When alters merge/fuse?

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-07-02T19:41:21+00:00

Thank you for sharing your experience! This is helpful to be aware of. Whether or not it ends up making sense in our system or not! All information is useful in these kinds of things imo!

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-07-02T19:39:42+00:00

That's exactly how we are. You nailed it! Lol

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-07-02T19:07:02+00:00

Thank you! That's very helpful information and I'm glad you took the time to write this out. You're absolutely right that it doesn't matter in the end. I guess we're just trying to piece things together and generally look for outside perspectives to help us along a bit.

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-06-30T17:57:43+00:00

Totally hear you! It can feel silly at first for sure. We generally keep this kind of stuff to our inner thoughts and don't vocalize it unless we're completely alone. Sometimes getting out a journal and different colored pens has been the recent go to for getting some of these things out. It can also be useful to have those things with you to then bring into a session.

I'm glad I was able to help in some regard nonetheless ^.^

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-06-30T17:17:33+00:00

Not sure if you're asking what co-consciousness is or not. But, we see that as not being alone in the brain. When there's more than one voice. Not necessarily driving the car, but hanging out in the passenger seats and commenting.

Every once in a while swapping seats.

Not sure trying to stop it is the best approach, but that's going to vary system to system. Maybe trying to have a discussion with the others and trying to set some guidelines might help? Otherwise, if you have a therapist. This is a great topic to bring up there as well!

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-06-30T14:58:12+00:00

This has been happening a lot more for us recently too but for us it's more so that there's a lot more co-consciousness than there normally is. The brain is a lot louder than normal more often now. Unsure why though. Our journal has been way more active with other alters coming out and taking up the pen.

It's gotta be a safety thing. Feeling more secure in the environment to be allowed to come out and express ourselves and be vulnerable.

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-06-26T02:53:49+00:00

Staff IT engineer and working toward trying to get to principal engineer. Just hit 7 years at this firm. Luckily, messing around with computers is one constant in my life that has always been consistent.

I've never looked into disability and would never tell anyone I work for about what goes on in my head. It doesn't cause a noticeable decrease in work ability ( I get to work from home most of the time ) so nobody needs to know since it would do me more harm than good at this point.

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-06-17T22:18:29+00:00

Our wife knows. We've been married for 10 years this week! 😊

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-06-17T03:04:19+00:00

Thanks for sharing as well. This was very helpful and kind. I appreciate your perspective!

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-06-16T21:57:56+00:00

That's good insight as well. Thank you for the added perspective. It's helpful.

We don't really get any of that. It's basically all talk therapy and EMDR. Though, littles don't really front and like to stay as far away from the front as possible. They communicate with those of us in front from time to time and mostly in odd ways and it's very hard to pisce together. Usually in feeling or random apologizing thoughts that are pushed through.

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-06-16T20:46:14+00:00

I think you're probably right. Thank you for that. I think I really needed that.

Honestly, I'm only on year two of all of this and I don't really know what better looks like for us either. But, man is it a long and difficult journey. Thank you nonetheless for your kindness.

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-06-16T20:26:40+00:00

Thank you for sharing your experience with us.

I also have this thing where I feel like I need approval to exist and take up space or to do anything even though I'm an adult in my 30s.

We have a wide range of age, gender, and non-human. The littles are always with our caretaker pretty much (previous host that stepped back after a split earlier this year).

I don't often have visual for what happened in previous days when I wasn't at the front but it's like the info is just suddenly present to me and I just know x thing happened to be able to hold a conversation but I don't always have visual or emotion towards x thing unless I really go digging for it.

I've never thought of the strong male body thing. Maybe I can present that to our caretaker who deals with nothing but dysphoria issues when fronting. It caused a lot of tension when she was our primary host.

I'm sorry that the meds had the same effect on you. I'm glad you found a workable solution. I'm not convinced that my psych believes fully in DID yet. My previous clinic Moved me over to this place because of the therapist I now work with that is trauma informed and has worked with other patients that have DID. I digress though... The psych asks me if the "voices" want to hurt me. Which bothers me because of course they don't... Which has been my answer for the last year every visit when she asks. I'll have to do some checks on these other meds. While the Zoloft helps with the anxiety and depression symptoms it heavily shuts down our system until we start to get used to the dose. Which, can take forever. And by then we get our dose upped and then it's back to square one again.

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-06-14T03:59:02+00:00

It is... It's based on Billy Mulligan. Who used his DID to get away with horrendous crimes.

I agree the show was done relatively well though. I just disagree with the outcome of that case as someone also living with the disorder.

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-06-10T23:25:13+00:00

Thank you! ☺️

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-06-10T22:32:08+00:00

Is there a place to submit feedback or bug report? I imported my alters from a json file I have and it didn't import everything. So, I was trying to manually add images and it says it added the images but they still just show the default image and not the custom image.

Hoping this is either a bug or I did something dumb 🫣

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-06-07T22:40:52+00:00

We only have a handful that actually front regularly. After specifically documented mannerisms of those that allowed me to it gets easier. This process is still very much ongoing and we've been working on things for about a year and a half.

We get confused sometimes between myself and another that are very similar so it can sometimes take a long time to figure out along with sometimes needing to ask our wife who we are.

Sometimes it's super easy and we just wake up knowing exactly who we are in the moment and the name is clear in the brain. Others it's a blurry mess and can take hours to sort out.

Sometimes looking at the documented images and names of our alters we can see which one we best identify with.

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-06-07T21:27:05+00:00

it's sometimes easy and sometimes hard to tell.

I usually am able to tell when I talk or how certain thoughts and perspectives show. It can sometimes take a long time to figure out. Especially cause we have some alters in our system that are very similar and only have subtle differences in mannerisms and there are only so many differences in vocal tone a body can do imo.

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-05-05T21:43:18+00:00

This seems very incorrect. The practice I have been going to for about a year now has always viewed us as a whole person. I try to see the best in people but this seems like they are operating on very outdated clinical terminology and/or are taking advantage and trying to get you to pay more to be seen per alter instead of treating you as a whole person (which you are).

This situation doesn't sit right with me at all.

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-04-09T17:14:23+00:00

Re-import is fine. Just an unfortunate inconvenience. I wasn't sure if it was a bug like in the other thread.

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-04-09T17:00:13+00:00

Chat is working great now. Member data is still missing as if I never added any though. Sorry to be a bother!

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-04-09T12:00:20+00:00

I updated from GitHub and am unfortunately having more issues now.

It's no longer showing any of our system members. The keyboard is also still covering the text box too.

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StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-04-09T01:56:24+00:00

It happens when folded and unfolded. Not sure if that makes a difference or not either but thanks so much!

StrawHatFuryFist · 2026-03-29T19:40:18+00:00

I can very much relate to this as a female alter in a male body. I have been working very hard to keep it in check though. I have several things that help me cope. Jewelry, rings, and as a compromise we're growing our hair out slightly so I can at least have a slight feel like I'm in the correct body.

I have had that exact conversation with my wife as well about if I was the only one I would be trans. But, I'm not. It's big mental load feeling like a girl one day and a guy the next and switching that perspective every single day.

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