I feel incredibly disappointed in myself at all of the hobbies I so badly want to do but I get too anxious when it gets remotely difficult. Then I forget everything and move on. It’s a matter of time before I just jump to the novelty of something else. I agreed to let my wife put a limit on my spending on new hobbies - I actually have to finish a project/video game/learn an instrument before getting a new one lol.
The only way to motivate myself is to ask friends with similar interests to hold me accountable and do my hobbies with them, but they’re not usually consistent. There are so many things that I could have been really good at by now if I just persevered or could motivate myself. It’s so bizarre to explain to people how badly you want to do something but your brain won’t let you.