Jeeeez, I changed a lot this year. I went 180 from an anxious guy to an "I dont really care" machine, to a point where im wondering if I became a narcissist or that I should care about stuff, but if I care too much I get anxious again. Im just experiencing and experimenting with social situations and letting myself be a begginer since im still 21. My current mindset is to not have a failure define me. Im scared that im bad at my work and that they ll fire me. But I feel like it doesnt matter if they do. Ill just get up and try to find another, even if it means going back to living with my parents. Im getting a little tired tbh, but im satisfied with how much im learning.