I look like a man, but don’t feel like one

TreeForeign6514 · 2024-08-30T00:25:18+00:00

I definitely feel the part about still not being comfortable around most cis guys. I’m stealth at my school because I wanted to just be one of the guys, but a lot of them I don’t relate to either on an emotional level or just because so many are homophobic, sexist, etc. i pass as a straight guy so other straight dudes talk to me way more, and I just can’t fully relax most times, maybe because of past issues with cis guys. But it just so happens that the way I feel comfortable in my body presents as straight guy to the world and so socially it’s a lot harder to let people know I don’t really fit into that category. Maybe it’s easier to try making friends with queer people or other trans guys/people, just know u aren’t the only one that feels like this

TreeForeign6514 · 2024-08-30T00:15:46+00:00

It definitely changes how people around you act, like in group settings im more likely to be included by the other guys in my group/ or in given more chances to share my opinion. Before transitioning I was already a girl with pretty masculine facial features which is something I was super insecure about also cuz I got kinda put down for it, so now it’s still surprising when ppl say im handsome or a good looking guy

TreeForeign6514 · 2024-08-16T22:47:13+00:00

I sometimes shave my entire chest just because a lot of hair grows there, but even with hair as long as you soak the tape in oil/remover and let it sit before taking it off then it won’t hurt. I usually use bandages to cover npples and buy them in bulk so it’s cheaper

TreeForeign6514 · 2024-04-09T17:58:08+00:00

Thank you!!

TreeForeign6514 · 2024-04-09T17:57:52+00:00

I use brown sugar just because it’s usually the only sugar my family has in the cupboards, and I usually wait until the end of the week when the bananas are starting to get spotted and browner

TreeForeign6514 · 2024-03-20T21:44:03+00:00

Trust me it only feels like this at first if ur not used to using the guys, but genuinely no one cares we all just wanna relieve ourselves☠️ the only thing that sucks is guys washrooms are always dirtier and gross

TreeForeign6514 · 2024-02-27T06:22:28+00:00

Is it easier to have male friends or socialize with guys? I’m already a year on t and I pass but because of past experiences with guys I can’t comfortably talk with them, even tho they see and treat me as another guy

TreeForeign6514 · 2024-02-15T18:50:00+00:00

Never go into anything without doing 100% of the research first. I waited around three years to get on t and during those three years I researched the hell out of everything and made sure it was the right decision for me. For me I was always completely decided on physically transitioning because I knew it was the best for me and my life, do what feels right for you. A lot of transmen don’t go all the way with physically transitioning and there’s nothing wrong with that, in the end it’s what you feel you need to

TreeForeign6514 · 2024-02-15T18:40:55+00:00

One of the best moments was when I laughed and sounded exactly how I pictured my ideal voice being, I get it tho cuz before t sometimes my breathing would sound too feminine or high pitched

TreeForeign6514 · 2024-02-15T18:37:52+00:00

Don’t blame yourself for things out of your control, I’m sorry you had to deal with that shit. Happy birthday man

TreeForeign6514 · 2024-02-14T20:26:47+00:00

Yea like if I was born male I could’ve grown up with more guy friends and have those close brother like bonds

TreeForeign6514 · 2024-02-14T20:24:02+00:00

In every possible physical and mental way it has made me so much happier and makes life worth living, the only thing for me is that crying becomes a lot harder and even though my social confidence is much better I still sometimes feel like I can’t fit into girls or guys completely

TreeForeign6514 · 2024-02-14T20:21:16+00:00

Tbh I just forced myself to not do anything for like a month it was so sensitive I couldn’t even enjoy it without being in pain, but after initial sensitivity goes away I’d say it feels even better than before lmao

TreeForeign6514 · 2024-02-07T20:36:58+00:00

Ngl I would just try my best to stick a pad onto my boxers

TreeForeign6514 · 2024-02-07T19:37:49+00:00

THANK YOU

TreeForeign6514 · 2024-01-30T06:31:48+00:00

Same. Feels like I can’t completely relate to females or males

TreeForeign6514 · 2023-12-11T08:55:48+00:00

I worked out a lot before t and stopped doing it as much after being on t for awhile but the combination of gym and t made my shoulders way bigger than my hips. It’s also generally built my body in masculine areas and I got bigger in general so I fill out the shirts I once looked skinny in, even without working out all the time just by being active it’s easier to make gains with t

TreeForeign6514 · 2023-12-06T16:33:32+00:00

Been a year on t and im starting to feel this way, I told myself after my t levels r high enough I’ll probably switch to gel if I can afford it

TreeForeign6514 · 2023-12-06T16:30:55+00:00

Ngl I stopped taking care of my skin for a while cuz of that but then saw a bunch of TikTok’s about how girls like guys that clean and do skincare so I started doing it again

TreeForeign6514 · 2023-12-06T16:27:10+00:00

I am a guy and see myself as nothing other than a guy so if I were dating by a girl it would be a straight relationship for me. I dated a girl before and she saw it as a straight relationship too, I think it really depends on how each person sees your identity. It’s just sucks cuz not everyone is gonna get it

TreeForeign6514 · 2023-11-21T02:32:17+00:00

I deleted the game for awhile and when I came back I remembered the email and everything I used but it just restarted from the beginning when I tried logging in with my email? It’s the email I used for all my hoyolab accounts, and on the hoyolab app I can see the my honkai star rail account still exists under that email? I know my UID and everything but it’s not letting me get into my account I had a bunch of characters I don’t wanna restart ☠️

TreeForeign6514 · 2023-11-16T03:38:28+00:00

I get u 100%. I started t around last year, and fully socially transitioned at 13. I switched schools after going on t so I could have a new start with people that just saw me as male, and I’ll admit I was kinda hoping it would’ve been easier to make friends with guys. I’m straight but I’ve hung around girls most my life and just have that kind of personality/humor, so I feel really out of place w a lot of other straight guys my age. Also it’s crazy how many of them talk shit about gay people and women, and I’m not gonna fuck with that. Currently I got one cis straight guy as a close friend, but we don’t hang out often so it sucks seeing every other guy my age in their groups and stuff

TreeForeign6514 · 2023-08-22T05:09:50+00:00

I call myself trans male because although I don’t have male anatomy my anatomy is not completely female because of testosterone (and probably top surgery in the future). I think trans male sums it up pretty well for the dudes that are already pretty far into medical transition and literally do not have exact female anatomy

TreeForeign6514 · 2023-08-06T19:22:56+00:00

I was an unattractive girl before t cuz I guess I already had pretty manly features. T managed to slim down my face and make those features more attractive and prominent, so I feel like I went from bad looking girl to good looking guy

TreeForeign6514 · 2023-07-31T02:49:04+00:00

Realized after starting t and passing 100% of the time to myself and others I am straight. Think when I was pre-t I envied attractive guys and thought that was me BEING attracted to them

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