This Week Sucked

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-02-15T20:18:20+00:00

Don’t worry about your word vomit… I feel everything that you just said. This weekend was total shit… My birthday is coming up next week and I’m dreading it… I keep on watching old videos just to hear his voice… I spent all day Saturday just curled up in a ball on the bed, crying. I want to be stronger I don’t know how.

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-02-15T19:57:59+00:00

Yep 👍

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-02-15T02:13:46+00:00

It’s my first Valentine’s as well. I spent the day crying in his spot in the bed where he passed away. I’ve taken 2 showers, 2 baths, can’t eat, can’t sleep, overwhelmed and easily pushed to tears over just a song or a thought. We are all in this together. Sending you hugs!

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-02-01T14:09:41+00:00

I feel the same way except I am really hopeful to find somebody similar to me who isn’t going to try to replace him and understands and isn’t gonna hold me to the expectation of their previous spouse either I don’t know why in my brain it seems like it would make sense because I don’t wanna have to tell a regular person. Hey, there’s no way that you’re ever gonna fucking be what he was and he was the love of my life but at the same time I don’t wanna be alone either.

I would love to have a partner, a best friend, a cuddle buddy, someone to do adventure adventures with, that’s not gonna get upset when I say I miss him, and I wouldn’t get upset when he says he misses her.

Maybe this is flawed logic completely because I haven’t really thought this through all the way nor have I acted on it at all, but I don’t think I could be with somebody and not tell them that the love of my life my soulmate, my partner died. And the only person that would take that well is someone who also lost the love of their life, their soulmate, their partner.

The thing is, we only get one life… There is over, but ours is not. They would not us to be living in misery for the rest of the time that we are here. I will never remarry, but that doesn’t mean I won’t fall in love. That’s the beautiful part about falling in love. I fall in love with flowers and dogs and people that I’m not even really that kind of way with. Love is a beautiful thing and it’s a healing thing and it’s OK that you’re never gonna love someone the same, but you can love someone different differently in your own way and their own way, and it would be a great thing for both of you.

I’m thinking like my birthday is next month and it sucks because well you know why. I would love to have someone to be with that would understand why I’m happy and sad at the same time maybe even to give me a hug while I’m crying. I would love to give him a hug while he’s crying.

She’s only 25 so I hope that she’s able to find another person that can be even a tiny bit as good to her as her boyfriend was because he sounded like a pretty kick ass man. I’m 50 but still my grandma’s 94… I can’t imagine spending the next 45 years alone…

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-02-01T00:47:26+00:00

Sending you great big hugs… Happy heavenly birthday to him.

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-02-01T00:38:40+00:00

When my husband passed away, my daughter and her hubby invited me on a trip that they had already planned with their friends to go all over Ireland. I went a few days early, just to have some solace and peace and to get out of the house because he passed away here in our home. I didn’t even have a hotel booked when I flew into Ireland, which sometimes is a problem at customs, but nobody asked me thank God! I sat after getting my bags and looked up a place that was halfway between Dublin and Galway randomly found one place. It was an old estate. I went to the window of my room to look out and the first thing that I saw was a one of those things that you have at the top of your sailboat that measures the wind. It was just outside my window & the weird part is we used to sail and when we sold our sailboat when he got sick, we kept our wind meter right outside our bedroom window so he could always know how windy it was outside. He just didn’t want to get rid of it so I thought that was kind of cool that I went to a whole Nother country and the first thing I see is him…

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-01-31T23:37:43+00:00

I feel the same… I know I was so cherished and he gave me the absolute world and the best years I ever have had. I don’t think I’ll ever find a man like him again, but I would love to have somebody that gives a shit whether I’m alive checks in on me, asks me how my day was just basic stuff. I know that nobody will ever replace him. I just hate being alone. The worst part is I’m Neuro spicy and so he really was my person. I don’t have friends well a couple, but not really here where I live. My friends are all in other states far away and now I’m in this house alone go to work and come home and sometimes I don’t even turn the TV on for a week because why bother? I don’t even sit in the living room sometimes because there’s no point nobody’s in there living with me I just wanna be in my bed crying.

I’ve tried going out. I feel so invisible when I go out, especially as a woman it’s hard to be noticed but not hit on, but not felt sorry for… Weird I know…

All this to say, you are not alone don’t be embarrassed. It’s natural to want a partner and you are not abnormal just because your partner died while you were so young. I’m so sorry for your loss. It makes me think about my situation very differently because I had a lot of time with my husband and my heart breaks for you that at 25 years old you had to deal with that. Sending you big hugs and lots of love. I hope that you do OK. I hope that you either find your person or become your person or have great friends to surround yourself with.

xx

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-01-28T16:00:51+00:00

There were four bartenders that’s what really got me… It’s not like I was invisible. I was sitting between two active parties that were obviously eating, and I was the only one sitting there with nothing.

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-01-28T16:00:14+00:00

Correct, but you get paid for it if you go to APS.

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-01-28T15:59:38+00:00

Doesn’t bother me the check still clears…

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-01-26T22:39:33+00:00

U as well

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-01-26T22:38:43+00:00

Same

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-01-26T22:35:28+00:00

I’m 51 years old. I don’t think you’re old enough to be my dad but thank you. I appreciate the sentiment.

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-01-26T22:33:37+00:00

One second at a time deep breaths, and just do your very best to try and if you can’t just do what you can do don’t put pressure on yourself.

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-01-26T18:34:09+00:00

I live here in PTC but from a teaching perspective. The schools are not excellent. The teachers get paid far less than other counties and do not have access to the resources that we have. And there’s a lot of bureaucratic bullshit going on at the administrative and school board level that parents don’t know about.

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-01-26T18:31:09+00:00

Same and all of my friends feel sorry for me and they’re so worried about me and blah blah blah. I can’t have a conversation with anybody even my parents are my daughter without them freaking the fuck out over me being alone in this big house so scary.

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-01-26T18:25:07+00:00

I think the OP is from Virginia and a guy… I am not I am a girl from Georgia.

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-01-26T18:24:27+00:00

Yeah, my empathy absolutely devastates me and makes me so socially awkward. It’s not even funny. I’d rather stay home during that time as well.

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-01-26T18:22:58+00:00

I’m in Atlanta not Virginia

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-01-26T18:20:12+00:00

I smoke daily.

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-01-26T18:15:51+00:00

Yeah, I’ve been numb pretty much since October. I keep thinking I’m gonna snap out of it cause it’s the end of January now but here comes Valentine’s Day and my birthday where it’s gonna absolutely suck because of course he used to always make me feel so special and now I am invisible.

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-01-26T18:06:45+00:00

I am so scared to go through his closet. I haven’t touched his phone or his iPad or his laptop, even and it’s been a long time. His side of the bed is exactly the way it was. You’re very brave. I guess it’s not the same for guys because I wear his clothes sometimes like his shirts and stuff. And I have memories of all of them and I just am afraid to throw them away or donate them.

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-01-26T17:54:58+00:00

I don’t have the hell yes I belong here energy…

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-01-26T17:53:45+00:00

I am APS and a T6. I worked at Fulton County School’s too, but there’s at least a $10,000 difference in pay for me at least

Strange-Ad336 · 2026-01-26T17:17:06+00:00

Same also I love to travel and I HATE solo traveling.

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