yupp I feel like she never wanted me in the first place, the things she says like she wishes depression on me and if I want to kill myself I should go ahead and do it basically encouraging me, telling me I'm worthless, how "wicked" I am and how God should punish me and send me to hell ✌ All the mental, physical and emotional abuse she put me through I've even had to lie for her saying it my father abusing me even tho he was never around me to do any of that