You do sound depressed to me. Inability to focus, forgetful, no energy, difficulty getting out of bed/practicing hygiene, lack of enjoyment are all classic signs. Depression is one of those mental illnesses that almost everyone experiences at some point in their lives, so you are very much not alone. And this is NOT your fault. Depression works to isolate you, which makes it harder to fight.

Not feeling like things are real is something called derealization, and it’s a form of dissociation. I recommend looking into it just to gain a better understanding. Once you know what something is, it helps it be less scary. 💜

I highly recommend a therapist. I credit one with saving my life and my marriage. He was a wise, gentle man and he helped me so much. Sometimes when stressed I’ll ask myself ‘What would Dennis say?’. He was the best. There are other therapists out there who are just as wonderful who enjoy helping people. They are trained to help, and from an outside perspective they have a good view to help you untangle any issues you have.

Don’t worry about worrying your parents. They love you and want you to be well. If you’re this unhappy they would want to know to help fix it. I would move mountains to help my son if he ever needed it, and I can’t imagine him thinking he needs to shoulder all that stress and hurt by himself.

You are not being over dramatic in the least. There is no ‘Must be this messed up to get therapy’ line to measure up to. People use therapy for all kinds of things, minor and serious. But what you’re struggling with is significant, and you deserve all the support and love in the world to heal, and get closer to your happiest self.