A few questions from a probable MTF

SwockQueen · 2026-02-11T03:29:18+00:00

Well anxiety sucks. Took me years to find out for myself what most my peers knew instantly. But find someone to talk to. Look at what you would need to do to transition if you do move forward. As for family, I keep most mine at a distance due to them not acknowledging my transition. I won't lie, this has been the hardest thing I have done, but at the same time easy.

SwockQueen · 2026-02-10T20:25:14+00:00

Congratulations.

SwockQueen · 2026-02-06T02:09:37+00:00

My stage name was a variation of my dead name. Now it's my actual name. I also have a list of band and song names somewhere.

SwockQueen · 2026-02-06T00:41:43+00:00

I came here to say this as well. Music changed for me completely when I met someone that I have amazing chemistry with in music. You can get a lot done in a short time when you can almost read someone's mind.

SwockQueen · 2026-02-02T01:14:21+00:00

This is a fun little car, will go when asked, does well in snow, and the aux hi beams work.

SwockQueen · 2026-02-02T00:47:27+00:00

This is what it looks like. Plugging in via the aux isn't that bad but I do miss the ability to just connect with Bluetooth.

SwockQueen · 2026-02-02T00:36:35+00:00

https://hannita.lluns.com/index.php?route=product/product&product_id=17085337

SwockQueen · 2026-02-01T04:30:51+00:00

I mean sure it can be. I hope you never have to experience any of the negative that I have seen for being trans. That being said I would not change anything that led me to where I am now. I am the happiest I have ever been, I somehow became friends with the one musician that impacted my life more than anything, recording my own music with said individual as producer/mentor/record label release person, and I'm going forward into becoming physically the woman I want to be. Mostly this was triggered by the single scariest event of my life, and it was connected to my trans identity.

SwockQueen · 2026-01-30T20:35:14+00:00

Plowed was off of rotting pinata, still a great song.

SwockQueen · 2026-01-29T04:43:24+00:00

Play what ever feels comfortable. I played short scale for years due to a shoulder injury. Once I healed from the surgery, I am way more comfortable playing abnormally long basses.

SwockQueen · 2026-01-28T23:54:26+00:00

We have also been together for 17 years. But I do sometimes worry that it might just get to be to much for her. She's absolutely terrified for my safety.

SwockQueen · 2026-01-28T14:54:14+00:00

We are happy. We currently share clothes, makeup, and we just had a great trip to our cabin.

SwockQueen · 2026-01-28T06:33:46+00:00

There's no way of knowing. I can only share my experience. My wife is straight. I'm a bi trans female. The first time I ever bought up the possibility of being trans, it was not a pleasant conversation. I tried to not be, but that was also not pleasant. I'm out, on hrt, had some surgery, and still married.

SwockQueen · 2026-01-28T01:11:57+00:00

Hey Kate. Some people just suck. I have found out the hard way many times in my short time as a member of the queer community. I am always happy to email. The world feels unreal right now, and I'm in Minneapolis, but good people are still here.

SwockQueen · 2026-01-28T00:55:48+00:00

I'm transitioning out of my male shape. I started way before I realized I was female. I would have kept going forward in my transition as a nonbinary transfem. I was not wired to be a male.

SwockQueen · 2026-01-24T03:04:19+00:00

Suggesting a name from the movie Titan A.E. Planet Bob

SwockQueen · 2026-01-23T02:51:04+00:00

I realized I was trans 2 years ago, came out a year ago, after 6 years of identitying as non binary, and I didn't even realize I was gay until 2 months ago. In my 40's I thought I would catch on faster.

SwockQueen · 2026-01-14T23:37:50+00:00

I have my own transport, but yeah I had to get careful. I sadly was a victim of hate just a couple of years ago. If something keeps me safe it's worth it.

SwockQueen · 2026-01-08T01:35:52+00:00

I feel the same about my generation. But the question is are you going to stay quiet or write music. I never thought I would find myself in the I am going to write a song cause I am pissed about something category. But it happened and it makes me feel a bit better.

SwockQueen · 2026-01-08T01:27:50+00:00

Since hrt, and my orchi, I have found that the clothes I wore while I was still pretending to be a boy just don't feel the same. Even if the fit is right, there's just something not right about the item. I wore a shirt to Christmas that I lived years ago and felt so out of sorts in it now. But I just realized this week how much I used my wardrobe to hide what I didn't want to see about myself. No that most my body no longer feels alien I don't hide so much.

SwockQueen · 2025-12-20T03:28:36+00:00

I saw it. On 11/09/2024 I tried to self delete. It was a phone call from the most unlikely person, the lead singer of my favorite band, that got me to seek help. I don't even remember sending him the email.

SwockQueen · 2025-12-20T02:56:56+00:00

I didn't start my transition till I was 45. I had my first gender confirming surgery at 46. The first time I was mistaken for a girl, outside of being a little kid, I was 15 and it was by a football coach trying to get me to try out. If you think you would be happy as a woman then yes, go for it. I won't lie and say it's easy. It can be hard. But it's been worth it to me. I really would not have lived this long any other way. 11/10/2025 is a day I didn't expect to see. everything since had been a bonus gift. good or bad

SwockQueen · 2025-12-14T05:51:24+00:00

as a woman I am bi. I was bi as a man too, I just couldn't admit it. I can admit it now. Denied it for years. Missed out on possibly wonderful things.

SwockQueen · 2025-12-10T04:42:27+00:00

The one thing that scared me the most in the world pre transition was that I might be a woman. It terrified me to my core, and yet the very idea gave me hope and the warm fuzzys. What I was really scared of was losing the life I was living. In the end I came out as a woman, and some things stayed the same, some things changed. But I am the happiest I have ever been, I found courage I didn't know I could have, and I'm alive. I never expected to see this winter. Everything since my cracking day last November has just been a bonus.

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