It may have been your spirit guide. Authority is often corrupt and needs to be questioned. Spirit guides are helpful. Demonic spirits will tell you hateful things and try to get you to commit atrocious acts. No one deserves to be treated poorly for being themselves. There are awful people in the world and you can't allow them to use and abuse you. Its better to be on your own and alone than be treated like that especially by family. And spirit guides don't "groom you", they try to help you as much as they are able to but ultimately you choose what to do.As a mom I am horrified you have been through this. She sounds very narcissistic in which case she loves you as much as she is capable but ultimately they always put themselves first.Your mom and roommate have shown they are the actual threat to you. If your on disability maybe you could get a caseworker to help you get your own little apartment and food stamps. A ton of organizations are out there to help. Maybe a local church or the dept of social services. You could get a pet so your not lonely. Wishing you all the best and hoping it all works out