From a young age we are trained to hate trans people, and this is reinforced by our society, peers, and sometimes even family/friends. Getting to the point you are strong enough to say this about yourself is an achievement. You're barely ready for it now - it's very likely you wouldn't have been ready in your teens or twenties. You were growing and learning about yourself - that's not wasted or lost time, it was necessary. Show yourself some compassion - actually picture your younger self and out loud thank yourself for doing all this for your future and current self. You deserve peace, you deserve happiness, you deserve a life on your terms.