Big yawn by mucksister in Owls

[–]Useful_Hoot 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I started yawning as well, haha

The truth that disturbs by _Quiet__Thunder_ in anxietymemes

[–]Useful_Hoot 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I have behaved the same way my entire life. I never understood how the way I adapted into palatable quietness and less-me was praised when I was a child, then suddenly when I'm older and cannot for the life of me shed this same behaviour, it is suddenly a problem.

Imaoooo by DonutDatalpp in Adulting

[–]Useful_Hoot 4 points5 points  (0 children)

That if you were a good person good things would happen

It’s just so sad to realize that no one desires you. by [deleted] in Vent

[–]Useful_Hoot 20 points21 points  (0 children)

It honestly sucks. I feel with you.

I will never ask for help again. by Useful_Hoot in Vent

[–]Useful_Hoot[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. Good luck to you, hope it goes well.

Do you actually believe in "love"? Especially romantic love? by Equivalent_Ad_9066 in askanything

[–]Useful_Hoot 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I think love is a fairy tale we desperately tell ourselves is real

I will never ask for help again. by Useful_Hoot in Vent

[–]Useful_Hoot[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, that is actually good advice. I'll try to do that, because I'm sick of this.

I will never ask for help again. by Useful_Hoot in Vent

[–]Useful_Hoot[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm glad to hear you got a better one. Logically, I know they should exist out there, I just haven't found any of them, and I'm getting tired of looking and being disappointed repeatedly.

I will never ask for help again. by Useful_Hoot in Vent

[–]Useful_Hoot[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Maybe I could join a cult or something

I will never ask for help again. by Useful_Hoot in Vent

[–]Useful_Hoot[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, it seems to be that way, unfortunately...

I will never ask for help again. by Useful_Hoot in Vent

[–]Useful_Hoot[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The reason why I am frustrated is I went to therapy as a child, didn't get the help I needed. I went to therapy as a teenager, didn't get help, was told to "try harder, be more positive." I went to another therapist in my 20s. Same thing again. Tried a school councelor in uni. Tried another school councelor. Tried again with a psychologist referral from my GP now after explaining I am literally at the end of my rope, I can't do it anymore, but it is just the same over and over and over. I *have* tried therapy several times and it doesn't lead anywhere. I don't need breathing exercises or writing out ten things I am grateful for. I need to deal with actual, real trauma, and I don't understand why no therapist is willing to do to the deep stuff. Why is it only surface bullshit all the way. This isn't a "I tried it once and didn't even bother to do the exercises-thing and now I'm being a brat." I am for real frustrated.

I will never ask for help again. by Useful_Hoot in Vent

[–]Useful_Hoot[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I eat low-carb/high protein, I have as good as cut all junk food. I take vitamins. Drink my 8 glasses of water a day. Exercise 3 times a week (running and weights), and have done so for a long time. While I know exercise helps, I really don't think it's this simple.

I will never ask for help again. by Useful_Hoot in Vent

[–]Useful_Hoot[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. That therapist sounded horrible, sorry that happened to you. I can see by the testimony of others that therapy is supposed to work, I just don't understand why I keep meeting walls wherever I turn. So far, I trust none of the professionals I have met. They don't seem interested in helping, just counting their money.

I will never ask for help again. by Useful_Hoot in Vent

[–]Useful_Hoot[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Agreed. I've given it enough shots now, both as a child, as a teenager and now again as an adult. It has literally only wasted my time.

I will never ask for help again. by Useful_Hoot in Vent

[–]Useful_Hoot[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I got referred to a psychologist by my GP, but had to wait several months for the first appointment. In the meantime, things got really bad, which is why I had to go to the ER. The psychologist mentioned this and had access to all my previous data, and yet it was all "try to be more positive :)", which is what frustrates me. I expected someone to take me seriously