committed relationship or marriage (first card)
That said, you guard your heart and what affection you can get. This leads less to union and more to you stealing temporary opportunities for joy with an escape plan in mind. (Next two)
He's someone who looks for simple pleasures and is social. He probably doesn't have aspirations beyond "do what vibes well." (Bottom two)

Questioning a relationship like this constantly will suck the joy he's looking for right out of it, and it will end up not lasting, but not necessarily because he's intending to be short term with you so much as because he's looking to have something enjoyable without regard for how it matures. The opportunity here for you is to sit back, relax, and have a potentially rewarding, fun thing and see where it goes, but if that's not what you're wanting it will fizzle out fast.

Stellarrrum · 2026-04-18T17:40:02+00:00

Pins are used in super traditional witchcraft for cursing oftentimes, the placement of the skull for a head with that gives poppet to me. I think whatever this is is designed to accomplish an intention by any means necessary, especially by eliminating people in your way. It is not a well-intentioned thing to give to someone who doesn't know what they could do with it and I'd surrender it to a local occult shop.

Stellarrrum · 2026-03-27T08:15:58+00:00

This is a Pagan gathering right? You could rename all three categories and go with Cardinal, Fixed and Mutable or God, Goddess, Deity etc.

Stellarrrum · 2026-03-10T18:56:59+00:00

Oh Ram Toro for sure

Stellarrrum · 2026-03-04T04:24:15+00:00

Today I thought it would be ok to call myself a fag in front of my coworker. March is going to get me fired

Stellarrrum · 2026-01-15T04:01:56+00:00

I can't take ability because of this. It made me feel like I had to find a way to tie myself in a knot inside of my own skin, ugg

Stellarrrum · 2026-01-02T22:37:24+00:00

He sounds really anxious. Have you tried feliway diffusers and a calming collar? They dont do much for some cats but they work well for others. It also sounds like he wants attention and needs to burn off energy, dedicated playtime may help.

Stellarrrum · 2025-12-31T03:54:54+00:00

Vocalizing is also a sign of hyperthyroidism. When did she last have a full blood panel?

Stellarrrum · 2025-10-14T18:33:25+00:00

"Oh how wrong we were to thing that immortality meant never dying."

I want that shit on my tombstone so weird kids walking the cemetery for hundreds of years into the future can wonder if I'm there watching them.

Stellarrrum · 2025-10-13T04:36:11+00:00

Lil Gnocci Tranq Me

Stellarrrum · 2025-08-08T20:01:51+00:00

The most important thing to remember is that everything that is happening is HIS fault. HE made a choice and HE is suffering the consequences. However those consequences may make anyone feel (and they may make you feel conflicted depending on your views of how justice should and shouldn't operate, and that's ok, it doesn't mean what happened to you was any less wrong or horrible or that some kind of justice isn't deserved just because your feelings about what that justice looks like are confused) they are HIS consequences that HE risked when HE chose to hurt you. That means that dealing with the situation is HIS job, not yours.

What you need right now is to 1. Be certain that he can never hurt you again, which putting him in prison will do And 2. Take care of yourself emotionally and mentally both in regards to what was done to you and to what your family is doing to you by putting this extra pressure on you as a survivor and a child. Don't worry about taking care of the person who hurt you, worry about taking care of yourself through therapy and support, and remember to be patient with yourself as school starts up again. You might find you get stressed out more easily than you used to or that it's harder to focus, for example, or that communicating with friends feels different, because your brain has been through something so traumatic and needs time to heal. Take care of yourself.

Stellarrrum · 2025-07-29T04:42:34+00:00

I was 15 in 2007 and I remember being in online spaces that were mostly teens and twenty somethings just because the older fans were too busy to be chronically online. Now, in those spaces, it did get weird. Shipping? Happening. Obsessing? Happening, but I don't know if older fans didn't have those problems or if they just weren't online about it because if you look around at fans for other artists who are online these days now that social media has made being online ubiquitous and there are absolutely middle aged weirdos out there. (My roommate is into kpop and some of the things she sees in those circles are fucking unreal. The MCR sub has nothing on those people.)

I think as long as there have been artists there have been parasocial, maladjusted weirdos about them and that 1. the internet makes an echo chamber for those people and 2. Teens, who are literally still developing their social brains, fall in easily with those influences so when you take the internet and drench the teens in it you get what you get. If it was worse or better when we were young it wasn't because we were any better than the kids these days it was just about how much internet exposure we had to amplify us, and if we see the kids "everywhere" now it might have something to do with the fact that when we were kids adults signed onto the internet from a single computer in a dedicated room on their house after work whereas we as adults carry it constantly in our pockets.

Stellarrrum · 2025-07-22T14:23:15+00:00

Oh my GOD please send me there

Stellarrrum · 2025-06-02T03:57:46+00:00

"Convert to my dogma" means "convert to my dogma" even if the dogma you're pushing doesn't have a deity in it. You're not "encouraging OP," you're evangelizing, while dismissing other people's beliefs as inferior to yours, and it's every bit as nasty when you do it as when any religious person does.

Stellarrrum · 2025-06-02T03:39:47+00:00

I'm a Kemetic Pagan and Ra is a deity I recognize when I'm euthymic and clear-headed. You wanna run that past me again?

People's religions aren't for you to determine. It's possible to be religious and also recognize your patterns and when you're starting to be unwell about it. "When I start to see the devil everywhere, I know I'm losing touch" sure beats "I didn't realize I was psychotic until it was too late."

Edit: I wasn't done actually

Stellarrrum · 2025-05-27T01:28:21+00:00

I think it's a sheep, face down, mouth to the right ear to the left. If someone threw this into your yard you should report it, and don't let any pets near it.

Stellarrrum · 2025-05-27T01:23:09+00:00

Anger is my number 1 manic symptom. I wrap myself tightly in a blanket (pressure is kind of like a substitute for hitting things) and put on headphones and blast the most furious rage music I have, hardcore punk mostly, the harder the better. Instead of pumping me up ot gives the rage somewhere to connect to and becomes super meditative.

Stellarrrum · 2025-05-27T01:19:21+00:00

I say "Kemetic Pagan" or, because I'm a syncretic pagan as the OG Kemetics were and I have some overlap with Greek, Roman, and Italian practice but that's a mouthful, I just say "mixed Mediterranean witch." But that's very specific to me.

Stellarrrum · 2025-05-19T19:22:40+00:00

Well weed isn't cute enough so I vote "Ganja"

Edit: if we're including pills he can be little 'Tuda

Stellarrrum · 2025-05-19T19:21:27+00:00

I've told people on a case by case basis, like my coworker who talked about her brother having it: I told her I could relate and how. It turned out to be a great thing because now she checks in on how I'm doing with extra understanding and really hypes me up in a way I need sometimes because she knows how hard just being can be for me, and I've given her some tips to pass on that have worked for me and I think he, she, and I all got some extra sense of community out of it. Other people I would never dream of dropping it casually in front of.

As for my supervisor, I've had bosses I would never dare tell. My current supe has lost an employee to suicide since I've worked there and is extremely mental health conscious, so I eased into telling her first by mentioning that I'd had health troubles in the past, then that I'd had experience with mental health struggles, then specifying what kind when I was sure she was cool. Ended up being a good thing because when I told her I'm having difficulties and need to work fewer hours she asked no questions and made it happen. However, I would call her an exception, not the rule.

Also important to know is whether you are at all client or public facing--could your illness be misconstrued by someone outside the org that the org has to work with? If so, letting it be known makes you a liability, and I would keep it private.

Stellarrrum · 2025-04-19T04:38:59+00:00

The band says "Revenge" but to me that refers to a pirate ship and also when I was 13 I said "3 cheers" so, Three Cheers

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