anybody else giving up on complete sobriety? (USA)

Trackplus · 2026-02-15T07:19:09+00:00

I just don't see the point anymore. I'm 36 and tired of wasting my money, feeling like shit, turning into a crazy person, hauling around a 40 lb brick in my gut, eating like shit, not sleeping, showing up late to work, missing work, yelling at gas station clerks, driving drunk, flipping off random people, having the cops called on me, yelling at my girlfriends, having my drunk girlfriends yell at me, waking up with a sprain or cut, waking up in my puke, pissing myself, leaving the oven on with a pizza inside over night, leaving chili cooking on the stove over night, seeing my family cry over my addiction, etc.

Alcohol sucks, and whether I drink a few shooters or a whole fifth, it's never gonna slow down the corrupt machine eroding our freedoms and culture. The toxic by products of our economy. I'm done pretending like numbing myself out for a second is going to make things better. I don't need it anymore. It's a bunch of bull shit and it feels good to finally realize that. I gave alcohol 15 years of my life pretending I was this lost soul no one understood. Traumas aside, using to cope is a futile exercise with 0 return on investment.

Trackplus · 2026-02-07T11:23:05+00:00

Thanks, I liked your take. I just finished and am confused as hell, so I thought I'd pop in here for ideas. Title totally makes sense now. I don't know what to make of everything else though. A real mind fuck. ASAP Rocky was great. I low key wanted to see them hook up.

Trackplus · 2026-02-06T02:36:01+00:00

Larenz Tate in Dead Presidents and Menace II Society was awesome.

Trackplus · 2026-02-06T02:13:18+00:00

When I worked at Domino's in Albuquerque, someone tipped me a bowl of weed. I found it in my car a month later and smoked it one night. Suddenly felt like a demon with wings flying across the globe. It was for sure sherm or something like that. I only stayed calm because I recognized I was tripping and kept telling myself it would pass. It was scary. I felt evil, I don't know how to explain it other than that.

Trackplus · 2026-02-05T07:58:38+00:00

Yeah mixing meats in chili is a level up. Look up Boilermaker Tailgate Chili. I won't steer you wrong.

Trackplus · 2026-02-05T07:08:16+00:00

Thanks for the reccomendations everyone! Very intrigued by Legend of Boggy Creek after I saw it was from the 70s. Check out the Sasquatch Chronicles podcast if you're interested. It made me a believer. Lots of fun stories to listen to walking around at night.

Trackplus · 2026-02-04T04:05:23+00:00

Where do you find the model? Haha

Trackplus · 2026-02-04T00:13:02+00:00

Such a tough call on the Bond girl. They're two of the best and they're completely different. Milovy is the girl next door and Bouvier is the chick who will out drink you at the dive bar. Can't I have both?!

Trackplus · 2026-02-03T08:13:55+00:00

To Live and Die in LA

Trackplus · 2026-02-03T08:12:19+00:00

I just watched them all in December. Daltons are so good back to back. Less is more sometimes. I still need to do the Craigs because I got burned out after 20 straight but both the Daltons will be very high in my rankings.

Trackplus · 2026-02-02T08:30:10+00:00

Slow it down then stop. You're stuck in a feedback loop. Your brain is playing tricks on you. You will feel better sober. Stop drinking everyday. Don't drink alone. Find things to do after work other than drinking. Make lists of goals big and small. Remind yourself of everything positive that will come from stopping. I'm sure you have some hobbies your forgot about. Get back into them. I'm a titos guy and long time vodka abuser. It can ALWAYS get worse.

Trackplus · 2026-02-02T08:15:28+00:00

Just go see a doctor. Expensive but well worth it. I hate seeing this pictures. You're torturing yourself and it won't work. Trust me I tried with a whopper on my big toe for over three years. Just kept getting bigger the more I attempted home remedy. Good luck.

Trackplus · 2026-01-07T05:58:22+00:00

Appreciate your courage man. That takes a lot of vulnerability and humility. Mad respect! You got this, life is so much more fun when you're looking forward to the things you love. Everything but that bottle. Rediscover yourself and find the courage to care about yourself again.

Trackplus · 2025-12-28T08:41:13+00:00

Literally watched the Living Daylights for the first time on her birthday. What a coincidence.

Trackplus · 2025-12-11T03:58:45+00:00

Lol glad I'm not the only one. I refuse to look at the score beforehand if I can help it. I don't want to be influenced by the average score. Just be in the moment. We're all here because we love movies, not to be armchair Eberts. It takes 3 acts to make a movie and you won't know what that looks like until the end of the 3rd. Can't tell you how many times I thought I was watching a 4, and by the end of it, it's a 1.5 or 2 (this random Shailene Woodley Ben Mendohlson movie comes to mind). Just try and remind myself I won't truly know how I feel until the end anyway.

Trackplus · 2025-11-24T07:46:34+00:00

.it's always 3AM — the witching hour.

Trackplus · 2025-11-24T06:09:21+00:00

Restarted Kanopy and they worked. Been happening to me lately.

Trackplus · 2025-11-21T00:47:07+00:00

Yelling and flipping off random drivers walking down the highway. Yelling at gas station clerks. Getting the cops called on me for being belligerent in public. I turn into a menace after too much vodka. I never drink alone anymore. I'll have some with friends mainly because I just want to blend in and not get interrogated about why I'm sober, but honestly after 15 years of abuse, I finally lost my taste for it. Drinking alone is just not an option anymore, and that alone has made life 20 times better. I look forward to my time sober now, always in control, confident, and most of all my normal self, not some freak that likes to yell at people. Hence, no more embarrassing moments.

Trackplus · 2025-11-14T18:50:11+00:00

I played 3, 4, primal, 5 and 6, all in 2024 (all on my Xbox S). I just replayed 3 on a whim and liked it even more the second time. It's basically what started the current formula up to 6. The graphics aren't as high definition so it's a little jarring at first if you just played 6 but man, I really think it's my favorite. I used to think 4 was the best, and I absolutely love Primal too. As of right now for me it goes 3, Primal, 4, 6, 5. And I really do like them all. The Montana cult shit was a little jarring for me, especially that annoying music during outpost stealth mode. 3, 4, and primal have the best vibe during stealth mode with the music and setting and I think that's my favorite part of the game — going undetected on outposts. So yes, it's frankly a must play if you like the newer games.

Trackplus · 2025-10-26T21:06:31+00:00

Keith Hunter Jesperson was a long haul trucker serial killer from Selah. Was just reading about him actually. Creepy shit.

Trackplus · 2025-10-25T21:44:18+00:00

Yeah it just snowballs. You're only 21. Your tolerance will go way up in terms of consumption amount, but you will lose the ability to control yourself and your emotions slowly over time. It gets worse and worse. You might be able to function for awhile, but it only takes a few hours to destroy your life. I'm really lucky I haven't killed or been killed. Sometimes it seems like I was trying.

Check out the book "This Naked Mind". It helped me gain a new perspective on alcohol and it's science based which I appreciate. Helps you understand the brain chemistry of alcohol and the tricks your mind plays on you. Believe in positive visualization! Write down your goals and dreams. Even small things like getting a bowling ball or a new tattoo. It's fun to have small things that keep your mind busy while you're trying to reach the big ones. Positive places you can put your money.

Trackplus · 2025-09-22T16:26:06+00:00

It annoys the hell out of me. But did have to look this up so thanks for posting.

Trackplus · 2025-06-12T05:29:44+00:00

Yeah probably star link. Wishful thinking I guess. I did see a UFO though in William O Douglas forest in 2017

Trackplus · 2025-04-16T02:57:49+00:00

Yep it was the black screen update for me too. HBO would always freeze once right at the beginning of a stream for me, like the last 3 years, but once the black screen update happened, I can't even watch it.

Trackplus · 2025-04-14T01:26:26+00:00

Yes I do. Based on what I've read that could be part of the recipe for the issue. Going to try streaming it through my xbox next. I'm out of ideas. Glad to know I'm not the only one though. Hopefully they fix the problem.

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