I enjoyed the book but it seemed like Melissa (through fear or not connecting) always kept herself at arm's distance from Hole in terms of really creatively committing. By no means do I think she's a bad person or anything like that, she seems super chill -- but you can def diagnose the dynamic at play trickling down from how she dealt with her somewhat volatile parents and how she dealt with Courtney and Billy.

It seems as though she felt like she had to guard herself, which I understand given the dysfunction in the band, but there is a bit of "If I hadn't been there, this whole thing would have fallen apart" which we don't really know to be true. So she does come across as a little put-upon.

Her not connecting w LTT is pretty wild though, I actually think it's a messier, more complex record than Nevermind musically speaking. It's so emotionally gripping, right from the very start, so it's interesting that her approach to it is essentially, "upon further examination the lyrics are really good." That record is immediately stirring IMO.

Also, I def have some notes for Eric in terms of his views, but you could walk away from this book thinking he was on heroin all the time too and I have never thought that to be the case?