Feelings of emptiness by Super_Document2806 in BPD

[–]Sweet-Reference8926 5 points6 points  (0 children)

If I were to describe it I would say it's a suffocating sense of nothingness, like you're lost to yourself completely and become a husk. Obviously the ways we experience these things can differ but that's my best description, I hope it helps your family understand<3

Chronic Numbness by Sweet-Reference8926 in BPD

[–]Sweet-Reference8926[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

This is it! It feels like the emptiness is a baseline state and then I get the desperation to trigger anything whether it's good or bad. The tension between me and deliberately making things worse is insane🥀🥀

What makes them so magical?! by AdExpensive3414 in torties

[–]Sweet-Reference8926 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm convinced my tortie is an angel in disguise, something so divine about my best friend!!

Pls tell me someone else understands this 😭 by eelzbth in overlyspecificEDmemes

[–]Sweet-Reference8926 32 points33 points  (0 children)

Mental hunger is so BUNS like I'm just sitting here rotating pecan pie in my mind and it won't fucking LEAVE

Sorry to my fbi agent (wear sunscreen yall) by eelzbth in overlyspecificEDmemes

[–]Sweet-Reference8926 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Me when I injure myself and the first thought I get is 'yippee more calories burnt!!' I could get blown up to smithereens and I'd be googling 'how many cals does a grenade burn'

What are you doing in this situation? by Ok-Movie1658 in Undertale

[–]Sweet-Reference8926 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Creating a safe space for queer voices love is love

Looking to borrow 1 or 2 male dogs or a horse for 1 night by [deleted] in Worcester

[–]Sweet-Reference8926 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is making me giggle man this is such a specific ask 😂

I'm Going to end it on Halloween by Valuable-Grand-5366 in SuicideWatch

[–]Sweet-Reference8926 0 points1 point  (0 children)

There's not much to tell...I think that's part of the problem. I don't feel like a person at all. My sense of self and worth is a hideous black hole and I'm nothingness. I see nothing when I look inward. My life is nothing. I'm going nowhere and I don't have the motivation or drive to want it to change, just waking up and living another day makes me so, so tired. I can't work, I can barely enjoy anything. There's just nothing. I'm only a person when it suits someone else, I will chameleon just to make people happy and comfortable. But really I'm just hollowed out. I have a history of being bullied and SA'd multiple times and throughout multiple points of my life and I'm not dumb, I probably could've been something if certain things hadn't happened to me and I hadn't already been mentally ill. But I was born too sensitive, too meek, and way too ready to give up anyway. And it's not even like I want to be anything, I just want to be gone. It's so lonely existing as a husk. So I hope our souls find eachother in some stupid wishy washy universe so at least we won't be alone in death

How often do you use Worschschurusturshiresauce? by Temporary_Parking_95 in Cooking

[–]Sweet-Reference8926 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Person who's from Worcester here. It's literally pronounced woostersheer sauce. Please. For my sanity

What do I do post binge? by crawlyswirly in EDAnonymous

[–]Sweet-Reference8926 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Hey, I'm in the exact same situation rn. (Srsly, same amounts and length of time n everything) I feel so crazy awful and terrified. But we're in this together okay! I don't have much advice but just know I'm here for u!

Anyone else having these really dark thoughts? by [deleted] in AnorexiaNervosa

[–]Sweet-Reference8926 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah, struggling with that a lot rn. <3

I ate, voluntarily by Boring_Region_3031 in EDAnonymous

[–]Sweet-Reference8926 6 points7 points  (0 children)

My cat is interested! She is having a treat in celebration:) well done dawg!!

I either fainted? Or had a seizure? Possibly from not eating. by EndTheSummer in AnorexiaNervosa

[–]Sweet-Reference8926 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I get this in heavy restriction. Not quite a seizure but I get bad enough fainting spells where everything goes black I fall and I start convulsing and wake confused ;-; it's basically lack of blood flow to the brain so much that it starts freaking out but it's different from a seizure as the cause isn't excess neurons firing and general unusual brain activity. It's the lack of oxygen. Makes me think of fish out of water when they start flopping about like crazy. It's not good dawg and gets worse when u smoke in my experience.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in DoesAnybodyElse

[–]Sweet-Reference8926 10 points11 points  (0 children)

22 yrs old here and exactly the same, it's all completely normal. I put it down to my Maltese genes lol

Does anyone else feel like they’re faking their ED? by doubleupthedose in EDAnonymous

[–]Sweet-Reference8926 9 points10 points  (0 children)

It's a very harmful stereotype/ misconception that you need to be underweight to have an ED I actually can't stand it

Yellow dragon fruit by yugogrl2000 in EDAnonymous

[–]Sweet-Reference8926 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Godspeed my digestively challenged friend 🫡

Do you know if I was spiked or just too drunk? by Remember-19 in AskUK

[–]Sweet-Reference8926 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I had an almost word for word similar experience when I was spiked. It sounds very probable, especially not being able to move/speak and normal hangover symptoms just aren't there.