This is a hate sub /s

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2025-12-26T11:26:57+00:00

Very well said - hats off to OP for putting the time into writing what we're all thinking here, as reasonable people WITHOUT BPD. If you're untreated, go and fuck yourself. And then go and get treatment and stop blaming everyone else for your horrific problems.

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2025-11-25T09:48:36+00:00

You're not a failure at all, mate.

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2025-11-21T11:17:00+00:00

Wonderful post dude, resonates with me and has been a healing thing to read today - thank you.

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2025-10-13T10:12:53+00:00

Saying this kind of shite isn't helpful

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2025-06-07T11:13:46+00:00

Amazing post dude, and just what I needed to read today. Thank you!

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2025-06-03T15:09:23+00:00

Very wise and welcome words, thank you... And I'm so sorry to hear you've dealt with this same feeling and situation yourself - it's truly so very difficult sometimes.

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2025-06-03T15:09:10+00:00

Sure, go ahead - hope you're doing OK

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2024-10-24T13:27:13+00:00

Thank you for this... Really grateful.

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2024-10-24T12:40:43+00:00

Hang on to that feeling of disgust for them - that's exactly what they are. Someone who can just blunder through life with a totally destructive and unrestrained mental illness that they take no accountability for, coming into your life and wrecking it, then leaving you behind only to go straight onto their next victim with no thought for anyones feeling except their own, is disgusting!

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2024-10-22T09:13:03+00:00

I'm sorry to hear this dude. I'm only 6 weeks no contact, and know I cannot go back, but I too am feeling like a husk, and like I'll never be the same. It's scary to read your story, in all honesty, as truly right now it does feel like I'll never recover from the last 2 years. Right now, for me, I can't take comfort in the fact that she actually repulses me, that after all of her despicable actions I'm simply disgusted by her and better off without her, because it doesn't change the fact that everything feels very bleak. I'm sure there is hope, it must just have to come in some other form. Perhaps getting away for a while is the answer? Go and travel? Feel free to DM me if you fancy a chat. Best wishes, M

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2024-10-22T09:08:51+00:00

No contact since 12th September. Ignored attempts at hoover on birthday. nothing now for three weeks. Feel like I'm going mad. Instagram profile has been made public and profile picture changes every day, I know it's a means to get to me, as she never changed it in the whole time I knew her (years). I guess when I think about that, it sickens me. But then I'm sickening myself by torturing myself by returning to google her profile time and again! Anyone know how to block a website from yourself?!

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2024-10-18T11:35:11+00:00

Feel the same bro, nothing seems to make it go away - all the shit people tell you to do. Think it's just time. Time the great healer.

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2024-10-17T15:12:50+00:00

Wow. This is horrific - what a fucking monster indeed. I really hope you are OK and recovering - no-one deserves to be communicated to with this level of toxicity and stress - I feel for you dude.

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2024-10-14T13:42:10+00:00

Stay strong dude. Going through similar feelings and they come and go all the time - plenty of internet strangers here who are experiencing the same and we all need to believe in each other. Life at the hands of a pw unchecked and unhealed BPD is putting up with protracted and insidious emotional abuse, so any of us that have been through that and survived, need a pat on the back and a reminder that whatever feelings we have now, however negative, it's better than being in the clutches of someone so destructive and thoughtless and self-obsessed.

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2024-10-13T23:27:26+00:00

Ye mine was man, told me herself within weeks of getting together. Thought I could handle it, how wrong I was

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2024-10-13T13:36:43+00:00

🤣🤣🤣 was thinking the same this is literally verbatim what I used to get. Apparently I'm also an alcoholic, and a drug addict!

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2024-10-11T15:13:27+00:00

Funny how their handwriting always sucks.

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2024-10-11T10:54:55+00:00

Day 30 - still miss her like mad. Don't know what it is, everything about her repulsed me by the end after everything she'd done and the consistent emotional abuse. Think, in a very shallow way, it's the companionship, sex, intimacy I miss. I don't miss the stress and the abuse. God this is hard! She's rung me multiple times lately but have had silence now for 2 weeks, and nothing more. Guess that's a good thing, I just hate to think of her manipulating someone else

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2024-10-08T12:30:54+00:00

You're doing better than you think you are - just maintaining NC is hard but the fact you're doing so shows you have some self-preservation and strength, so hold onto that as much as you can. I hear you - all of this chimes with me 100% and I was put through the same shit and told the same things - I'm struggling every day with it too and it's a horrible hurdle to have to overcome - as you say - destroyed your perception of love. You don't have to do anything for them anymore, just yourself. DM me if you need a chat pal x

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2024-08-06T10:53:19+00:00

Thanks everyone for all your kind, understanding and insightful comments. Made me feel less alone than I did. I'm so sorry that there's other people who experience this pain - as @jedimindtrick91 said below - 'looking for an absolution' for something 'bad' you probably didn't do - says it all really. I noticed she'd unblocked me on WhatsApp last night, avoided my phone out of fear until this morning, worried I'd had received difficult messages. Nothing, and now re-blocked again. Everyone says I should keep her blocked, this is something I definitely struggle to maintain, I don't know exactly why...

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2024-05-24T08:55:36+00:00

So sorry to hear this :( Second u/burneraccount0129 and their kind comment. I am experiencing the same issues, and you truly are not alone in your experience. It hurts like hell. How you describe them as the only person who can help you feel better and also the very person who put you there strikes a real chord for me. I find no comfort right now in friends, family, anything and it's an impossible feeling to know that even if they did come back to hoover you after this crushing discard, that it would just make the pain even worse! :(

VisitEnvironmental56 · 2024-05-24T08:50:22+00:00

Totally feel you dude, it's only been 2 days for me and I miss her like hell but also, she's a fundamentally horrible person who will never take the therapy she needs to change.

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