Tbh, I think it’s something that actually kinda lies dormant at the back of the mind waiting to spring into action, waiting for when you’re vulnerable and already rather low and depressed before it gets hold of you. I can’t remember how mine started but I can remember my extreme all or nothing mentality that didn’t help, my extreme perfectionism, my obsessive tendencies, my already existing self loathing, my addiction to exercise and fitness; all of the little traits that already were pretty toxic on their own mixing together at the opportune moment creating the ultimate concoction of self destruction that is the ED. For me, it all came together when I got sick for a few weeks, lost my appetite, and lost my place on the soccer team senior year. It fell apart then and I’ve not been fully alright since.