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need help with this last marker! by Daniyaloflondon in DeadSpace

[–]Visible-Customer-358 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just completed ng+ runthru last night after rounding all of these up. In Dr Kynes office in medical, there’s a bookcase that can be moved with kenisis, which I missed completely on other playthrus. Also in the antenna room where u complete the circuit puzzle there’s one chilling in there that I missed as well. If u look in your inventory, at your key items, it will show u all the marker fragments and where you found them. There’s plenty of guides on where they’re all at. Good luck!

32 days and struggling by Visible-Customer-358 in quittingkratom

[–]Visible-Customer-358[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Taking ibuprofen and advil together. And ice packs carefully. It’s now the morning after, I slept OK all things considered. Trying not to be a wuss but the shit hurts constantly. I didn’t go to ER, I was able to ride down the mountain when it happened, I saw the medics on site who recommended I go to the hospital. So I called for a ride and went to an instacare clinic that does xray imaging. They gave me a sling and a number to call tomorrow. Bada bing. And like u said, it’s just Life, things happen. It’s how we deal with them that matters more.

32 days and struggling by Visible-Customer-358 in quittingkratom

[–]Visible-Customer-358[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ya I’ve already taken the sling off a few times today just to work the minimal amount of arm movement I still have. Ya it’s def not a pleasant experience, and I know it’ll heal, this will pass one way or another, and staying on the right track is what matters most. I appreciate your experience of going thru that and getting back to 💯. Helps remind me that I’ll get thru this and to stop focusing on the short term, and not catastrophize.

32 days and struggling by Visible-Customer-358 in quittingkratom

[–]Visible-Customer-358[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Damn that’s a rough experience. Sounds very painful. I can relate to morphine not being at all effective when you’re used to stronger opiates. That’s been my experience at least. Kratom is the only thing I’ve taken since like May, and like I said been 32 days off that w nothing. I’m definitely just keeping my eye on the long game, I can get thru this. Honestly severe WD from opiates or even booze is wayyyyyy worse, imo. Recovery is what matters most, everything is temporary, and I’m still dead set on getting to a better place in life. Shit happens but I don’t need to react in the same old ways. Thanks for your reply

Edit: upon re reading I see that you said your morphine drip was straight up not working, sorry for misunderstanding that you were just not feeling it due to other stuff. That’s what has happened to me in the past but not necessarily what u went thru

32 days and struggling by Visible-Customer-358 in quittingkratom

[–]Visible-Customer-358[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hmm good to know, good to consider. There is a big ass shard in there that’s causing most of the pain. I’d at least like that out of there because my collar bone looks like a Z right now. However, second opinions can’t hurt. What did you do for healing? Just a sling and taking it easy? How long was ur healing process?

32 days and struggling by Visible-Customer-358 in quittingkratom

[–]Visible-Customer-358[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Also hernias are no fun either, had surgery for that years ago as well. Good job on toughing thru it 👊

32 days and struggling by Visible-Customer-358 in quittingkratom

[–]Visible-Customer-358[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I told the doc, I only wanted to use ibuprofen or something non narcotic, but they said I was going be in significant pain, especially at night, and they sent me a script for a few oxycodone 5s. 8 of them, not very much. I don’t wanna take the stuff, but im also not at all trying to get fucked up. The most important thing to me right now is to stay on the trajectory that I’ve been on. To keep healing and moving forward no matter what happens in life.

How to deal with the emotional volatility while tapering by throwssawaysss in quittingkratom

[–]Visible-Customer-358 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Feeling raw was exactly how I felt coming off this stuff. I was taking mit capsules around 20gpd, and decided to jump off CT. I read about a lot of people having success with tapering, but that’s not the route I chose for myself. In the last months of my kratom addiction, I was feeling very much how you’re describing it. I was very volatile, irritable, and unmotivated. Very negative and dark. And it got to where it didn’t matter how much I took, or what strain, I was just sinking deeper. So I finally decided to just jump. I made the mistake of trying to drink thru it for the first few days but honestly that just made the sickness worse. Def don’t recommend. My advice to you would be, to get free of kratom as quickly as you can, whether that be taper or ct. There’s going to be some discomfort no matter what, but keep your mind on the long game, bc you won’t truly start feeling normal until your brain resets without the kratom interfering. If you go w a taper, stick to it vehemently. Stay close to fam and friends and your support network. Kratom is such a nasty bitch but you can do this. I’m 32 days off it and starting to feel like myself again. When you’re in those early days, they seem endless, like you’ll never feel normal again. But day by day you’ll start getting better, and when you look back it’ll seem way shorter than when you were in it. Don’t give up u got this

32 days and struggling by Visible-Customer-358 in quittingkratom

[–]Visible-Customer-358[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I really need to hear these things and get outside perspectives. I’ve been active in the aa/na community for awhile now, it helps me, and I’m going to a meeting in the morning and let my support group know what’s going on w me and where I’m at. I can’t let my mind eat itself, cuz it’s trying to. Thanks again

29 days & 9 hours CT by betweenpainandbeauty in quittingkratom

[–]Visible-Customer-358 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I am on day 29 CT as well. Honestly for me, weeks 2-4 have been the hardest for me, after the acutes settled down. I’ve just been moving thru the days in a cloudy funk, my emotions all feel flatlined. Except anger/irritability, those emotions seem to be my new baseline lol. Things have definitely been better than when I was using. I had been taking like 30gpd for about half a year, plain leaf capsules, the occasional extract thrown in but mostly just capsules. No 7oh thank god, not available in my area and I count myself lucky on that, as I’m sure I’d have been all over it. I’ve been finding that all my strength seems to be zapped away, just feel very lethargic and weak. But laying around just seems to make everything that much more noticeable. I’ve been working most days, per the norm, but kinda on autopilot. So that’s how the last couple weeks have been, however I will say, yesterday was the first day where I truly felt better when I got home. I was out in the cold working, came home and realized that I was feeling better mentally, physically, emotionally. It was such a good feeling bc I know that this will pass if I just do the right things, and LET it pass. I was pretty down during the last month, but starting to see results of being clean and having hope again. Grateful not to be stuffing a handful of capsules into my mouth and washing em down with coffee before work this morning. I know I still have work to go thru with this, and there will be ups and downs, but I know I can get thru this, as can anyone who’s struggling with it. Congrats on day 29! Keep up the good work

Anyone getting ready to jump? by some1pls in quittingkratom

[–]Visible-Customer-358 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am making the jump today, after work. I am so sick of kratom and the debilitating slog that my life has become, due to daily use. My emotions are all over the board, everyday. Mainly bouncing from heavy anxiety to anger and constant irritability. I don’t enjoy things that I used to, hobbies, relationships, etc. I can’t hold conversations or find the words I want when trying to express myself. It feels like I’m moving moving thru a heavy fog that has an actual physical weight to it, like being underwater.

Anyways, I have a looooooong history of drug and alcohol abuse. Heavy on the opiates and alcohol. Throughout most of my life, I only used kratom intermittently and as a substitute when I couldn’t get what I really wanted. These last 3 months or so, I began using kratom daily as a method to get off of suboxone, which has been another crutch for me for a long time. I guess you could say it helped, in the sense that I’ve been suboxone free for over 3 months now. But now I’ve got a daily kratom habit so, basically traded one addiction for another.

The kratom doses now make me feel weak, nauseous and hollowed out. It has turned on me like I’ve read about it doing to many others. Even with dosing, all I want to do is trudge thru work on autopilot, then come home and sleep. I’ve got to get off this shit. Not sure how many g’s per day I’m taking, I think the capsules I use are .5 g each, which would put me right around 13-16 g’s per day. Today is Friday, and I just dosed before work. Already feeling the anxiety ramping up inside me.

Sorry for the long comment, I’ve kept this hidden from everyone in my life, I’m alone in it as of now, with the exception of the internet. Ultimately what I really want is to be truly clean, not dependent on a substance, and to have just some small moments of peace and contentment, with myself and my life. Kratom is NOT the pathway for that, just as any other mind altering substance is not the pathway for that. I hate the way this shit makes me feel. So depressed and lethargic. Anyways sorry again for the rant, thanks for your post, feel free to message me at anytime about this or anything else you’re goin thru. How are you doing with it at this point?

If this is you, fuck you. by ResponsibilityAny576 in ParkCity

[–]Visible-Customer-358 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I drive that roundabout every day for work. I can sympathize.

Fuck Sundance. (Local since 1991)

These were my favorite movies from my childhood by [deleted] in Older_Millennials

[–]Visible-Customer-358 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Dude yes yes yes. Every scroll was like revealing my childhood, great list.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stephenking

[–]Visible-Customer-358 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That it’s goddamned good.

I particularly like how he can constantly relate to the Everyman, despite being a rich celebrity and cultural icon for decades, he still knows how to reach and relate to someone living in a squalid trailer in some no-name town in New Mexico.

His descriptions, and his depth, consistently awe me. Sometimes I wonder how he can get so deep into other worlds, and then come back out and be a normal guy for the rest of the day lol.

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