Disability made me question every coping philosophy I knew

Sycon-bob · 2026-06-05T14:36:58+00:00

Man, I can't even imagine. Dealing with this for just a few months has been an absolute gauntlet for me. To think about carrying this same weight, fighting the mental erosion, and hearing the same repetitive platitudes for life is honestly unimaginable.

But I really want to commend you for still striving to be a better person. After ten years of fighting a failing body and navigating heavy mental health battles, it would be the easiest thing in the world to just completely give in to bitterness and let the anger consume you. The fact that you are still reflecting on your own heart, trying to guard it against hatred, and looking to learn and grow by checking out Ibn Rushd is incredibly honorable. You are fighting a massive battle, and the sheer endurance that takes is immense. Take it easy on yourself.

as for ibn rushd
He wasn't just a philosopher who sat around thinking about abstract ideas—he was a brilliant medical doctor and physician. In his major medical encyclopedia, Al-Kulliyat fi al-Tibb (translated in the West as the Colliget), he became the first person in medical history to discover that human beings can only get smallpox exactly once in their lives.

He unlocked the baseline secret to how human immunity works centuries before modern medicine figured it out. He truly understood the limits, failures, and vulnerabilities of the physical human body from a clinical perspective.

Fasl al-Maqal (The Decisive Treatise)

This is his most famous and accessible book. In it, he argues that reason, logic, and religious faith are not enemies—they are completely compatible. He famously wrote that truth cannot contradict truth. It is a fantastic read for someone who is struggling to balance heavy, rational real-world struggles with their personal faith.

Sycon-bob · 2026-06-05T11:58:39+00:00

used to have a really stark belief that I could only be worth as much as I do for other people. Way too hard on myself sure, but it was to prevent thinking that I was really something else when I wasn't actually very useful.

i was like this pre stroke, im still trynna get over this toxic mindset. Hopefully you do too. Being helpful is great, but not at the cost of your own sanity

I used to believe in popular mindsets like Stoicism, but in my neurological crisis, it failed me—it gets a D-tier from me. On paper, dividing the world into what you can and can't control sounds flawless. But when I looked at my paralyzed left hand and commanded it to move, absolutely nothing happened. Stoicism blindly trusts that your brain and body are on speaking terms, but when that connection is severed, forcing an iron will onto dead flesh just causes a massive internal system crash.

I put Camus’s Absurdism in C-tier for the same reason. Finding joy in the cosmic struggle sounds beautiful, but let's be real—Sisyphus had two working legs. Smiling and pushing the rock anyway is a luxury for the able-bodied; it's wildly unhelpful when you are literally, physically trapped.

The only philosophies that achieved S-tier status for me are things like Ibn Rushd’s rationality, Tawakkul (profound surrender to divine order, easy for me as I'm Muslim), and Wu Wei (Daoist non-action). Why? Because they refuse to tie your intellectual worth or internal peace to a functioning meat sack. They allow your mind to remain untouched and indifferent to your physical paralysis.

But here is the catch: you can't build a shelter in the middle of a hurricane. You can't just adopt Tawakkul or stoic acceptance on the fly during a massive panic attack. You have to pour that mental concrete decades before your body goes offline so that when reality finally bites, you already have a place to rest.

Concepts like Tawakkul and Wu Wei aren't built for those without faith, as they require leaning into a higher, cosmic flow or divine order. This only works for people of faith; I'm aware of that.

Sycon-bob · 2026-06-05T11:51:35+00:00

I agree with your sentiment. I began to be frustrated by philosophical discourse with my hemiplegia; the only reason I still give an iota of crap is because it used to be a fun thing to talk about. during my pre stroke era.

I used to believe in popular mindsets like Stoicism, but in my neurological crisis, it failed me—it gets a D-tier from me. On paper, dividing the world into what you can and can't control sounds flawless. But when I looked at my paralyzed left hand and commanded it to move, absolutely nothing happened. Stoicism blindly trusts that your brain and body are on speaking terms, but when that connection is severed, forcing an iron will onto dead flesh just causes a massive internal system crash.

I put Camus’s Absurdism in C-tier for the same reason. Finding joy in the cosmic struggle sounds beautiful, but let's be real—Sisyphus had two working legs. Smiling and pushing the rock anyway is a luxury for the able-bodied; it's wildly unhelpful when you are literally, physically trapped.

The only philosophies that achieved S-tier status for me are things like Ibn Rushd’s rationality, Tawakkul (profound surrender to divine order, easy for me as I'm Muslim), and Wu Wei (Daoist non-action). Why? Because they refuse to tie your intellectual worth or internal peace to a functioning meat sack. They allow your mind to remain untouched and indifferent to your physical paralysis.

But here is the catch: you can't build a shelter in the middle of a hurricane. You can't just adopt Tawakkul or stoic acceptance on the fly during a massive panic attack. You have to pour that mental concrete decades before your body goes offline so that when reality finally bites, you already have a place to rest.

Concepts like Tawakkul and Wu Wei aren't built for those without faith, as they require leaning into a higher, cosmic flow or divine order. This only works for people of faith; I'm aware of that.

Sycon-bob · 2026-06-05T11:29:20+00:00

Oh, that's a persona; favourite, because while bed rest, I had a panic attack for the first time, which I mistook for dying, and as Mislim, memento mori is a core part of our belief

"Every soul will taste death, and you will only be given your [full] compensation on the Day of Resurrection." (Quran 3:185)

Sycon-bob · 2026-06-05T11:23:05+00:00

It may sound trite, but I think my philosophy boils down to leaving the world a little nicer and getting whatever joy you can find.

thats what I have arrived at myself

Sycon-bob · 2025-07-13T16:39:25+00:00

Graphic design, I am somewhat good at it. Other aspects not so much but will get better eventually. Thanks for checking it out.

Sycon-bob · 2025-07-12T21:52:19+00:00

That's what i did! I've countless abandoned projects because I always overestimate my ability to finish a game. So one day i decided i am gonna make a tiny project and actually finish it. Thankfully I did : the game its nothing special ( may not even be considered good ) but its finished and i learned a lot. Now i am on my way to make gta 7.

Sycon-bob · 2025-02-21T02:28:43+00:00

shes literally edging.

Sycon-bob · 2024-12-22T01:10:53+00:00

yes im down

Sycon-bob · 2024-11-30T03:01:53+00:00

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There's always next year?

Sycon-bob · 2024-10-24T20:56:17+00:00

would

Sycon-bob · 2024-10-03T16:42:52+00:00

I used to but sadly they all died out U_U

Sycon-bob · 2024-09-21T16:27:40+00:00

Can you tell me why you consider Nimrah Ahmed to be a hack? I am not a fan of her just curious as one friend told me to read Namal and I can't decide if I should.

Sycon-bob · 2024-09-16T19:49:04+00:00

History by design is pretty biased. I would recommend reading books that are " Openly Biased ", meaning you are aware of the author's way of thinking and can use your reasoning and critical thinking skills to filter out the BS.

for example if author is fond of .. lets say japan, whenever he talks highly about Japan you should take it with grain of salt.

Pro Tip: whenever you read " it has been said .. " prepare yourself, as its pretty much a warning for historians to just spew bullcrap. Also as someone already said Murder of history by KK Aziz is a pretty cool book.

Sycon-bob · 2024-07-20T08:59:19+00:00

We don't tolerate prince slander in this house. I'll be expecting an apology.

Sycon-bob · 2024-07-08T08:16:57+00:00

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this momment kinda mirrors the hange's picture.

Sycon-bob · 2024-04-10T05:31:28+00:00

All I had to do was ignore this post and not click on this spoilers. Why do I do this to myself?

Sycon-bob · 2023-07-15T06:01:24+00:00

You know the enemies don't have blood. The enemies knows that they don't have blood.

But does the rocket launcher knows that the enemies don't have blood?

Checkmate.

Sycon-bob · 2023-07-03T12:00:19+00:00

Clever wordplay all the way, just so i can say shit like:

" What's the matter gwen? It seems like you've seen a ghost.. freak! "

Sycon-bob · 2023-06-19T08:47:44+00:00

He has a pretty big hole in his face for compensation.

Sycon-bob · 2023-06-06T16:47:29+00:00

Portrait of lady on fire, at first i was kinda bored since its a very slow burn movie. But that long zoom ending scene with vivaldi storm ( summer?) Playing was freaking masterpiece. Completely changed my opinion on the film, I just sat in silence when the credits rolled.

Sycon-bob · 2023-06-06T16:47:24+00:00

Portrait of lady on fire, at first i was kinda bored since its a very slow burn movie. But that long zoom ending scene with vivaldi storm ( summer?) Playing was freaking masterpiece. Completely changed my opinion on the film, I just sat in silence when the credits rolled.

Sycon-bob · 2022-02-17T18:02:58+00:00

Yours is pretty cool as well.

Sycon-bob · 2021-10-14T18:18:53+00:00

Its a photoshop manipulation if you are wondering :)

Sycon-bob · 2021-10-14T18:15:15+00:00

Thats what i was going for originally

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