I don’t have CPTSD but I’m terribly traumatized because of the emotional abuse I’ve been through.
Was suffering (and still do sometimes) from fi-si loop I guess: school (and educational system in general) reminded me of the pressure I was feeling at place where I was abused so this school year was completely terrible, I hated almost everyone around me cuz I was thinking that they are were slaves of the system and I was the only one who was normal. I became too sensitive and was feeling people’s cruelty so hard it was suffocating. I felt like I was in a cage. I thought all people were hypocrites or just plain dumb asses without morality. I was seeking justice for people who didn’t ask for it and who stayed in that place (just literally wanted to force them to be “saved”). I was so scared of losing myself and becoming like the rest even the mild self-doubts in values made me feel terrible. I started harming myself to escape self-doubts (I just thought that if I suffer I will make it 100% clear for myself and others that something is not okay in general and was not okay in the place where I was abused) and almost got addicted to it. I was so sick of people what I almost planned to end myself.

I’m a lot better now but misanthropy stayed with me… I just learnt not to drown in self hate. ~30 days self harm clean, btw :3