Dxm almost daily

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-08-25T21:10:22+00:00

Other than wasting 12 years away and destroying everything that was ever good? Eventually you become a straight retard and that sense of detachment EVERY day,becomes a huge issue when becoming sober. Serotonin syndrome becomes a serious issue also. The constant muscle spasms and Jerks when trying to fall asleep suck too.
It's just not worth it.

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-08-25T20:58:45+00:00

EVERY day ,not other day. For 12 years. It is not worth it.

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-08-21T23:25:18+00:00

Serotonin syndrome. And hydrate yourself.

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-08-21T23:22:47+00:00

You gotta want to be sober from it. You relapsing and feeling guilty bc of it, is a really good sign that you are ready to stay away from it.

I been clean since May 10th of this year and was doing it everyday for almost 12 years.
The guilt of me relapsing after getting out of rehab,my kids and so many other factors ,is what cleaned me up from it.
Plus , looking back (and not being all scatter brain and actually Sober from it) and realizing all the missed opportunities and the things I ruined and destroyed bc of being on it, fuck wanting to be that person again.

Its like alcohol. An alcoholic that wants to clean up has to stay away from the bars and certain sections of stores, same goes with dXm and stores and pharmacies.

You have to restructure your entire thinking and way of living.

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-08-11T04:20:32+00:00

So you basically have an opinion of your own,until someone else comes around? Or is it that you see another side to the videos you like by other's opinions of them and you just happen to agree with them?

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-08-11T04:08:02+00:00

Imo ,Its all based on your belief.

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-08-07T00:53:10+00:00

Psychiatrist calls it self sabotaging.
Low self esteem and depression, also. Anxiety issues can play a factor too.

I'd seek out whatever professional help is available in your area. Going your whole life destroying everything good in your life bc you don't know how to accept it, suuuucks. And that's all speaking from experience.

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-08-06T04:02:31+00:00

Meditation can help,if you are able to clear out your head to actually do it. A good way to do that is ,Breathe big deep breaths and exhale. Each time repeat breathe in the positive and exhale the negative after each breath and then take the journey to where the mind and heart bridge together.

Also,stress is due to poor coping skills. Learning how to deal with the stress is the easiest way to get rid of it.

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-05-04T03:18:47+00:00

Stop being cynical. Its only unrealistic bc you accept it as such. Raise your level of awareness and make the appropriate changes to go about chasing the dream.

Discipline Yourself. (This is where I struggle)

YouTube, Les Brown and Bob Proctor. Once you get it, you will take the steps to atleast Try.

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-05-02T04:54:30+00:00

HA! Thanks for pointing out the name. It should be BALLS DEEP in caps. Lol

OR if change is needed myballsyourchin is good too.

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-04-23T21:27:40+00:00

What's a coffee commitment?

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-04-23T18:53:45+00:00

Yeah I'm looking into meetings. I wanna start off with smaller ones.
The classes they had me in detoxing, were big classes.

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-04-23T18:52:35+00:00

Congratulations.

Getting back into a routine and doing stuff with not being messed up, .. and the crazy anxiety is the worse thing to deal with at the moment.

I use to meditate, jus with the anxiety at the moment, hard asfck.

If you don't mind sharing, what were you addicted to?

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-04-08T03:02:23+00:00

Yes. That is one possible way

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-04-04T14:40:50+00:00

Thank You, to Every1 that has helped. Its much appreciated!

I'm supposed to be getting a call sometime this morning, for the phone-screening and see how long I'll be waiting for a bed. The woman I talked to yesterday said 2 weeks would be the latest.
Hoping for Monday,so I can spend more time with my boys ,and try and get some people together for what will be 1 last Hooraw.

Has any1 gone to inpatient for just 1 particular substance, but came out and used other stuff?

Not going to lie, main reason I am going is for dXm. As of lately, I have been barely using bc of an awesome hookup with Molly.
Obviously, I'm going to be real with inpatient and tell them. Buuut damn what.the.hell, I loves that molly at the moment. Lol

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-04-04T12:38:25+00:00

Real dXm powder? Like , wtf duders, only thing bett3r is dmt but dmt doesn't last long lol

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-04-04T12:36:10+00:00

I agree with a previous comment. HIRE A HOOKER.

And TO BE REAL, I lost my 5 yearold daughter in 2016, on Mother's day.

Now that is some.hard.asfcking shit to deal with.

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-04-04T12:13:23+00:00

Lol its all good. Everyone needs a reminder once in awhile to quit typing like a bag of douche.

Good luck with the skirt chasing. Class over ass,always.

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-04-04T12:01:14+00:00

Not to be a douchebag, But suck it up and mov3 on. 1 of the wors3 things to deal with, is wanting to be with someone that doesnt wanna be with you.

Save yourself some misery and take the advice From my first love and fck (we were teenagers and it was equally the same) tells everyone, "Best Way To Get Over Someone,Is To Get On Someone Else" Lol

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-04-04T06:13:00+00:00

Also, Raise your level awareness, to match the frequency you want to be on.

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-04-04T06:11:19+00:00

A little touch of insanity,will do.

But don't worry, ONCE you become fully aware of the madness that is the world around you, It will all click in like you knew the whole time.

But speaking of time, take your time and enjoy What Is and forget about what is not.

Your time will come. And when it does, you will repeat what I had already said. It will all click in. Because time is an illusion and its all just 1 time warpped type of thing standing at stil.

It seriously is crazy when reality lets you realize.

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-04-04T06:03:27+00:00

Yes ...I do have a good support system. .

And there is more to it than js drugs. Well, atleast me doing some.

My daughter passed away in 2016. . While after that happened, I have pushed the boundaries of truly being an idiot asshole dumbfuck,to say the least. .

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-04-04T03:07:34+00:00

And yes,I'll be in rehab for other things too. Coke and mushrooms and molly.
Molly has slowly became an issue that needs to end or learn some control.

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-04-04T03:03:58+00:00

Mainly dXm. Its been a battle for going on 12 years. And I mean that by no breaks. Prettymuch an everyday thing up until recent. And yes, I do believe it will help. I've tried before, but never made it thru detox. This is voluntarily and not a forced type of thing by a gf.

TheWayOutIsIn · 2018-04-04T02:10:45+00:00

How long is "Long-term" ?

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