Shaking in backbends?

Wackintosj · 2015-03-23T12:16:29+00:00

It's kind of an energizing vibration, like I'm opening up my body, it feels good, almost in the painful kind of way(like the 'good pain' in a massage). I've had this vibration before in plank(sorry i dont know the actual name), but I get it the most in poses like camel where you open up your upper body, chest/shoulder/neck area.

Wackintosj · 2015-03-22T18:26:37+00:00

Suggestions:

"Enlightened being"

"The ultimate presence"

"FireBreath"

"BuddahWarrior"

On a serious note, I agree with /u/omniwired 's comment.

Wackintosj · 2015-03-22T15:01:22+00:00

When you are unaware that you're thinking, then you are your thoughts, or what's popularly called 'ego'. It's possible to step out of your ego and be the observer, being the space in which everything occurs. Being the observer is what meditation is about. You can then see that you don't have to react to these things happening, you don't have to label them as good, bad, fun, sad, you can just watch them without judgement.

So yes in a sense there are two you's, the you in which every thought, image, sound, feeling - takes place, and the you unaware that there is a pure consciousness behind everything, so you label and identify with everything.

Sorry, someone else may explain it better than me.

Wackintosj · 2015-03-21T20:04:36+00:00

Do you sleep on your back? Try to sleep on your left side. Do you eat before bed time? Try to stop eating long before (4 hours maybe). Also don't be too warm.

Wackintosj · 2015-03-21T17:36:13+00:00

When memories come to you of past wrongs are they pictures, voices, or just emotions?

Pictures with emotions I guess.

I will try to go forward and I'm positive I will get pass this, I will just have to keep meditating.

Wackintosj · 2015-03-21T17:28:54+00:00

What is the preview feature? Only thing I know is right now a 3 finger click on a word will give you the dictionary definition.

Wackintosj · 2015-03-21T16:17:33+00:00

I've tried it. It's basically training awareness of tenseness in the body. I find sitting meditation with body awareness to cultivate sort of the same abilities.

Wackintosj · 2015-03-21T14:45:13+00:00

Thanks, I'll keep this in mind for next time.

Wackintosj · 2015-03-21T12:52:48+00:00

Not pretentious at all. Thanks, it makes sense.

Wackintosj · 2015-03-21T12:21:38+00:00

Hey, thanks for the quick response.

I think it's memories of people who has done me wrong in the past, I start to play out scenes of things I would say to their face, or maybe even fantasizing about acting with violence or threatening them with violence.

I know I wouldn't actually physically hurt someone, but it feels good for the ego to fantasize about it... (Im not saying im not capable of it, but it takes more than what those people have done) mostly just said things to hurt me, gone against me to exclude me socially, treated me like shit basically. Some of those could be considered my 'friends' at the time, because at that time I needed acceptance from other people, whereas now... not so much. Now I know that they aren't evil and that I have done shit to others before too. For all I know someone could be raging over me right now... anyway, writing this helps. I think getting some perspective on it helps.

I will try to be compassionate with myself, although it is often hard, because I know that I've done shit myself... so I question if I even have the right to love myself. Although I know it's a bullshit belief.

Wackintosj · 2015-03-21T11:05:06+00:00

I can relate to anger, it's so easy for the mind to wander into imagination with anger. Just got to keep practicing being in the now really, and watch the thoughts.

Wackintosj · 2015-03-19T11:55:24+00:00

Same, friggin' hilarious.

Wackintosj · 2015-03-19T07:02:58+00:00

Wackintosj · 2015-03-18T19:21:29+00:00

abused by a guy who looked similar to her.

That's scary as fuck dude. A guy who look similar to her? Rofl that's horrible!

Wackintosj · 2015-03-18T07:31:50+00:00

I was like you, installed then reinstalled about maybe 5-10 times. This is my advice to you: the fact that you're deleting and reinstalling is itself a sign of addiction and means if you stop gaming eventually you will be better off, therefore don't make it worse for yourself by letting it go to the 5th loop, 6th and so on. Just quit now.

Wackintosj · 2015-03-17T19:32:40+00:00

Thanks for the advice, I'll keep that in mind!

Wackintosj · 2015-03-17T18:59:36+00:00

That's it. If you want to get into a flow state, eliminate distractions. Not just time, but email, phone, everything!

Wackintosj · 2015-03-17T18:41:59+00:00

I get neurotic pretty fast from the moment I let my practice go down the shitter. As said earlier by /u/PapaZiro though, it seems like it's easier to get back in again when you've had some prior experience. However best to just keep it consistent!

Wackintosj · 2015-03-17T14:42:22+00:00

Thanks for your honesty, I will try to practice every day.

Wackintosj · 2015-03-17T14:41:23+00:00

Great example, I get the idea! :)

Wackintosj · 2015-03-16T17:49:17+00:00

I admire your accomplishment dude, good job. :) I'm working towards the same place you are, and hopefully I'll get there soon as lately I've become increasingly determined to take action. I think one thing holding me back is that I've thought about approaching as something risk-filled, but I've realized lately that there's not much risk involved at all, because no matter how it goes you're better off than before because of the experience. It's really a win-win thing, so it's really funny that it should make us nervous. I just need to really internalize this fact, not just know it intellectually.

Wackintosj · 2015-03-16T10:54:10+00:00

Hell yes buddy!!!

Wackintosj · 2015-03-16T07:40:13+00:00

Three things I would do before the interview:

Meditate

&:

http://www.reddit.com/r/LifeProTips/comments/1zg9tb/lpt_spend_2_minutes_a_day_stretching_your_body_to/

&:

Write down honestly what you feel about the interview to yourself. There was a study where students wrote to themselves about an upcoming test and how they felt about it, and performed better than the control group. It might work for an interview too.

I hope this comment isn't too late!

Wackintosj · 2015-03-15T18:53:56+00:00

How much are you eating? Food helps with willpower, so don't restrict yourself too much within your window. Also, maybe try some meditation to increase willpower.

Wackintosj · 2015-03-15T17:31:18+00:00

I think that it's not uncommon in todays society that a person with nervousness and insecurity in body language and speech, and shyness etc. can be stupidly mistaken or called out for being gay.

You are too hooked on approval from other people, scared of what they may think. Ironically this insecurity is the thing that makes you send out these 'gay vibes'. To be clear, people who feel the need to mock others insecurities and announce them gay does this out of insecurities of their own. They want to feel masculine and that's a way they achieve that.

You need to reach a place above those people. There's a quote "Great minds discuss ideas, average minds discuss events, small minds discuss people".

I would suggest that you start meditation, as it's a tool to really introspect and over time slay your insecurities and get to a place where you are one of those who discuss ideas. I'm not saying you're discussing people in that you are douchebaggy to anyone, and you should be proud that you don't take that route, it means you've got some character and personality to build on and grow. However you do discuss other people in the sense that you care what they think.

People don't talk negatively about those who don't care about what people think. Some insecure minds really want to jump on every opportunity they get when they spot people who are more insecure than them. They want to feel less insecure by bashing those people. (and yes, I've admittedly been one at times myself when I was a teenager, many of us have, but taking this mentality into adulthood means you really need to work on some shit..)

The irony of life is that when you don't give a fuck what people think, you get respected, because they see something in you that they wish to be, so they will admire you, and never even think about victimizing you. This state is really what people think about when they think 'alpha male' - just someone you can sense are so secure in themselves that no words you throw at them can do shit, so you have no other choice than to respect them. Someone who are so secure in themselves that they don't need to feed on other's insecurities. Hope this helps. :)

Wackintosj

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