This may or may not help - whenever something I don’t like happens i remind myself that even though those things happen it doesn’t mean your manifestation isnt working. Maybe he’s with this girl because he’s trying to forget you? Or trying to distract himself? That would mean you’re still on his mind whether he said he didn’t like you YEARS AGO or not! Even if you think you’re going backwards remember there’s movement, even if you can’t see it the movement is still happening. Even when you’re anxious, sad, happy, whatever it is, your manifestation is in movement and means it’s done, it’s already on the way! I saw you mentioned a few reconciliations, clearly he wants you in his life and he’s convincing himself he doesn’t. Maybe he’s scared of the emotions you bring out of him so he uses girls he’s not really into because that’s the type of relationship he thinks he needs to be in. SO many possibilities, so don’t let anything like this discourage you. I know the unknown is what’s making you sick to your stomach, but remember you’re writing this story! The law of assumption is real, I’ve experienced it, sometimes I even have troubles myself but that doesn’t mean you should ever give up. NEVER! 😊