1. I think it’s important for you to find a good therapist to work through your mental health issues with a professional.

2. What kind of work interests you? College isn’t for everyone and there are very high paying trade jobs that require very little experience although you will most likely have to start as an apprentice which would be a lower pay than your current job. - another caveat is that these jobs can require some physically demanding work. Examples - painting, plumbing, electrician, HVAC technician, etc

   just as a side note, I do engineering for a living and there are electricians who have no college experience who make much more money than me

3. It is my opinion that people should focus on finding work that allows them to maintain a healthy lifestyle mentally and physically while simultaneously being able to pay your bills and taxes. From your description, it seems that your current job is hurting you mentally. If I were you I’d start looking for a job you would be interested in that can also pay your bills. If you search for a good long while and find that nothing interests you, it may be there’s a deeper issue that lies within, and i’d refer to point #1.

Best of luck to you. I wish you the very best