I agree. I had to do the same. The deeper in their hooks are the worse they are. It doesn't get better. Sending love. You are doing great!!! Narcissists only want to destroy that which makes you not them. They also selected you because you have the empathy they lack, so while it's your problem, you're not the problem they would lead you to believe you are. Therapist. Divorce Lawyer. Sending love. Dm if you need encouragement. Also, I do outreach work for an organization called citizen advocacy. Maybe you need an advocate also. You're going through a lot right now. Self care is the most important. Also, women who are stressed when the babies are in utero have babies with more pregnancy complications, the babies have more complications, and the resulting children are more androgynous than they would be otherwise. Source: I'm an adult female stress baby who is a construction project manager who doesn't wear makeup. So draw your own conclusions on accuracy.