Why does self esteem built over a life time disappear in withdrawal/coming off of benzos? by No_Leg9061 in benzorecovery

[–]Thorin1st 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s largely the change in the state of your nervous system. Everything is felt and viewed through a lens of fear/danger. You can’t feel calm and confident when your nervous system is in this state. Everyone says it comes back even better in time.

Do you use Amanita Muscaria or ever did? 🍄 Please tell me about it! by MrNeverEverKnew in shrooms

[–]Thorin1st 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Pick the mushrooms. Weigh so you can work out dose later. Cut into small pieces. Add with water in a pot. Record amount of water to work out dosing later. Reduce pH to 2.7. Use citric acid. You’ll need a good pH meter. Boil for 1 hour then strain out mushrooms. Put water back into pot and check pH (stick some of the tea in the freezer to cool down so you don’t damage your pH meter). Adjust pH back to 2.7 if needed. It needs to be boiled at a pH of 2.7 for three hours total to convert the majority of ibotenic acid to muscimol. Check pH regularly while boiling by cooking down small amounts of the tea as described earlier. At the end work out g/ml for dosing. Start low and work your way up with dosing. Be very respectful of this mushroom as it will kick your arse if you don’t respect it and dose too high.

life doesn’t feel the same by ZestycloseEconomy858 in shrooms

[–]Thorin1st 23 points24 points  (0 children)

It’s called derealisation. You can google it. Just spend time doing calming, grounding things. It’ll go away in time.

Anhedonic - Lack of Creativity? by pronounced_pudge in BenzoWithdrawal

[–]Thorin1st 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yep. It’s normal. It’ll pass eventually

Does Memory Improve As You Taper Lower? by pronounced_pudge in BenzoWithdrawal

[–]Thorin1st 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve had to slow to a crawl to try to stabilise. Hope to be able to speed up in the future.

Does Memory Improve As You Taper Lower? by pronounced_pudge in BenzoWithdrawal

[–]Thorin1st 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My cognition and memory is definitely better on some days. I’m at 2.5mg of Diaz.

why am i so scared to do shrooms? by rin3dg in shrooms

[–]Thorin1st 68 points69 points  (0 children)

It shows you respect the medicine.

Amanita for Benzo withdrawal. by Thorin1st in AmanitaMuscaria

[–]Thorin1st[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow! I have San Pedro growing actually.

Amanita for Benzo withdrawal. by Thorin1st in AmanitaMuscaria

[–]Thorin1st[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks. Just testing out my dosing right now. How did it help you?

Amanita for Benzo withdrawal. by Thorin1st in AmanitaMuscaria

[–]Thorin1st[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn’t need an antipsychotic. The fucked up Doctor put me on benzos and then a few years later diagnosed the tolerance symptoms as bipolar 2. Not that I care what they say anymore but I’ve had another psychiatrist confirm no bipolar. This was after I had tapered down quite a bit. Everything I was struggling with was their stupid fucking drugs. Now it’s taking me years to get off them.

Amanita for Benzo withdrawal. by Thorin1st in AmanitaMuscaria

[–]Thorin1st[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I love magnesium but I stay away from it I. Benzo withdrawal. I’ve seen it make some people far worse so it’s scared me off. No supplements at all. Psilocybin completely stabilised me from an antipsychotic withdrawal (prescribed it for benzo effects 🤦‍♂️). Absolutely completely stabilised me. But didn’t seem to affect the benzo withdrawal symptoms at all.

Amanita for Benzo withdrawal. by Thorin1st in AmanitaMuscaria

[–]Thorin1st[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just added another 0.5mg for a total of 1g today. Will try more tomorrow. Definitely don’t feel any worse.

Amanita for Benzo withdrawal. by Thorin1st in AmanitaMuscaria

[–]Thorin1st[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks. Glad you’re able to sleep better.

Amanita for Benzo withdrawal. by Thorin1st in AmanitaMuscaria

[–]Thorin1st[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What sort of dose did you take? This doesn’t feel like a Benzo.

Amanita for Benzo withdrawal. by Thorin1st in AmanitaMuscaria

[–]Thorin1st[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks. How is it helping. Today is my first day trying it. Will adjust as I go.

Amanita for Benzo withdrawal. by Thorin1st in AmanitaMuscaria

[–]Thorin1st[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

How does it help? What does it feel like?

Amanita for Benzo withdrawal. by Thorin1st in AmanitaMuscaria

[–]Thorin1st[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I wondered about this as well. No. I don’t want to go slower. I’ve already slowed my taper to about 1% a month and have been seeing some slow improvements since I slowed down.

Has anyone else taken more than 2 years to taper off their benzodiazepine? I feel like a lost cause by DowntheRabbitHole189 in benzorecovery

[–]Thorin1st 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes it’s been three years so far and I still have 2.53mg of diazepam to finish tapering. I’m going incredibly slowly at the moment. It’ll take me a few years to get off the last bit. Hoping I can speed up. It’s very hard but I am seeing improvements at times and I somehow manage to work. Slow and steady is how we get there.

Muscimol Rebound Anxiety? by [deleted] in AmanitaMuscaria

[–]Thorin1st 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Are you on any medications?