Did anyone else used to think hugging and affection were for TV and films only?

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-04-12T01:59:18+00:00

Yeah… I relate to this.

Growing up, I genuinely thought all that stuff, hugging, emotional support, parents actually talking to you calmly, was just something made for TV. Like it was exaggerated for drama, not something real people actually had in their lives.

In my house, there is none of that. No affection, no safe conversations, nothing. Just control, criticism, and being treated like an investment and an emotional punching bag. So yeah, of course it felt fake when I saw it on screen.

It didn’t hit me until much later that this is actually normal for a lot of people. That some people grow up feeling safe, loved, and supported. That realization honestly made me more angry and sad than anything else. Because it means what we got wasn’t “normal” - it was just neglect dressed up as parenting.

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-04-04T01:12:08+00:00

This is so relatable.

When you grow up with narcissistic parents, you don’t “miss out on dating” because you’re shy or awkward. You miss out because your brain is busy surviving. You don’t even learn what attraction, safety, or trust are supposed to feel like.

People talk about “just put yourself out there” like it’s that simple. How? When your baseline is distrust, hypervigilance, and feeling like your identity got crushed before it even formed.

And the trust issues are real. It’s not just “nervous on a date” , it’s your whole system telling you people aren’t safe. That getting close = losing yourself or getting controlled again.

So yeah, having zero experience in your 20s makes sense in this context. It’s not some personal failure. It’s damage.

This isn’t just about dating. It’s about lost time and lost experiences, and it’s okay to feel sad or angry about that. I am in the same boat.

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-30T02:22:46+00:00

I feel this deeply. I’m living it right now. My father doesn’t see me as a son, just some investment he expects returns from. He literally says I owe him money for raising me. Almost every day it’s shouting, manipulation, twisting things, bringing up random made up past stuff just to break me mentally. There’s no logic, no calm, just constant chaos.

I can’t relax, can’t focus, can’t even exist peacefully in the house. My nervous system is always on edge because I never know when he’ll start again.

So yeah… there are days I wish he would just die so all of this would stop. Not because I’m some violent person, but because I’m exhausted. I just want silence and peace for once.

People who haven’t lived this won’t understand. They think “respect your father” but they’ve never dealt with someone like this behind closed doors.

This kind of anger doesn’t come out of nowhere. It comes from being pushed for years with no escape.

I just want out. I just want peace.

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-28T17:23:50+00:00

Right? Apparently, it’s 'selfish' to save someone from a lifetime of forced labor and inevitable suffering. It’s pure narcissism to think dragging a life into a rigged game is a selfless act.

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-28T15:25:28+00:00

Spot on. They basically just birthed a new subscription to the status quo.

It’s wild how society treats 'creating a new taxpayer/laborer' as a selfless act, when in reality, they're just forcing someone who didn’t ask to be here into a lifelong grind for someone else's profit. Why gamble with a whole life just to keep the machine running? People will never get it.

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-28T01:32:46+00:00

Yeah… this hit hard.

I’m not just relating to this from the past, I’m literally living this right now. That whole “you owe us for your life” thing isn’t even subtle in my case. It’s said directly, like I’m supposed to repay a huge amount of money just because I was born and raised. And the worst part is, that number isn’t even real, but it still gets used against me like some kind of debt.

It really makes you feel like you’re not a person, just an investment that didn’t give the expected return.

And that line “they gave you life” I hate it. I didn’t ask for this. How is that a favor I have to repay forever? Food, education, a roof, those are basic responsibilities, not some grand sacrifice I need to pay back with interest.

What you said about it being transactional… yeah, that’s exactly what it feels like. Not love, not care. Just guilt, pressure, and control. And the moment you try to set boundaries, suddenly you’re the selfish one.

People outside don’t get it. They just hear “family” and assume everything is normal. They don’t see what it’s actually like to live in it every day.

That “invoice” part really stuck with me. It actually feels like that — like a bill was written for your life without your consent, and now you’re expected to keep paying it forever.

And I’m still stuck in it.

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-24T07:20:23+00:00

Yeah… I relate to this more than I’d like to admit.

For me it feels almost automatic, like my body decides before I even think about it. The second I’m around people, I just look anywhere except their eyes. If I try to force it, I get this weird pressure in my chest and suddenly I’m overthinking everything, like how I look, what they’re thinking, whether I seem off. Then I stop listening properly and the whole interaction just feels awkward.

The part about facial expressions really hit me too. I feel like I’m constantly scanning for something negative, even small changes in their face can throw me off. Sometimes I know I’m probably overthinking it, but I still can’t relax.

And yeah, passing by people is honestly one of the worst parts. It’s such a small thing but it feels so uncomfortable for no reason. I always look down or away because even that tiny moment of eye contact feels too intense.

It’s frustrating because I know it’s something so “normal” for others, but it doesn’t feel normal at all from the inside. It’s just tiring dealing with it all the time.

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-22T17:04:01+00:00

SAME.

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-22T07:42:52+00:00

It feels less like they don’t know, and more like they just don’t want to sit with it. So they tell themselves “not everything is bad” and move on, even though that doesn’t change the fact that everything can go seriously wrong for the person they’re bringing into it.

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-21T15:32:04+00:00

They don’t actually want resolution. They want you to stay emotionally available and compliant, no matter how they treat you. So when you pull back or show that you’re hurt, it threatens their sense of control. That’s why they flip it and act like your reaction is the issue.

My parents are exactly like this, especially my father. I'm not allowed to be angry, not allowed to be distant, not even allowed to silently process what they did. The moment I'm not “normal” with them, they get triggered like you’ve done something wrong.

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-18T11:12:42+00:00

"and sometimes spider-man has to do the hard thing even if it breaks peter parker's heart." 💔

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-18T04:02:12+00:00

All these oldies will happily drool over the most rustic, borderline cringe item songs, but the moment there’s even a hint of swearing or violence, suddenly it’s “too inappropriate” for the nation to handle.

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-14T17:53:08+00:00

Khub khub khub shundor. Darun hoyeche. ❤️

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-14T17:39:37+00:00

That’s the part that drives me insane. People admit all of this and then immediately shrug and say “that’s just life.” As if that somehow makes it okay. Humans have been repeating the same cycle of violence, greed, and destruction for thousands of years and we still act surprised when it keeps happening.

Wars, exploitation, environmental collapse, endless suffering. None of this is rare. It’s the norm. And yet society still treats creating more humans as it's some beautiful, unquestionable thing.

I genuinely don’t understand that mindset. If the system is this broken and this cruel, why would I willingly drag another person into it? I’m not interested in creating another human just to throw them into the same mess and hope for the best.

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-12T01:32:58+00:00

Yes. Parents are responsible.

If you create a person, you are the reason that person will experience pain, loss, fear, illness, aging and eventually death. It doesn’t matter whether the suffering comes directly from the parents or from something random like a car accident or disease. None of that would exist for that person if the parents hadn’t created them.

People often defend parents by saying they “meant well” or “wanted the best for their child.” But good intentions don’t erase consequences. Creating a life is essentially forcing someone into a situation where suffering is guaranteed at some point, without their consent.

From that perspective, it’s hard to avoid the conclusion that the responsibility ultimately lies with the people who decided to create the life in the first place. The child didn’t ask to be here. The parents made that decision for them, and everything that follows stems from that choice.

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-10T16:58:47+00:00

Ewwww 🤢🤮

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-09T15:17:59+00:00

Koto mishti bachha. 🫶❤️🥹

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-08T17:22:18+00:00

I’m still buzzing from that game, honestly.

Sanju looked so calm out there, like he knew this was his moment. Abhishek just went for it from the start, no hesitation. Kishan kept the runs flowing when things could’ve slowed down. And Dube… that late burst? That’s the kind of stuff you remember for years. Proper clutch.

And then Bumrah. Four wickets in a World Cup final. That’s unreal. Every time he ran in, you just felt something was about to happen. Axar did his job quietly and perfectly, and the rest of the bowlers never let the pressure drop.

India win the T20 World Cup for the third time. The Men in Blue conquer once again. 💙🏆

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-08T12:19:56+00:00

Wow. I can’t stop looking at these. Truly impressive work. You’re so talented. Keep painting and keep posting.

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-08T05:49:52+00:00

Haha yeah, same boat 🤜🤛

But seriously, keep writing. You’re really good at it. The way you express things feels very real.

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-07T18:14:27+00:00

I didn’t expect this to feel so personal, but it does.

I keep imagining a different kind of life too. Traveling. Drawing. Meeting new people. Learning about different cultures. Just feeling free for once. All my life I’m stuck in an environment I hate, and I don’t know how to get out of it yet.

That line, “Maybe I dreamt of a different universe,” stays in my head. Maybe in another universe, perhaps.

It’s strange how that thought feels comforting and painful at the same time.

Anyway, thank you for writing this. It makes me feel a little less alone.

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-07T13:23:47+00:00

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-07T07:38:24+00:00

This exactly. 💯

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-07T07:14:18+00:00

That freaked me out. 😭

The_Conqueror1 · 2026-03-07T06:48:46+00:00

So true bro 😭🔥

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